chibi_kunoichi

i did tell matt, in grade 5 tho (5 years ago) i asked him if he liked me and he just said no, although we were in gym and i asked right when he ran past me since i was sitting. and its not that easy for me. i am like an almost outcast. just cuz of stuff that goes around the school that is ****in ********!! damn ******* kael!!! he knows it dun make him any cooler by spreadin rumors 'bout his own sis:flaming: :flaming: :flaming: well, i could always tell everyone what he DID do (walk on the kitchen table bare naked wearing my mom's high heels:demon: ) so it wont be easy for me to ask any of them out, 'specially since the next school dance was cancelled due to discovered drunks at this year's halloween dance. so i wont be able to dance wit him or nothin. i have never had a real relationship either, unless u count online, then i've had one fo about 2 months that went really great till i broke up wit him cuz i wanted him to be happy with someone he could hold everyday and not spend his time at a computer, typing how much he "loves" someone (me). fine, how much he's infatuated with me. well so far it goin cool wit cal. tho i never talk to him or anythin, while i was outside for gym barely an hour ago, he was in the caff and kept starin at me (through the window duh) lol and he saw me jump up and down alot cuz it was -41 with wind chill and my *** and laps were so frozen they were stinging (damn winter foot hockey). im still wearin muh jacket cuz me so f*ckin cold. well yah, i'd just feel bad cuz my new years resolution was that i'd wait and not go out wit anyone till matt got back (dec.28) but i l.. i'm infatuated with cal at the same time:S lol u guys have to vote in the poll!! its at 3 to 3 and that no help!:P P.S. sorry fo it bein so long, i like giving detail:p

nooo k, his dad got transfered to australia and the rest of his family is going with him, so matt had to go with his dad to australia and i dont know if either like me, tho i did get a hug from matt when i gave him those presents for goin away. and cal does look at me sometimes. its not matt's fault he had to go.

well, gotta love someone in the mean time. so far i got cal's pic on the computer, but not millers (matt miller). ahh i dont think ill show it tho. its not a good pic.reaaallly bad compared to the real thing. w/e. in the pic his hair is dark, but its really dirty blond and he's got blue eyes. (hooootttttt :luv: ) this is from his profile "Oh and my picture is of last year so i may look like a little bltch in it. But i do anyway so it doesent matter hahahah" he's like a comedian:P loves to be funny. ill put up a pic of miller later. miller's got sorta bright brown hair and brown eyes and the cutest dimples:P and ok, maybe its not love i know, more like "god i like them sooo much!!!". oh, and did i mention that cal hangs out with my bro since he a year older?

hey we in the same boat. i never been asked out before and its really buggin me. well, only once but he's in grade 7 and im in 10 so tha'd be extremelly wierd and would get me an even worse reputation in school:S i know i am practically below popularity, but that cuz my ******* bro tellin everyone at school all these damn lies so no one wanna hang wit me. so i think that the best thing for me would be to move and start completely new. be more outgoing, more social, i'd try to be a whole new person since my old one wasnt working out; bully in elementary school, barely speaks a word at school, never does work, known as a ***** and says the worst of everyone i dont know, prejudice. if i were u.. wait, i practically am. well i'd wanna fit in and change myself, just not so much that it'll be bad for my health or anything. u know that saying, if u cant beat them, join them. i think if u like the new you and your getting all these new friends, stay with it. its better than staying as someone with almost no friends, plus itll make u feel better. -says me

im pretty sure matt knows i like him since i said "ill miss u:(" when he was on his last day at school, and i bought him a goin away present and got everyone in our grade to sign the card. cal doesnt know tho.. prob, i did add him to msn tho:S he duz look at me sometimes but i still dun know if either like me, plus since matt in australia, i never get to talk to him cuz he around 15 hours ahead of me:S so when he's awake, im asleep (prob;)) plus i fantacize about cal more so that y im askin this q. i asked matt in grade 5 if he liked me. he said no. im in grade 10 now and he's really nice to me. i never hang out with either of them cuz they in completely different groups than me.

ohhh no no no no no, i havent gone out with either. thats how long i've liked him!

here's the dilema: i like this guy matt for the longest time (5 years) and he went to australia for a year and wont be back till december 28th around. i really love him. around a week ago, i almost bumped right into cal (calvin) at school on the stairs and we were like 1 inch apart (our face) and he is actually the guy i love next to matt. now im just as obsessed with cal as i am with matt and i dont know who i like better. so now i got both of them in my head at the same time and its driving me crazy. its like that love triangle on that soap opera passions, except i dont know if either of them like me back. who do u guys think i should like better?matt is kind and sweet, cal is hot and outgoing. ill ask another q later.

lol, trunksless:love:

there are new episodes of southpark now, kenny is replaced by butters:P and the last episode i saw was about saving baby cows and stan god vaganitis or something where u get an outbreak of vagina's all over:P lol that was so funny. and yah simpsons and family guy are awesome and a ton of japanime. yay rurouni kenshin and love hina and slayers and magic knight rayearth.... their all my favorites:P oh, dont forget the oh so popular inuyasha:P initial D's good but i just dont like how the faces are drawn and how real the cars look compared to the characters:S oh, by any chance, has anyone here seen "count down"? its like this rated r thing that isnt rated for violence cuz there is none, no swearing either... guess what that leaves:tasty: lol

lol i heard about that mcdonalds one:P there are alot of people doin that these days, preying on the high money makers:P damn gold diggers:demon:

lesson in life: if your depressed and you think you have nothing to live for, you do... AND DONT COMMIT SUICIDE!! i almost did one time because i know i have a bad time sometimes, but if i killed myself, this kid wouldnt have asked me out. im not gonna because he's in grade 7 and im in 10 and im 3 years older, once we're outta school and he still likes me, ill give it a try. but yah, no matter what, to everyone, dont kill yourself, its the dumbest thing anyone can do, and if u tried but didnt die, you're gonna go to jail!!! thats the rule here, suicide is illigal, if u try it and fail, its off to jail for you (canada). oh how old are u zidane? cuz age matters in this.

wow does this ever seem familiar to me:S a) you think you love her but its just because u think she's so cute and u like how she acts. b) you should try to be close to best friends before going out with her. c)dont call her "your girl:.... d)just gather up your nerves, stick em in a safe and talk to her. e)dont forget to spend time with her, call her every now and then and seem interested in her, dont always talk about yourself. f) if none of that works, DUMP HER SORRY LITTLE ***!!! she doesnt deserve you if you try all that and she still acts the same. she'd be a snobby little brat if she did! beleive what i said here, cuz u have no idea how many times this has happened to me. trust me, if u do dump her, you'll find someone else, there's always someone else out there waiting for someone to sweep them off their feet with that person's charm and personality and looks.

lol the little mermaid:P i heard somewhere that they were cancelling spongebob but i saw it on tv yesterday:S and yah those parents of the girls are dumbasses!! i mean, there is a mom and a dad right? what were they doing the entire time their kid was dying? if it was a motor boat i could see how they couldn't hear her... yah, im not sidding with the parents but if it was a motor boat and they were going like 20 or 30 m/h, i can see how they wouldnt know that their daughter jumped out, it could be one of those times that u dont think your kid is a total idiot and they probably trusted her to stay in the boat, and she could have jumped out and been left behind, it doesnt take long to make distance between the kid and a boat in motion that "fast" ( i dont know if thats fast or not, i go by km) so in like 3-5 seconds, the kid could be far away and they prob couldnt see her because she didnt have a lifejacket on, which was veeerrrry stupid. and she could have been sucked down by the currents (i.e. titanic) plus the currents that weren't from the boat could sweep her under. u know she probably just wanted to see the fish, that sounds a whole lot more beleivable that looking for spongebob. so its not the girls fault but the dumbass parents. poor kid:( all she wanted to do was get closer to the water.

mine would probably be passions (soap opera) because its got a bunch of ******** in it and its so funny:P there's so much "evil" in that and everyone in the show is in a love triangle, even the old hag tabitha, well, sorta. she's having julian's baby:P there are 4 pregnant people right now:P first tabitha, then gwen, then kay and we dont know who the forth one is yet. its the craziest show there is:P well, next to Man VS Beast. right now there are 40 midgets (or small people) vs an african elephant pulling each a plane!! thats so crazy and funny:P P.S.may god rest josh ryan evan's soul (timmy from passions, he was areound 20 when he died, he's a midget and was tabitha's puppet that became a "real boy") [url]http://www.eonline.com/News/Items/0,1,10352,00.html[/url]

if i was ever to write anything "nasty" about trunks and anyone (any cute japanime girl [me wit spiky hair lookin like a cartoon]) i'd be writing rated R stuff and not in the bloody way, i mean in the "wet" way :flasher: lol :love2: naw its not a freak thing to think that, i aint the only one, i just found out my friend likes hot anime guys too. i really like claude from star ocean EX [url]http://evausa.net/reviews/starocean.html[/url] he's the blonde guy. ashton is the guy with 2 dragons on his shoulders and i forget the guy's name who has the long dark blue hair . for some reason alot of them are always hot. mmm, trunks naked and hot and sweaty :drool: