Fall

There's probably less than four black people that attend my school. It's not bad for them, they don't cop any crap at all. Everyone thinks they're "cool", and they're in the "cool" group. No asians at all. None. There's one kid who is half japanese, half british. He's alright. The rest are white. It's the majority of the population at our school. My great grandfather fought in the war, and went mad. He commited suicide. Since then, no-one in my family has been in the army.. not to mention, had anything to do with the army. I'm not sure why, I know I want to join the Navy some time. I get sea-sick, yeah, but... yeah.

Whenever I'm walking somewhere in the dark, say, walking from the shed to my house when it's night, I suddenly get a fear of someone following me, chasing me. I think someone might be behind me, running after me or watching me, and I can't help but run as fast as I can to the place I going to. I've got no idea what it's called, or even if it's identified as a phobia or fear.

Winky. Or Dude. Those names suit hamsters. ;)

I've never seen a real flood. Out here, getting a flood would be a miracle. We've had a drought for the past two years, so severe, the whole state was declared 99.8% in drought, and 0.2% borderline. It's recently started to rain a bit, and right now, it's been raining all day. Forecasts say tomorrow should experience heavy to very heavy falls. There was a flood when I was quite young, though I can't remember it. We have photos of it somewhere, though I can only recall one showing the windmill in the bottom paddock along the river being submerged in water to it's axel.

I've always found it hard to laugh, or even be excited, about a situation that could cause death or injuries. My friends do, actually, they laugh at dangerous situations quite often. When one of my friends stacked his bike and ripped apart his right arm, the rest of them were laughing to death about it, and didn't even think to help him up. I couldn't find it atleast one bit funny.

I'm the oldest child in our family, and I have to put up with five other younger brothers and sisters. I get very angry when it comes to arguing over something [i]I[/i] think is right, and they don't. I dodn't hit my sisters, but I argue with them. As with my brothers, if they want to fight, bring it on. I usually get into punch-ups with my brothers, a few have been severe, but they're usually just to win over something. Once someone gets hurt, the winner is clear that he has won, and the loser walks away. :drunk: It's a common, everyday thing in this household.

I weighed around 87 [b]kilos[/b] when I last checked. I'm right on 6 feet, or 1.83 meters I think it is, high. Basically, I'm slightly overweight, the average weight for people like me is around 70 [b]kilos[/b]. Though I do have a big build, it seems. I mean, when I lay down on my back, I can see the bottom of my rib cage showing. I've been on an exercise routine lately, and it's working. I'll just keep doing this, moderately, not too hard. I want to lose [i]some[/i] weight, but not alot. I play football, so I don't want to be a skinny fella like most kids I know and be playing a full contact sport. :toothy:

I love them. 14 Shades Of Grey is their recent album, and it's solid as. I love the music, and at the momentm I don't think I've missed a day without listening to it since it's been released. Break The Cycle, and Better Life, were their previous albums, and in my view, the best they've got. These two albums haven't got a song on them that I don't like, they're just all-round awesome. I love these two CDs. Dysfunction is also great. I don't listen to it as much as their later albums, though there's some damn good music on the CD. Theur debut album, Torment, was also hard. Some great songs on there. This CD basically got me a bit more into Staind, than what I already was. Great CD. [b]It's Been A While[/b] is the best song from them. Ever since it was released, it's stuck with me. It fits me, my life, everything I have to put up with, it basically describes my life -past, present, and future. Their best song out, still.

I like a few rap bands, not all their songs... and being honest, I absolutey hate rap if you compare it to my love of rock music. I'd choose to listen to, even considered "****" rock bands, it I had a choice between them and a rapper/group. I like [i]Sean Paul, 50 Cent,[/i] and [i]Eminem[/i], though I wouldn't listen to them as a choice of music.

Put Your Lights On [b]Santana [i]featuring[/i] Everlast[/b] -The electric guitar. The best. You Were The Last High [b]The Dandy Warhols[/b] -Love the flow to it. Outlaw Torn [b]Metallica[/b] -Kinda fits my life... sound-wise. Same as Fade To Black by [b]Metallica[/b], except the lyrics also fit, spot-on, in that song. It's Been A While [b]Staind[/b] -[i]Does[/i] fit my life. What It's Like [b]Everlast[/b] -[i]Does[/i] fit my life, exactly. (no particular order) (Headstrong by [b]Trapt[/b] comes in close there too...)

A normal day for me comeswith about five injuries. I'll list what happened yesterday. Broke my thumb by jarring it playing footy Sprained my ankle in the same game of footy Bumped my head four times on the same overhead sign in school grounds Stubbed my left toe chasing after some idiot Grazed my right arm and leg sliding across the ashphalt in an attempt to "ground ski" with my friends ...my thumb still hurts. :(

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Baron Samedi [/i] [B]This world is going to the dogs. A few nights ago a man, with a five week old baby girl in a chest harness was beaten up. The girl suffered head traumor (sp?) and the man was wounded pretty badly. Eventually one of the guys owend up, and it turned out to be a case of mistaken identity. They bashed up [b]the wrong[/b] guy, because the right guy had taken a mobile phone of theirs. The girl has brain damage and is now Epileptic.[/B][/QUOTE]What I read, was [i]no-one[/i] owned up for the crime. If it wasn't for one eye-witness of the attack, who eventually went to police about it because of the over-whelming public response on the tragedy, there still wouldn't be any arrests. The eye-witness eventually led police to the four attackers, the fourth recently arrested, being a young women. Either way of how it's been attended too, it makes me sick thinking of it. The thought of a father walking down a street with his child, and being bashed so severely that the child suffers a fractured skulla him recieving the same extent in injuries, is brain ripping. It just goes to show what people are like in this world, and how stupid some can be.

Being in a family with six brothers and sisters, it's hard not to get that angry. I've especially gotten so angry, I've wanted to kill him, with the second oldest brother. He doesn't listen, which is the main problem. And then, he doesn't learn. It all fits together. If he wasn't my brother, I'd probably be in jail for murder.

Racism is everywhere. There's no way to stop it. Football, down-town, in resturaunts, everywhere. You see it, you hear it, you know it. I find myself laughing at racist jokes sometimes, even though I know it's not right. I'm friends with alot of people from other "races", and my friends from my "race" see it as funny/awkward. It's stupid. I don't like the word "race" when it's used that way. Everyone's the same. "Race" makes it sound as if everyone else is an alien or something.

I use neither. The right-hand sleeve of my shirt or jacket comes in handy for that purpose. Otherwise, tissues. :)

I'd say a few times, though I tried not too. I don't often cry anymore. When I do, it's usually emoional, and not usually physical.

I love the rain. We hardly ever get any rain here, and when we do, it usually comes down it huge downfalls.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by satan665 [/i] [B] It seems lonely because most people who have problems or are depressed don't show it outwardly to everyone.. [/B][/QUOTE]Most people don't, no. But I did. :drunk: When I went to school, while I was depressed, I was so uptight and angry, I wouldn't talk to anyone, and everyone near hated me. I showed it alright. And then, once I was over it, I was normal again, and everyone was like "OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL happened to HIM?! HE'S DIFFERENT!!".

When I was in primary school, I was very smart. Not [i]so[/i] smart that I was above everyone else, but I'd get As and Bs alot in my reports. Now that I'm Year Nine, I've got alot worse. Year Seven was a bad year, not grade wise, but reputation wise. Alot of things turned me upside down, and I got to point of not caring about work at all. Year Eight, the same, except it had nothing to do with my reputation. I just didn't care, for no particular reason. Now I'm half-way through Year Nine, and I'm starting to realise I have to pick up my working habbits and grades, to get further than I'm on the track to be. I've actually made a signed contract with the year co-ordinator, that I finish every assignment from no to the end of the year, aswell as every bit of class homework. Heh, we'll see how long I can go before breaking it.

I was depressed a while ago. Actually, about half a year ago it was, if I remember correctly. It was so sad, I hated my life, myself, everyone around me, the world. I felt as if I wanted to die to let everyone else out of their misery. Don't know though.. I got over it. It was like a phase. Like something I'm interested in for a while, then get bored of it. I guess depression got bored of me, and ran away. That's the only way to get rid of the depression your currently in. Ignore it, and make it get bored of you. If it can't get what it wants, which is to see you suffer and worry about everything like a shag on a rock, then it'll go away. Worked for me. Though then again, I'm not you. It's the best solution though, I think. [QUOTE][I]Originally posted by Skyrose[/i] [b]Yeah, I went through a whole year of depression. It sucked. I think it's just a phase of everyone's life, where you start wanting more out of life, you think there's supposed to be more to it, and it gets you really frustrated.[/b][/quote] You just described it perfectly. Depression is [i]exactly[/i] like that.. atleast for me it was. Nice, Skyrose. :smoke:

I used to play soccer, I didn't really care for it though, as I was only young. I also used to swim, training, at that. I used to like it, and I was really good at it. Though I gave that up after a while. :drunk: Then came Ten-Pin Bowling. I was in the league for the sport, and I was carving everyone up.. while I had the skills. I missed a few training sessions, a few games, and lost it. I don't participate in the sport anymore. I then played cricket for a while, and I loved it. It wasn't really for me though, as my build didn't suit the reflexes and ability I needed to play. I loved the sport, but gave it up after a while. My all time, for me sport, is rugby league. I love it. I play forward prop at the moment, though I'm considering changing to second-rower lock (a bit more space to move around in, though not enough hit-ups). Rugby League is a great sport, and I don't intend to give it up for a while atleast.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Fly-T [/i] [B]You shouldn't really run yo mouth homie.... Fall, that fight would've had a different outcome here....either this Jayden guy could gotten boo'd because he jumped in or other ppol woulddv'e start gettin in...Most of the cats i know that bully aint really scared of anyone who come they way... EXAMPLE: This dude i know that be bullyin ppl(Jamal aka J-sizz) was just chillin dis one day....This thug dude that didn't even go to ur school just rolled up on him and was like "get down punk nig*a" J-sizz was shorter than this dude but they banged for a minute.... [/B][/QUOTE]That's your school, and it sounds like every other school. My school is like that. Most bullies don't like it when someone stands over them, talks over them, pushes them around. Therefore they take it out on most people they don't like, you'll notice their victims are either stand-outs, or smaller than them. You'll never see a supposed bully trying to take the **** out of someone bigger than them, unless the bully is in the "cool group", and the bigger dude is a stand-out (a "loser" as some may say). If the bully is surrounded by friends, bigger than their opponent, or just overall "cooler" by reputation, they won't hesitate to take them on, as the victim, the "loser", will be quite frightened by the bully's friends srrounding him, his size, etc. Reputation plays a major role in bullying in my view.

I used to sleep walk a little when I was younger, though now that I'm fourteen I don't tend to sleep walk at all.. I'm too tired to even sleep talk now. My mum always reminds me of one night I went sleep walking. I locked myself in the pantry, because I thought little green turkeys were chasing me.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Leh [/i] [B][size=1][color=700000][b][CENTER] 3 Doors Down, Kryptonite [/center][/b][/color][/size] [/B][/QUOTE]That's an awesome song, actually, I'm surprised I forgot all about it. It fits my attitude really well. Another song I forgot about was [b]Trapt[/b] Headstrong The main chorus verse of the song is what fits me to the max. "Back off, I'll take you on, Headstrong, to take on anyone, I know that you are wrong, And this is not, where you belong" Aswell as a string, "I see your fantasy... You wanna make it a reality paved in gold, See inside, inside of our heads, yeah ...well now that's over. I see your motives inside, decisions to hide" Man, all of this song basically fits me perfectly. [b]EDIT:[/B] I forgot. :drunk: [b]3 Doors Down[/b] Here Without You.

I actually read about this in the newspaper. If it [i]does[/i] get close enough to see any good detail of its surface, I'll most likely stay up for a while and stare at it. :drunk: