Fall

Metallica is, and has been ever since I can remember, one my all-time favourite bands. There's not one song they have produced that I haven't liked. Because they make heavy use of the electric guitar in all of their songs, that brings me even closer to their music. I love them, honestly. Their "other side" music, like "Fade To Black", "The Unforgiven" parts I and II, "Sanitarium (Welcome Home)", "Low Man's Lyric", "Nothing Else Matters", are on every blank CD I burn. That's how much I live by them. "The Memory Remains", "I Disappear", "King Nothing", "Enter Sandman", and the like, I love just as much. "The Memory Remains" is by far my favourite Metallica song ever. I couldn't compare any other heavy rock band to Metallica, in terms of... the best music. Metallica is crystal peace to my ears.

I don't tend to spend that much on myself, more on clothes. The most I've spent on clothes is around $450. In one day. I take alot of time picking out clothes, thinking of what I should wear for one day, etc. My hair, usually doesn't bother me. As I wear a hat, I look cool. :smoke:

I find it pretty amazing to read my starsign in the newspaper every now and then, and find that it's telling me what I was pretty much expecting to happen. Every time I've read my starsign it's been damn close to the real thing. I just can't see how starsigns can be so close, but mean nothing.

If you ask me, I think the worst will happen before it all starts getting better. Chaos will break out. That's all I can say. Devastation will grip the planet, man. Racism will run every day after every day. It might all seem well and good now, in the boundaries of control. But it'll all break loose. It'll all grow. The bad era needs to occur before anything good can happen to this world, my view is. This world is running on broken tracks. There'll be another war, soon there'll be three wars, than world war. World domination will be the main worry. Another Hitler will rise and the Great Depression will happen over again, on a huge scale. All will start from the results of better over worse. The world will run on one currency, one side, all from the minds of people wanting to make this planet all the more better than what it can be. One country following the trails of Hitler, invading neighbouring countries, chasing world control. Once all that could happen before the world crumbles actually happens, people will come to terms with what's happened, and drop everything. We'll fall at the mistakes of ourselves. Start again. - Yeah, a stained view, hey. But I've believed this for ages. It's all I can think that will happen. I find it truly hard to believe that it can only get better from here in the future.

Have the power to stand over all the ******** who think they're better than everyone else. It's been annoying me for a while now, and instead of fighting them and holding grudges and the heap, just standing over them and them knowing it would make me a whole lot happier.

I believe in it, but not too seriously. I'd like to believe in the Loch Ness Monster. Though to me, all the others are a bit far-fetched. The Loch Ness Monster can have an explanation put behind it that is more believable to me, than any other explanation put behind all the other "monsters". That "dinosaur" explanation... you know? I can find it so easy to believe that, it's not funny.

I've actually got a dream that reoccurs every now and then. I starts exactly the same, the story-line is exactly the same. Though the ending is slightly different every time I dream it. It's set in town, around the places where I usually am when I'm in town. Maybe it's because I'm often there in real-life. Whatever it is, the ending always has somthing slightly different, usually only small, but I can pick it. It lasts over three or four days, and what really freaks me out is most of the events in this dream have happened to me in real-life in the past. I always wake up tinking it's been three or four days since I've been in town, and then realise it's only been a dream. I hate waking up from that dream.

Surprisngly, there's only one thing that pisses me off to a certain extent. The "dudes" who think every conversation should include them. There's too many "big noses" around, and sooner or later I'm going to kill someone, for that exact reason.

I'm mature, compared to some of the idiots that go around here my age. I know a kid sixteen years old that thinks he's cool throwing a rock at the car of an old lady who he says "tried to kill him two years ago". And then you get the fourteen year-olds who put nothing worth knowing in paper bags and throw them at houses. ...yeah. I got to admit, I've joined in a few times, but I know it's pretty damn immature. I mean, there's no way I enjoyed the "fun" as much as my peers did. Compared to most kids I know, I could be one of the most mature kids around my age.... eh. I can hold back from things that my friends like doing, mostly immature acts of crime... or close. Most of the time I can, anyway. ...:drunk:

My group doesn't really have it's own slang... We just use slang that's currently going around the school that everyone uses. We constantly put down other people or other groups. Basically, we use slang all the time when we're taking the good reputation out of others. And there's usually alot of swearing in with it aswell. There's currently a phase going around now, and trust me, everyone in the school uses the phrases, even the year-seveners.. Like "What's that up dere, bra" and "Lets come up dis here way, dere bra". I do it to. :sleep:

At home I'm lazy. That's it. And that helps me to think about alot of things. I find that sometimes I have a big day, and everything just goes so fast, and when I get home I need to think things over. And because I'm lazy at home, I have no problem doing that. It's all good. When I'm with a mate, or a group of mates, or in town, or at work, I'm pretty social, I'm usually in with everyone else, not one of those who stand around and just go by time. I like talking to people, joining in the conversation, stirring people up, and the like.

Most public schools here have a fair amount of testing, that all public schools have to follow, though the test are spread out through the year so the students don't feel the pressure as much. It's meant to spread out the testing instead of having a heap of exams thrown at every student at once. Though this is only for public schools. Private schools, as like my school (what a shithole), still follow the old procedure. No testing through the first term or start of the second term, and then a huge pile of tests are sat in front of us at the end of Term Two. Same goes for the third term and fourth term. They count semesters, Term One and Term Two is Semester One, and Term Three and Term Four is Semester Four. Each semester ends with a heap of tests. What a great way to go into the holidays.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Sir Kyle [/i] [B]My first job ever was a job as an "all-around" worker at Arby's, a fast food restaurant for those not familiar with it. You know what I made? $5.15, or minimum wage as we call it. I worked there for two years of my life, with both heavy lifting, tons and tons of customer interaction, and smelling like absoulte crap when I would get home at night. At the end of that two year period at Arby's, I was making $5.80. That's it. Two whole years of my life, and all the more I got was not even 6 bucks.[/B][/QUOTE]Damnit, that's exactly where I am. I've been working at Hungry Jack's, a fast-food restaurant, for a bit over two years now, and I'm on $5.50 per hour. I'm not too worried though, we get away with everything up there, and I'm only after some pocket-money. This is the only job I've ever had. Apart from mowing lawns on weekends in town for a bit of cash.

Yeah, mate. There's people who hate school, just like you. I hare school, I reckon it'd be hard to find someone who hates it as much as me. Though I know I have to go to that place, and I know I have to actually listen to the teachers once in a while, and atleast get half an education. Even then I'd be better off than some of the people I see walking around here today, no money, no job, no house. Not all people who hate school, drop out, and can't read and write turn out bad. Though if you ask me, most of them do. I'd rather get an education, get a job. ...but there's always going to be that hate for school, that just sits inside me. I've always hated school. But atleast I go to school, I'm getting an education, I wouldn't know half as much of the crap I know now, without going to school. Always remember the good ol' saying... "School's the best years of your life!". Haha... yeah, I hate that saying too.

My room is really un-organized. I'd take on anyone in a "messiest room" competition with no hesitation at all. As for anything I'm too organized with... ha, good luck finding it. I'd have to say my clothes. They're either in one of my wardrobes or one of my chest of drawers. And even then I have to spend about half-an-hour finding the clothes I want to wear for the day, not because I'm picky or anything... mainly because I have too much clothes for my liking. Actually, I like having alot of clothes... I just have too much, more than one person should have.

The good ol' girlfriend-break up-still love you thing, you know. Except this one come over pretty bad, and at the moment I'm pretty mixed up. Apart from that, my holidays have been pretty good. A fight down the street, that was exciting, actually, that made my holidays all the more better. Ha.

I know that kissing isn't the wisest thing to do in front of your entire school, and I even know a few that do it just to look good. Though I have no problem with it what-so-ever. I see it as a bit harsh to be getting detentions every time you kiss your girlfriend. I kiss my girlfriend whenever it comes along. I mean, I don't go out of my way just to do it in front of everyone at work just to look good. Sometimes it just happens. I'm not going to say "Nah don't we'll get in **** for it" to my girlfriend whenever she wants to kiss me. Bend that, doesn't work for me.

Well, to my surprise, I haven't seen one "not-normal" person at my current school... :drunk: But at my previous school, there were a few, ha. It was out of line to see what some of those people done, in the playground, and in class. I know it's kind of rude, but I can't help myself but laugh.

I've done a few things that if taken far enough, could have ruined my life, made it alot worse than what it is now. Only one of those things I've taken beyond the limit. And you have no idea how much I'm happy to have done so. I got what I wanted. I may have lost alot of my life, may-aswell say everything. But in return I got what I wanted, I had done what I had wanted to do for two years. It may have done more damage to me and my life than to anyone else, but there's one person, who was a friend, that I know would have felt that pain as much as me. I can't say what it was that I done, I can't stand talking 'bout it. Now I know that if I hadn't taken that chance, I wouldn't be where I am today. [center]___[/center] [size=1]On a side note... if you ask me it's probably a scam that poetry thing, one out of two things like that are ********. :)[/size]

The world would be too perfect without greed. I don't really have anoher view on this point, though I thought I'd let you all know. :) The truth, I can't see Christmas as a "family time" for me. I actually can't see past the first hour of Christmas Day. I get presents, woohoo. So does everyone else I know. I know aswell as everyone else that getting presents is a big role of Christmas. I know no-one that takes Christmas as anything else other than a present getting day. It's all on greed. To put it simple... this world, I think, is more advanced and evolved than what it ever would be if greed was non-existant.

It's actually the middle of summer here, or so it sees like it today. It's reached 41°C. And not one bit of cool air. I've had three weeks off of school like this. :drunk: I have a job that usually requires me to work all the time, I've worked 'til midnight every night these holidays, so I'm pretty occupied for the night. During the day, I just go down town with my friends and mates, go for a ride or something. Though seeing as my bike has been stolen, it's a bit hard to go for a ride now. -_- Doesn't stop me from walking though. I'm rarely bored. Seeing as my days and nights are usually filled with stuff I want to do, I'm hardly ever home. Though when I am home, that's most likely because I have [i]nothing[/i] to do, absolutely nothing. And you know, being bored... it hits me pretty hard. I can't stand it.

To be honest, Christmas doesn't spark the slightest bit of excitement in me what-so-ever. It seems as if everyone I know around me is all hypo over this particular time of year, and here I am struggling to see what all the hype is about. Sure, we get presents, usually what we ask for and what we want. I mean, come on, it's normal to be hyped over that... I get hypo all the time. Though at Christmas, I aint got that hyponess in me. :smoke: And to add to that... I have a some-what deformed view on what the real meaning of Christmas time is. The birth of Jeses... that's about it. But now, with all the stories, news, technology, crap like that, I've kind of mixed myself up with all this... :drunk: I can see and know why Christmas time is a happy time for everyone... well no I don't, but to keep going- It seems like it brings out the inside hype of everyone... but it doesn't happen to me. I see Christmas time as a toy-filled, decorations-filled, party-filled, time. And don't get me wrong... I like it all. I just don't see it as a time where I can give everything up and go out present giving and hanging up little glow balls.

If life really was a box of chocolates, I would've already eaten 'em all. I'd need a box 100ft length by bredth by width filled with chocolates, for it to be my life. ...yep. :drunk: But I'm not saying life [i]is[/i] a box of chocolates. As if it would be. :smoke:

I slept in until four in the afternoon, then woke up, had tea, turned on my stereo, and went back to sleep. I've been working so much lately, I could fall asleep standing up. Funny how the one day I get off, is Christmas Day. It didn't worry me though... well deserved sleep. I just realised I had someting waiting or me on the breakfast table today, the day after Christmas. :drunk: A new stereo. :) Now I can play all my CDs... ha. :smoke:

My wisdom teeth came through with no problems at all. Though I got another problem, with those teeth in line after the wisdom teeth... "tearers" or something. Yeah, they've grown through too far to one side, and have slightly been pushing against the teeth in the front of my mouth. Every morning, I wake up with a feeling that irritates me so much. You know how when you eat something frozen cold, like an ice-block, and then wit something hot, or maybe vice-versa.... anyway, you know how your teeth feel all weird and seems to sting? I have to wake up with that every morning... but that don't matter no more, I've grown to live with it. It's basically an everyday thing, that I've put up with for the last six years, so I don't really care. Except when I get up for a feed early in the morning... :smoke: