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[quote name='AnarchyMan']ok, so im an anarchist,and i live in Northbrook Illinois, one of the richest communities in the contry (good combo huh), and im a sophmore at Glenbrook North [/quote] Ew. First. I pity you to be in illinois, because it is quite boring... I actually go to Lockport.. yeah the school with the football team that won state champs for 2 years in a row. The only thing we are really known for. I have a great school - yes. the people on the other hand arn't the best. highschool is a time for fun and expanding new possibilities. first you want to be yourself, you want to experience all there is.. yes that means even the bad, you want to reach your limits in learning as well.. don't forget all those courses that are offered. I am actually graduating early next year.. i am in my junior year at the moment and graduating half a year. I feel like through this whole time of highschool i have not accomplished anything that I actually set out to do while I was there. Highschool moves by fast for people - before you know it you are already a senior and almost leaving for college. Your freshman year is your first year.. experiencing all the different events and then sophomore year you are adjusted to everything - the schedules and the school, and by your junior year, you are finally becoming one of the upperclassmen and you know what this means... seniority. :] highschool can either be the best time of your life.. or the worst. it is your chance to make it whatever you want.

kay first off. XD talking in third person is just so much fun. cough. second, these are all copyright to me. kay read on.. alright so i decided to put up a few of my poetry. i dont really specialize in this, i am mostly into drawing, but this is just something on the side i like to do [CENTER]Tear stained face collapsed heart a pillow mixed with blood and tears lonely nights spent with yourself the world is to busy to care as you wither away into tears cliched words to cheer ones soul but you know your place to be alone anxious emotions of finding some one as it comes to be no one why does the world seem so? so determined for you be alone? [/CENTER] and then we have the next one ... this one is a more recent one i wrote. [CENTER]Differences climbing dividing you and me Scary Scenarios, your existence is futile wondering what happened why am i so alone again? Why are you gone again? Not telling me whats wrong again? slipping from grip is a friendship almost lost then i am there holding on again why are you gone again? falling away again? ignoring me then? dealing with you as you pretend i don't exist as you run away from us do you really care? is this really a friendship? whats next, when you don't exist? you're gone again and i am here again trying to hold on your grip is failing... are you gone? do you hear me now? you're gone now i am alone again now[/CENTER] the last one is written with a different style then i usually write. but comments and such would be well accepted. - Lily

my greatest fear you ask? Is probably loseing my best friends, or any friend that i use to lean on, like it was said before by jun, just afraid of being alone, even though now lately, it seems i've been faceing a lot of stuff alone. i am also deathly afraid of being swamped by spiders with no shoe to save me XD besides that, i dont really have a greater fear[none that i can think of anyways], i just live my life one step at a time, ready to take on anything.. and Freak, of course he wont tell you what he fears, it is like showing your greatest weakness to the world and in a way, if you are hated enough it is a way of showing the person just right where to kick you, or how to scare you. So i guess to give out that kind of information is hard for some people..and figureing out mitch? good luck.

unlike you, who's grandparent acts like that, i never really had that problem, unfoutunately i am stuck with a spanish speaking woman, who believes everytime i come over, that i am there to serve the men. I mean literally last time i came over.. she made me get everything for my brother and whim to his every will. then to top it off, she never has liked me, i am the family outcast in my family and i am related too, she plays favourites with all the grandchildren, and my dad used to say when i was younger it'd be my turn, but y'know what? years later, i am still the one she doesnt really like XD I am too differenty for my family .. so i get a lot of harsh makeing fun of about how i am into certain things. you'll just have to deal with her, because sometimes when they are that old, they'll never change there ways, they'll keep going with there snide remarks, and you'll just have to learn to deal with them even when they become so annoying, and you will have you times where you just want to break and starting telling her how it annoys you to a point of no return. i dont really know what to say but good luck ;/

jessica simpson moments eh? Lately, i have noticed that this summer my brain has been more dead than usual, like yesterday i was talking to my mom about something my friend said.. then suddenly.. i couldnt even remember what he said at all o_o; and i always have times where i go upstairs to get something, and i totally forget what i went upstairs for, i mean i climb the stairs..get to my room..and just sit there like "...now what was i gonna get?" then my friend gave me specific instructions to tell one of my guy friends something, and when i went to tell him... i totally forgot, so i am sitting there like "..now what was it.. i was supposed to say?" and i was trying to piece together what i was going to say..and sometimes i forgot certain words.. and i am like "and uh...uh..." and they are like "...the money?" XD and i am just like "yeah.." XD then yesterday, my friend told me he had t-mobile..and i was like "you have t-mobile? i have voice stream! ^_^;" and then later.. my dad was talking to my uncle and my uncle was talking about switching over to t-mobile, and i was like "dad..when are you gonna put me on t-mobile, since i have voice stream" and my dad just stared at me like "..its the same thing..." -_- so yeah... those would be my jessica simpson moments were i am really really stupid like dyuh...

wow, maybe they should just make a special forum for love problems, probably would get a lot of hits too, seeing as well ...atleast most are in the dateing age, no? I dont know exactly about your problem, I think everyone in there own way is right, perhaps getting him to hang out with you and you friends, and being lovey dovey to him is a good way to approach also, and maybe talking to him would also be good to atleast confront him about it and how you feel directly towards it, and if he still denys it.. point out times where he has been and shown this jealousy, and if he doesnt change tell him you'll leave him.

In my opinion, i think both ways are good, i mean its happened to me, where a guy has befriended me and we became good friends then he asked me out, and we went out for a few months. But its not always the best way because some girls.. when they have guy friends and they have been friends with them well enough, might not think of them as more but just rather a friend. i'd rather if a guy went out and asked me out, unless you are a total stranger off the street, then i'd rather you atleast talk to me for a bit, have a week of talking and flirting then casually be asked out. XD that'd be interesting in my perspective. I dont know, for some reason its a hard subject for me to choose. Or to choose in general, the summer is hacking away at me, i am telling you, my brain is turning into mush..o_o

yeah, i do need to spend more time. and Cee, you did point something out to me, its not the head that is big, its the body that is small, i was getting tired at the end... i should of made it bigger and erased it. it bothered me all last night, perhaps i'll do an edit of it.. or just leave it as it is and draw something else more to my taste so it wont bother me anymore. but thanks for letting me know ^_^;

in my opinion, i dont really have a set gender of the baby that i want to have, if i even have any. I dont think i really care if it is a guy or girl, I'll probably love them if they are either... in all honesty.. And if i do have a boy and or girl right after the other, or even twins, i most definately wont play favourites, because i've seen the effects of that, because i am one of those kids who's well not so the favourite. I suppose in a way, some people would like to have a choice, so they can plan for this baby, i.e. be mentally prepared, create there room etc. In a way i can see the good in that, but it would suck if it came all wrong? you thought you were going to have a baby boy? and you were so prepared... and then it ends up being a girl, then you have to change all of that. I think right now in my life, i feel that i am inadaquate to make this decision, i am not planning for a kid untill my 20s, and i'd rather much live life and worry about that when i am older, but right now i dont have a set gender. i could care less ^_^ i am fine with either. or as your blunt question Would you choose the sex of your baby? No also i am extremely tired so i am sorry if some of my writings dont make sense ^^

I don't know mitch. how have you been there and done that? if it was so interesting and thought provokeing, wouldnt more people of replied? according to reading some of these threads people posts, we do have some intellects, according to themselves that is. so if it isnt that interesting... and only a few post, how is that changeing it, and how would you of been there and done that? I dont know if you understand my mindless babble. but eh. we've got to remember to stay on topic, and when does this have to do with being pushed to your limits? unless this is pushing your to your limits, of course? [pardon me, i didnt actually see it was pushing you to your limits, but maybe it means you should put more effort into changeing it and comeing up with things that are .. interesting and better than what you see, instead of complaining about it in a lot of threads, do something. k?kthx.] -- me, on the other hand, posted earlier about what pushed me to my limits but I forgot something.I think my family sometimes pushes me to the limits with how judgemental they are, how they want me to be like someone else, when only I can be myself. Every day, they find something that is a flaw, and they poke at it, even how much I change for them, I only get more flaws for them to poke. It pushed me to mental limits when I was younger, because i was so sick of trying to be so perfect for them, and so sick of them not being able to accept me how I am. Sometimes though, just sometimes it still pushes me to my limits of trying to get them to accept me as..just basically Me.

ah yes hatori ^_^ he was one of my favourites also, though his story is kind of sad ;/ dont you agree? but overall this is an enjoyable, that i rather do feel like watching again XD

ah ddr, one of my favourite dance games, yes i admit i was addicted to its steps. its a great game, and my friends got me into it months ago, and i've been ddring since. its fun getting your own style into it so you dont look so bland, when i was in florida there were guys that came in with towels and water bottles to show off right? so i was standing there and watched.. just checked them out and i sort of gave them a look like "eh.. you're..okay" because i have indeed seen much better, so after they were done.. me 'n my friend jeff, who i was teaching how to play, decided to play. then they came over and watched me, i didnt get too good of a look they gave me, because one of the guys i was with was trying to help jeff and it was throwing me off too..and i was lookeing so i was like "ahhh O_O" but yes it is a fun game, but i hardly ever get the chance to enjoy it.

way back when, when i first joined in 01, what sucked me in exactly? i derno the diversity of different subjects i could post on, mostly i joined because my friend told me about it and then i decided to join because she did. only thing was, to me.. when i was 13, is that this board seemed big to me with a lot of people and usually when one posted, sometimes it wouldnt even get read by people but just pushed to the side, and you could of had something important to say that would of given you a total different look. so i ended up leaving and going to a smaller board where a lot of the members that were here...well not a lot just a certain amount went to this different board and it was more my size, well a year later of experimenting with different boards i found myself back on here, but then school and stuff interfered so i ended up leaving.. and now in '04 i am finally back and ready to take it on XD; despite my title of new member, i am not really one in a whole, i know most of you from a long time ago, but i highly doubt you could remember me, usually i'll have to use the example of my ex boyfriend's girlfriend, then everyone is like "ohhh i remember you!" but yes, what stuck me in this time? well i am more advanced in my anime and manga, and my rping skills definately have improved since i was younger but i have to find a certain rpg to join. so overall that is my answer, sorry if it isnt too specific but eh.. what can one do?

i am quite impartial to this, at mitsuwa, where i buy most of my manga, and its all in japanese because it is a japanese market place, they have it shrink wrapped so that you cant see in it and mess around with it. In a way that could be overall good because the product you are buying is gonna be fresh and have that overall crisp feeling to it. Also, there is the part that i hate, since everything is in japanese, and some of the manga you havent heard of because it hasnt been translated yet, so you kind of want to see if it is good before you go and buy it, usually when i am there i have to buy off of cover looks, but that can be somewhat misleading to the buyer, a friend of mine bought a manga and she was mostly looking for something clean but ended up with a manga with a lot of sex scenes *chuckles* it was amuseing to see her face though, i must admit, but also you kind of have that feeling where you'd like to know what you are buying before you buy it. It could turn out to be something totally different from what you wanted and you just wasted money that you could of spent on something else more of what you were looking for. perhaps a solution to this is to have atleast one book not wrapped [could be like said a synopsis], so that people can look through it and see if they like it or not, then if they do, they can buy a wrapped book that hasnt been messed around with? this is a hard issue to go on about, i mean when i hang out with some of my friends, we spend time looking at art books and just flipping through them and sometimes we will look at manga and be disappointed how they are translateing some manga and probably screwing it all up ;_; i guess for me personally, i like being able to see what i get before i buy it, but i am not the kind of person to sit there and actually read the whole manga o_o; and then just put it back and take another manga and spend another while to read that.. to me its too much time wasted when you can flip through, if it is to your taste and buy it, then spending hours on end reading the whole friggin series there, when you can be in the comforts of your own home reading it. but enough of me rambling on.

personally, i like the clouds, i like the way you captured that, but i could look at clouds in pictures for a long time, something about them gives a calming feeling. the first picture of the dog is rather cute. also the one with the fields and clouds look really spiffy, photography is an interesting yet hard subject sometimes. i mean it seems easy to just take a picture of things, but its more of captureing a sense of feeling in it all. so just keep that in mind as you take pictures. >> i dont know, something i learned when i took photography as a class because i didnt know what else to choose XD;

[B]online lingo[/B] as previously mentioned by katana, i cant stand it worthe anything, and i really hate when people all type like "lyke ur dun here?" it just pushes a little button in me that makes me want to snap at them and yell "use atleast some decent proper english!" I also am so horrible at understanding some of the new age lingo online, i even had to ask one of my friends what something met the other day that some person said to me. I mean it would probably be better if you learned to type things out, because if you need to type something for school or work or anything, it'd probably look more professional, and i am sure you'd look more smarter too. I mean would you type a paper for school like "den the guy wun duh game when any1 pushed him" You probably would get a F on that paper, so if you dont do it for school? why do it online? you'll still seem stupid. beyond that i dont really have anything else that bugs me in general, that or i just cant think of anything right now.

[FONT=Tahoma]well..Fruits basket is one of my favourite series of the moment, i am actually really collecting my first series and this one is it. usually i'll bum all my anime off my other friends, but for once i am decideing to actually buy my own series, i've got the first 3 dvds, and i am trying to buy the 4th but i am a poor poor person >< my favourite character definately is Yuki, and Mommiji.. so cute ^_^ i also love the doctor guy who's name i just cant rememer off the top of my head, sorry. but this one anime that i am somewhat obsessing over, i guess it would be this years favourite for me ^^ [/FONT]

[QUOTE=Kieko][color=orange][i]O.O How much time did you spend on it exactly? Anyway. Concidering that you didn't spend much time, it's a good drawing...erm.. sketch. He's well proportioned, there's pretty good detail, the hair looks good, and so it's an all around good job ^_^. The only reason why I made the comment that I did in the beginning of this post is because there's a lot of extra lines and you can see some of the lines you tried to erase. But, concidering again that it is a sketch, good job. I especially like the headphones. I love to listen to music. Anyway, if you would like me to comment on the whole...um... is it a card? I don't know, but if you'd like me to comment on it, I really think that you should have colored the guy first. I know you didn't have time, but it just bothers me that he's in black and white and not even inked in and then you have colors in the card and... I think it may just be me, but that bothers me... on second thought, don't pay attention to what I just said, it's probably not you, it's probably just a personal issue I have to work out... Good drawing, though! ~Kieko[/color][/i][/QUOTE] well.. i actually only spent 5 minutes, because that is all the time i had to draw something before i had to pack and head off to bed. i'd probably would of put more detail in it, if i had time, thats why its a quick sketch.. i did get frustrated with it at a point where i was like "OMFHGAKSJERWER" because i was trying to hurry and trying to get this done because i havent said a thanks to anyone who visited my art site. and i probably would of done a better sketch on pencil and paper, but i am still getting used to useing my tablet and all. thanks for the comment though ^^; i believe in a few days i'll actually put something up maybe worthe some awe.. if and when i get out of this art block that i am so settled in ><

[FONT=Tahoma]well i think i'd take a bullet for my 2 best guy friends, because they have really been there for me when no one else has even cared of my existance in points of time, and they would most likely would take a bullet for me. so i think that is who i'd probably take a bullet for, i dont know about my family.. maybe my dad because he actually cares, the rest of them wouldnt take a bullet for me and mostly wish i was dead already ^_^ but thats okay, i am fine with that.[/FONT]

[FONT=Tahoma][quote]this is actually a really cute set you have. While it may be a little too simple for my taste, I'm sure that's what makes this pic really cute. [/quote] well you gotta love simplicity ^^; i derno, it is something i whipped up really quickly.. i'll probably end up putting some artistic flare into it later in time but its a random cute set for now. ^_^; and pawn, i like your sig, it reminds me of a show called "are you afraid of the dark" they used to play way back when on nickleodean, cute show though XD; but yeah its to my taste, like you said about your avatar, dont ask? i wont.[/FONT]

Well i thought i'd put something i've drawn up here, since this is the art area, might as well add some of my cruddy art, its only a 5 second doodle i did for my deviant art account before i left on my trip to florida, so it was rushed and i didnt even spend time colouring it.. i am such a horrible person..i should of atleast gave them something worthe seeing besides a sketch for the hits they gave me. i am posting this because its the lastest thing i've drawn. awell. heres a lil sample ^^;; maybe more later when i draw again. and these people arnt from animes or anything.. -_- my own charas or just random characters that come from out of nowhere [updated one more picture and another XD] the last one i have up there, i did it for 30 minutes.. colouring and sketching. i've got to learn to put more time into this, any criticsm.. ideas? anything worthe saying?

[FONT=Tahoma]well shippou, i like your banner and avatar, its very cute and seems kind of like you just want to squish it ^_^ and it doesnt make me not want to look away because it is over appaling, i find it good ^_^;[/FONT]

[FONT=Tahoma]ahh i wish i had a vast amount of moneyto spend on anime but sadly i dont; the anime series that i am collecting right now, because usually i bum all of my animes off of my friends XD and for once i thought why not buy me own series? so i am in the process of buying all of fruits basket, i thought that was a cute anime ^^; uhh one i am trying to finish is Rahxephon, i love Lain, if you havent seen that one.. its a tad bit confuseing yet very good none the less, uhh Full metal alchemist is good too..eh that is all i can think of, off the top of my head anyways you'd hafta give me some time to actually flip through my mind of what animes i have watched that were good. but good luck with all that money ^^; [/FONT]

[FONT=Tahoma] well i survive everyday in isolation in my house, i think given the right necessities.. i could make it XD but... if i had nothing... then i dont believe i could make it through isolation[/FONT]

[FONT=Tahoma] well on contrary to what everyone else is saying, i think that i can say, that everyone has there own definations to be pushed to the limit, so therefore to her that can be something to be pushed to the limits of boredom, per say. also you guys have to realize finding a job these days isnt the easiest thing to do, i mean to say its really easy..but to actually find a job when thousands of other kids are searching for a summer one too, and with some buisnesses getting mad because they want full time people not people who are gonna quit at the end of the summer. myself? my limits were pushed in school, when i had finals that i needed to get A's on in order to pass, and then i had pressure from home saying that if i didnt things would get taken away..privelages etc. so therefore..everything started going rough on me and i barely made it through but with the help of my loveing friends there to support me ^^ but yeah i cant really say i've been that pushed to my limits. [/FONT]