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[COLOR=DarkRed]There was a thread about it on Tony's site. I joined...to just see what it was like. There were a few from OB like Sennen, Shin, Tori, and Aleia, but I rarely go there anymore. The editing tools to design the page sucks and there are several people that do not know the colour wheel. I'm not joking. They put light pink font on a hot pink backround, or a small animated GIF images that repeat throughout the whole page making it mind boggling. I do admit that I am checking there occasionally because I have some old friends I used to be close to on there...and unlike the billion other people on there, I will NOT put a picture of myself on there...ever.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Had to write this for my English 101 portfolio. We had to write a description of Heaven or Hell through actions and the senses of touch, sight, smell, hear, and taste. Comments are greatly appreciated and desired. [b]I opened my eyes and gazed up into the sky and at the environment around me. Everything was black and white with nothing but different shades of gray in between. Horrible stenches came across my nostrils and made me sick to my stomach and almost gag; the strong smells of sulfur and of rotting flesh. I searched for the nearest exit wanting to get away from those ghastly smells. A blood-curdling scream of a woman kept me frozen in my tracks as I rapidly looked around for the cause or woman, but couldn?t to any avail. Finally finding my ability to move, I rushed about in a state of utter panic looking for the nearest exit. Seeing a building to my right, I did not waste any time to enter its bloodstained doors. The moment I entered, a wave of cold air washed over me sending a shiver throughout my body. This wasn?t a tall building, but it was almost twice as wide, wide like a warehouse. Inside there were many doors and rooms. So many I felt dizzy just by looking at them all. Entering the nearest door, I spotted several people sitting at a long wooden table. On closer inspection, I noticed that the table had plenty of food. No one was eating, and they all had their arms stretched out. It seemed odd that they couldn?t bend their elbows, nor did they seem to want to feed each other. Noticing my stomach growling, I grabbed a loaf of bread, ripped off a piece and put it in my mouth. I coughed and gagged, spitting out what looked like sand and maggots. I turned pale at the thought of almost actually eating that. I dashed over and grabbed a golden goblet full of water. The moment I took my first sip, I dropped the goblet in shock; it hit the floor in a loud clank, blood spilling from its hold. Backing away nervously, I turned around and ran out of the room and into another. I screamed and stood on top of a steep cliff. There was a big fierce fiery pit burning below, its flames reaching extraordinary heights and threatening to singe my clothing. Trying to get away, I tried to run to the door. I slipped, and fell into a pit and into the flames. I screamed as darkness consumed me as the fire burned my flesh.[/b][/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]What does this mean? You scared him off plain and simple. You can never really force anything. Maybe he doesn't want a relationship now, or...he only sees you as a friend or little sister and nothing else. Don't go looking for love, let it find you.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]The game that I spent the most of my time on would be a MUD (text-based RPG) called Achaea. Let's see. I played for a total of 45 days, 11 hours and 23 minutes since my first joining of the game in April. Add another 17 hours or more from my other character and that'd be about 46 days of play time. It's a lot of fun and really great.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]When I am not here posting, which is often, I spend time playing MUDs like Achaea, reading, studying, and analyzing everyday situations, and thinking about politics. I also chat a lot on MSN, play video games, hang out with friends. I only come here when I am bored out of my mind.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Shut up, just shut up. Stop with your pessimistic ranting and think about it. The more you talk crap about yourself the more you'll start to believe it. Hun, analyze the situation here. Not just the bad things but the good things as well. What do you enjoy doing? What is it that you do differently than others? During my years of depression, things were very much the same. I had no friends, or really 'true friends.' No one talked to me and often people teased me. I often thought that there was something wrong with me, or, they hated me. I was suicidal for a few months and only one failed attempt. Truth of the matter was: I had low self esteem, I was shy, and not courageous enough to actually do something about it. I kept thinking like there was something wrong with me and kept putting myself down...like you are now. It's a downward spiral. Once you start down that path it is a pain in the butt to get out of it. Try and think optimistically and you'll start to feel better soon. Before you go to school eachday, try telling yourself aloud in front of the mirror, 10 optimistic things about yourself. Such as, I am a beautiful woman. I am a beautiful woman that is also smart, and kind. Participate in activities that make you laugh. Once you start to feel better about yourself, people will notice it too. Once you do that, you may gain some friends, TRUE friends. That helped me. I hope it helps you...PM me if you want a friend, k?[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]The first thought that popped in my head with reading this thread title. "Who cares?" We've all stated at least some time or another that labeling people are bad right? So... If you call yourself punk, and you tell others the who, what, when, where, how you are a punk and what a punk 'truly' is, aren't you setting yourself up for being made fun of? Also, what if someone takes what you say in a bad way? If they tease you for it, then you just feel bad and blame them for being mean. Just a thought...[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]What's so great about a biased thread? Nothing. The threads I find most interesting to read would be the threads that have many different opinions. If a thread only contained posts saying, "Oh, you are right!" or, "You are never wrong," is lame and utterly boring. What is the fun in that? Most importantly, please remove your head from your bum. Sorry, but you must learn this lesson. You are NEVER always right, and things do NOT always go your way. If I received a quarter for everytime I got something to go my way I'd be rich. Things do not go your way hardly at all. Also, in that thread. If you specifically stated that you wish not to hear opinions or have someone go against your thoughts and ideals, do you think that people will actually abide by your wishes? Posting a request not to do something like that is more like an invite. Just like in the tv show, Dexter's Laboritory. "Deedee! Don't press that button!! Stay out of my laboritory!!" What does she do? She enters the laboritory and presses that button. If you are too immature to take the criticism, simply don't post.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Well, there are a few things. The first major thing I've dealt with would be moving back to the states after living in England for three years. I hate the states. I want to be back in Europe with all of the culture, art, food, traveling, and history! During ages of 12-17 I've been in a depression. For two months of that I've been suicidal. With only one attempt. A failed attempt too otherwise I wouldn't be here. This past summer I've dealt with my dog and cat dying within a week of eachother. That was harsh. I got a new dog in July so I feel better bout it now. A few weeks ago, a friend got hit by a drunk driver and died. I've also dealt with many things like guys telling me to die as well as girls calling me bad names and worthless. Throughout my life I was teased a lot as well. People telling me I would never amount to anything as well as people saying I'm strange or weird. Sad really. Their loss. Also, my father cusses a lot. My parents may get a divorce. Pity how these things keep happening to me.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Was Japan_86, and then Japan. I was childish and immature then. I also got sick of people sending me random IM's and PM's asking if I was Japanese...so it is Ryli. I do not know what it means but I got if off of [URL=http://www.achaea.com]Achaea[/URL] I chose it cause I don't want six thousand people to know my real name and it isn't related to Japan at all.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Dating or anything online is unhealthy and a waste of time. It may work out with some people. It didn't for me. All I can say that it was a happy two months.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkred][list] [*]PS2 Fixed [*]Red Hot Chili Peppers Greatest Hits [*]Linkin Park: Live in Texas [*]Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children [*]My friend, Joe to come visit for a weekand [*]My friend Steve to be safe while in Iraq [*]ZMud Subcription [*]Loads of credits on Achaea [/list] A lot of them are self explanitory. Some of these things I know I won't get, but there is nothing wrong for hoping for the best.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Neither are better cause they are both fictional characters that will never amount to anything other than anime characters. I am not dissing either anime. I love them both, but come on! Isn't there more to life then to ponder who is best? I hate these favorite threads. They are pointless. How about discussing something else?[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Worst fears, hmm... Primates would be one fear that I have thanks to that book I read. Hot Zone I think it is called. Ebola is one scary disease. I am also deathly afraid of being alone and lonely. Other than that, maybe heights? Though that doesn't stop me from snowboarding and rock climbing. Weird, eh?[/COLOR]

[quote name='sakurasuka][CENTER][SIZE=1]... In denial? She just admitted she was having breakdowns, and she seems perfectly happy otherwise. I really don't think that she's in denial.[/SIZE'][/CENTER][/quote] [COLOR=DarkRed]You never know. Back in junior high/high school, I was going through the same things. Those 'things' lead from one thing to another, and I almost killed myself because of it. Sorry if I seem cold. Just try not to give in to those negative thoughts and be with friends that make you happy. Or, it could possibly be that time of month too.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]You are depressed and in denile about it. As simple as that. Just keep your chin up, think logically and you'll do fine[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]For me, I'd say fall and winter. No other time I can get those cold rainy damp nights and lots of snow here. I just mainly like two kinds of weather really. Thunderstorms and two feet of snow. I love to snowboard and read by flashlight. Thunderstorms soothe me and put me to sleep. I like summer and spring the least. Mainly because it is boring, and hot in the summer and slushy in winter. [/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]There are a couple of things I'm addicted to right now. One would be an online text RPG, aka MUD called Achaea. I've spent 25 days, 8 hours, and 4 minutes on my main character, and on my other one, about 20 hours. I really love the game and I play it nonstop. The other right now is texting on my cell phone. It is so much fun I already made about 25 text messages already? heh heh Whatever works to keep me awake in class, lol. Other than that, I am addicted to writing and drawing. I do those non stop. I love to journal and draw doodles.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Well, I've seen some Princess Tutu on On Demand, and I'll have to say that I love it and that it should be put on regular tv programming. Only on Adult Swim or International channel, because Cartoon Network will ruin it. I'd like to see some of the other Gundam Series back on or on tv as well. MS 08th Team, Gundam X, Gundam 0083. I miss those series. I also want to see Robotech on G4TechTV. Hearing Panda rant about it and playing Robotech: Battlecry so much makes me want to see the anime. I'd like to see Legend of Himiko and DNAngel on regular programming though. That'd be cool.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Whenever I am bored, I just watch any random anime I find On Demand. The there are a few anime I'm trying to watch the most of when I can. They are Decendents of Darkness, InuYasha, and Naruto. Decendents of Darkness is so funny. It has a bit a horror in it with a whole lot of comedy. The art reminds me a lot of Gravitation, so that's probably why it appealed to me at first. InuYasha, I love, though I don't stay up on purpose to watch it anymore. Who wouldn't like the comedy and romance involved in this show? Naruto. Ok, it's an awesome show and all, but I prefer my friend's dub better. The voices are all horrible, cept Kakashi. Kakashi has a very pretty voice. I guess that Naruto's voice is 'ok' but I hated it at first. It just grows on you, I guess. [/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Well, there are few that come to mind. I'm sure you've heard of some of them. One is an anime called Trigun. I'm not going to say anything cause it'll just spoil the plot. Just watch the series and you'll understand. It's one of my all time favorite anime. I'll edit this post when I think of more, k?[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]You can't always expect her to be online when you want her to. The main thing is to have hope and have lots of patience. I know how you feel. If I go a week without talking Charlie, I'd go crazy. I remember when I didn't really get to talk to him for two months. It..well, made me really upset. Now I talk to him when I can and write him letters. If it is meant to be it's meant to be. You just have to have patience. That's the most important.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]A) Which aspect of OtakuBoards do you find to be the most negative/confusing? What I really find annoying is that there are so many PM's of mine, yet, whenever I need to find a specific one, it takes forever. Maybe put a PM search system like Gmail has for it's email. B) What is your favorite aspect of OtakuBoards? No favorite threads[/COLOR]

[COLOR=DarkRed]Crap just happens. Hurricane Katrina's aftermath is still really big in the news, so that's why some didn't realize what day it was. But, how many memorial days, president days, and other holidays pass without us thinking of the holiday and what people did for us?[/COLOR]

[COLOR=Navy]I am an artist in many trades. I'm great at all but singing, acting, and painting. I make a lot of well made cabnitry, as well as scroll saw and lathe. From rolling pins, to boxes, bowls to salt and pepper shakers. The list of things I can make is endless. I am also very good in pottery. I have several pots, teapots, a lamp, and even a drum! I also draw A LOT! I spend most of my time during the day doodling at least something. I love to sing. I am not the best, but some like to differ. I hate painting, but lately, I've been trying harder at it to get better as a painter. I've been teaching myself the guitar slowly. I am also a good writer and I like to write romances and parodies. Great mix of things, eh? I also volunteer at a tv station as well as do stage crew for drama plays and I dance. So a lot of creativeness there.[/COLOR]