Lady Macaiodh

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by gokents [/i] [B]Of course, I am a year or 3 younger, but I can still go to the bars (meaning Im over 21) so age shouldnt matter too much. [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]Hey, I'm only 23! I'm not over the hill yet. Yeah, I'll be your Valentine (but I don't promise to be [i]only[/i] yours, tee-hee, there's plenty of Deborah's love to go around). Maybe someone should start that thread, where everybody decides who's going to be whose Valentine. That would certainly bring my spirits up.[/COLOR] :love:

[color=darkblue]Thanks for the concern, guys. It really means a lot. I think I might not have explained things correctly, though. I didn't mean I'd go out looking, per se... I know I've been through an emotional wringer & need time to get my head straight. I guess I wanted to know if it was okay to keep myself open to the possibility. As for Mike getting on with his life... the only reason he's even with that girl is to rub it in my face. He used to just love bringing her up. But I really don't care. I hope he just forgets all about me, so I don't have to worry about him popping back in my life like he loves to do. Sometimes I feel like bursting out laughing because I'm so relieved it's over. But sometimes all I feel is this dull ache. It wasn't supposed to be like this at all. [i]He[/i] wasn't supposed to be like this, & I don't understand why. I keep asking myself that over & over & I can't come up with an answer. How could I have been such a fool & a failure? How could I have not seen what he was really like? Or maybe I did see & didn't want to admit it to myself because I thought he was my soul mate. I know I'm not ready for a new relationship, not until I can resolve these questions to myself. Maybe I'll never find the answers, but that's something I'll have to accept one day, rather than beating myself up over it all. I think that's a long way off. Still, it would be really great to find someone nice...[/color]

[color=darkblue]Another reason I dislike her is b/c every time I hear her voice, it sound all gravelly, like it's full of loogies. I unconsciously start clearing my throat whenever I hear her. She makes me want to grab her & pour Listerine down her gullet.[/color]

[COLOR=darkblue]As some of you know, I'm about to file for a divorce. My husband & I have been seperated since the end of last August. I tried to work things out w/ him recently, but he was even more abusive than before & I have accepted the fact that there's nothing more I can do. It seems as though the divorce is going to be particularly nasty. Not only are there numerous charges against him, for which he will spend time in jail, but he is alleging that I hit him first which is why he beat me up all those times (this is completely false, I'm actually quite the pacifist). I'm also probably going to have to civilly sue him to get my stuff back. My parents even had to change our phone number. This is what I need advice about: The past year has been the worst in my life. I married him b/c I loved him, but he married me to control me. He has never really treated me well, & before we finally broke up he was downright abusive. It's been a long time since a guy has been nice to me, romantically speaking. Every other guy I've dated has treated me like gold, but now I'm having all these doubts about my self-worth. I've never been the "mourn-the-old-relationship" type & I think it might be good for me to start looking around for someone else. He already has a new girlfriend. In fact, I recently found out he's had her "on the side" for awhile now. But do you think it's okay for me to start seeing other guys, ethically speaking? Even though we're seperated & about to divorce, we [i]are[/i] still married. But it could be as much as a year or more before it's final. What do you think I should do? Is it wrong for me to feel this way? I just want to find someone who treats me like i deserve.[/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]Well, it was supposed to be a good Valentine's day... but I'm getting divorced instead. My husband actually got me a whole bunch of stuff & then refused to let me have it. Unbelievable. I can't even find someone to go out on a date w/ because I'm still technically married. Otherwise, I usually don't mind Valentine's day. I normally get flowers & a stuffed animal, at least. "It's rainin' men..."[/color]

[color=darkblue]one of my old professors helped sue the virginia state government b/c state employees weren't allowed to access pornography from their computers. but this hindered doctors, scientists, & medical students from doing certain medical research (they were working on some sort of AIDS medication & had a huge setback b/c of the rule). they eventually won the case, but, yeah, that rule effects more people than just public school students. it should be made much more specific on what is actually porn & what is not. i can't believe it considered theotaku to be pornographic, lol.[/color]

[color=darkblue]let me get this straight. he asked the girl you like to dance, but then danced w/ somebody else? i'm not quite sure what happened. so he acted like a jerk. this isn't exactly bad for you. now's your chance to comfort her & show her how a real guy is supposed to act.[/color];)

[color=darkblue]there are too many things to name. recently though, the hardest thing has been dealing w/ my marriage breaking up. this is a really rough divorce, & it's still not over. i have to testify against him & he's probably going to jail. my family is pressing charges against him, too, for related stuff. even though he deserves it, i still feel guilty. every time i think about him, it's like a knife in my heart, only it doesn't ever heal or kill me...[/color]

[color=darkblue]heh, i know someone who want to create a world record for "the most poisons ingested in a human body w/ out dying". you're idea's a lot better than that, so go for it! this reminds me of a tim taylor from home improvement situation. more power! you'll have a water hose & an ambulance standing by, right? (although it do think that person i mentioned should go ahead and drink the poisons.) ::throws vase across the room:: [/color]

[color=darkblue]i cannot believe what i'm hearing. here's a fact. i've been homeless off & on for about five years. it is very hard for a homeless person to get a job b/c they have a) no address to put on their applications & b) no phone number with which to be reached. unless you are hired or given an interview on the spot, or have a friend whose number you can use (unlikely... if this were the case, you'd probably not be homeless), you're pretty much screwed. homeless people also have to move around a lot depending on what resources are available where. some shelters aren't even located in the same place from week to week, or don't have openings. most day-shelters only have certain times to shower. what if you have to be at work before shower-time? how is someone supposed to go to an interview after sleeping behind a dumpster & smelling like garbage? try that & see how fast you get hired, or how many dirty looks you get. yeah, there are drug addicts. but there's just as many people who are disabled or sick, or from horrible family situations who ran away or were kicked out, or scared & confused, or lost everything is some tragedy. i knew a guy who had a huge stomach tumor that you could see poking out of his skin. it was as big as a cantalope. he was homeless b/c the government refused to approve his disability. no disability, no medicaid. no medicaid, no medical care. he's dead now. i eventually got out of the system b/c i learned to use it to my advantage. many people don't even know how to find out what help is available. when i was first homeless at 17, i had no idea what to do. i didn't know how to get food. i didn't know where to sleep. i didn't even know how to get warm, so i caught pneumonia. i find your attitude utterly sickening & closed-minded. "homeless people are drug addicts or just flat out lazy." ????? that's like saying all black people are gang members or all gays have AIDS or all women should be barefoot, pregnant, & in the kitchen. your stereotypes offend my finer sensibilities. everything you said about homeless people you have said about me. i will make a point to avoid you from now on. i hope one day you'll experience homelessness first hand, rather than make gross generalizations. i have rarely read a post that pissed me off more than this.[/color]

[color=darkblue]to some of you that responded, i think the "get over it" advice is a bit insensitive. he's obviously in a lot of pain, whether you think he's over-reacting or not. but, yeah, i'm not quite clear on what happened either. if you lost your virginity to her, then i think you should try to save the relationship if you can. the decision to finally have sex for the first time is huge, if you're w/ someone you love. you will never be able to take that back & you will never forget her. think about it... this is the girl you saved yourself for all that time. i looked at your profile, &, being a guy especially (sorry guys), having waited that long for love is very commendable. if i were you, i'd give it another shot. once sex is involved, it isn't the sort of relationship you can throw away over one argument, but rather something worth fighting for. your connection is much deeper now. what does she have to say about this? at least get her side of it. i told my best friend almost immediately after i lost mine. it's an intimate thing that you want to be able to share w/ your close friend. i understand it was private & you feel betrayed, but this isn't exactly unexpected. i mean, she kept the secret all this time! for a girl that's... well, pretty good. hey, if it doesn't work out, be sure to chug some bacardi for me. i hope everything turns out okay, though.[/color]:)

[color=darkblue]hmmm, this thread must have been popular when i was gone. I'm sure i'll forget people, but... Vegitto4 Pressure Queen Asuka Anna Babygirl Sephiroth Piro Munkie Heaven's Cloud Noryko Angelcry Sara Navi (though i think she disappeared or something) Deathknight Ravenstorture Liamc2 wrist cutter that's all i can think of right now, it's 3:30 a.m. ::falls asleep on keyboard:: ::edits the random letters that were typed by my face::[/color]

[color=darkblue]i thought of something else. my mom used to smoke. it's ironic, b/c i used to get on her case all the time about it when i was little... hers & my grandmother's (i think a part of me associated the smell w/ old lady, lol). the first cigarette i ever had was one i swiped from my mom. if your parents smoke, you are much more likely to. they're just much easier to get. funny story. you know all those "after school special" type deals where the kid is tempted to smoke by popular kids? he tries to play it off like he's trying to quit but eventually gives in. then he takes a drag & coughs up a lung b/c he's never done it before. now my impressionable mind decided one day, "hey, i'd better practice smoking so i won't look dumb if that happens to me." so the show had the opposite effect. i'm serious, that's really why i started. just for practice so other kids wouldn't make fun of me. hey, it was junior high. popularity was everything, esp. to a nerd like me. what can i say. i now have a 10 year habit. i am such a moron.[/color]

[color=darkblue]i have a recurring dream (with only slight variations) that i've been having for about 6 or 7 years. it usually comes at least once a month, but often more. i'm back in high school, at youth camp. this alone is traumatizing. i see all the jerks i used to go to school w/. usually they try to trick me in some way--for example, getting a really popular boy to ask me out. i always foil their plots, though, b/c i know it's a trick & don't trust them in the least. but it still hurts my feelings, so i start to run to get away. but the popular kids all chase after me. when i look back, they have transformed into a variety of monsters (never the same on twice in any dream). a part of me sort of realizes that i can manipulate the situation, so i start to fly. it seems to take all my strength. but i can only get high enough to just barely get out of their reach. they try to grab my feet, & sometimes succeed, but never manage to yank me down. all i can do is hover there, even though i'm desperately trying to go higher, & it's terrifying. pretty easy to interpret. it's basically a metaphor for my whole high school experience. [b]Hybrid:[/b] is there a particular person or situation you're worried about right now, but feel you have no control over how to help? just a suggestion. it seems the most obvious answer... but, then again, not everybody has textbook dreams.[/color];)

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by tabmow [/i] [B]Should Anime Clubs be allowed in Schools ? [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]why wouldn't they be? does your school really suck?[/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]i can think of a million things but what's on tv right now is... michael jackson dangling his baby over a 4 story balcony... in front of many, many cameras & witnesses. & have you seen the masks he makes the poor other kid wear? i'd run away from home. george bush saying "nucular" instead of "nuclear." god, i cannot stand that man's rhetoric. or him, for that matter.[/color]

[color=darkblue]i've been smoking for around 10 years. it was two parts rebellion, one part suicidal tendencies, & one part apathy. i knew it would piss my parents off (though at first i did it secretly, so it was kind of a moot point), i saw it as sort of a "bad" thing to do (growing up in the church & in christian school, this was one of the worst things you could have done at that age), i wanted to give myself cancer, etc. i was pretty self-destructive back then. nowadays, it's just a part of life. i love it. i love taking that first drag. i hate when it's gone. it calms me when i'm stressed. it helps me wake up, it helps me go to sleep. it goes perfectly w/ beer. there are a million things. then again, it's the stupidest thing i've ever done. i'm starting to develop a smokers' cough. i get respiratory sicknesses a lot more. i throw my money down the drain. i support the tobacco industry that i hate. it smells. & i don't think i'll be quitting anytime soon, esp. considering all the crap that's happened lately. i've tried the patch, the gum, cold-turkey, even prescriptions. i guess i'll have to wait until my willpower is stronger. don't start. it's hard to stop.[/color]

[COLOR=darkblue]i've done it when writing notes or letters, but i have never in my life heard someone do it while speaking [i]out loud.[/i] good god, that [i]would[/i] be annoying. sounds like the people who do that are just trying to show off their mighty computer prowess to me![/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]two scenarios: 1) a good friend of mine had a serious boyfriend/fiance when she was 19, & he was 22. after an abortion & another pregnancy (where he pressured her to get another abortion) we found out that he had been secretly married & had a 3 year old daughter the whole time. this was right after he offered me $2000 to strip for him when he had told her he was broke & had to pay the for the $700 abortion herself. after she dumped him, he disappeared & hasn't--in 4 years--paid a dime of child support. she's now 23 & her husband is 38. he treats her like gold, has a steady job as an eye-doctor, owns his own house, would never lie to her, is very responsible, & has adopted her daughter as his own. i think one reason she loves him so much is b/c he is the exact opposite of that other jerk. he was a very positive influence on her & now she has a great job herself w/ full benefits. in this case, an older, mature man was exactly what she needed. 2) another friend of mine, who is not so well-behaved, is 25 years old. he's one of those types who always has to be in love. he falls for every girl he has a crush on. he started liking this girl who was 15 (this shows how desperate he was getting). he ended up getting her drunk & giving her a bunch of morphine one night (he's a major drug addict & she was pretty wild herself, so he didn't see anything wrong w/ it). they ended up sleeping together. he tried to start up a serious relationship w/ her (sexual), but she thought he was nuts. her family (there are 8 of them in the immediate family alone) would've killed him. she also really regretted doing it. he then proceeded to badmouth her all over the county, calling her a slut & a player & what-have-you. now that's the kind of situation where a young person was taken advantage of & the older one acted like a complete perv. i'm still pretty pissed at him. so like i said, it depends on the circumstances.[/color]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Stitch [/i] [B]i have one thing to say...... if math teachers are soooo smart as they say they are why do they need to look up all the answers in a little answer book?? hmm?? i wonder..... stitch [/B][/QUOTE] [color=darkblue]then they'd have to figure out all the answers for themselves plus grade everything & teach the class. waaaay to much work. & if they made a mistake, they could mark an answer wrong when it's actually right. besides, if you were a college graduate, would you want to do all that boring work again? i think not. i know you were probably being facetious, but i couldn't help playing along.[/color]:p

[color=darkblue]i don't see this turning out well. desert storm was one thing, but it didn't much effect us here on stateside except for worry & a raise in the price of oil. combine that w/ the rallying of the UN & the immediate threat of the taliban & other terrorist organizations & dictatorships... i don't think this is going to be just another small-scale war. i don't know about the evidence. i haven't seen it for myself. i don't know what to believe about what comes out of the mouth of our beloved administration, but it's clear that they're not going to sit idle. the specifics really aren't that important to me... they're going to do what they want regardless of what i think. i'm neither for nor against this war. the disturbing (or exhilerating, depending on who you are) thing is that i don't see our world lasting much longer. true, war has waged since humans were strong enough to pick up sticks or use their fists, but only in the last century--out of god-knows how many eons of evolution--have we had the technology to destroy the planet. i don't even know why the US even has nuclear weapons. if we launched them at iraq, or whoever, we'd basically be signing the planet's death warrant. we can't expect power-crazy dictators like sadaam to think rationally. his mindset is: "if i go down, they're all going w/ me!" it makes me wonder how all this crazy business got started anyway. did he just randomly begin hating us, or did we interfere w/ something he was doing? something tells me it was the latter. (i was pretty young during desert storm & can't recall, but i'm sure not going to research it now. the damage has been done.) for awhile now, i've wished the US would just mind their own damn business. who appointed us guardian of the world, anyway? sometimes i think the US likes to swoop in just so the administration can brag to the american people & the rest of the world about what noble humanitarians we are. we stick our noses into everything, & it seems we're always in the midst of some horrible political tension, or worse, on the brink of war. frankly, i'm getting quite tired of this type of arrogance. don't we have enough problems here, over in stateside? maybe the powers that be need to concentrate on fixing what's wrong w/ us before making our lives even worse with all this crap. their first duty should be to the citizens, in my opinion. but, like i said, the damage has been done, so if we have to defend ourselves b/c of it, then fine. bah. the US is like a bratty kid who thinks he knows everything & has way too much power. like that guy enrique or whatever who got killed on the first episode of kingpin. you know, the one who was taking over the organization from his fugitive father & didn't know what the hell he was doing. i know i'll probably get blasted for all that, but it's the way i feel, & i'm not going to change my mind. [/color]

[color=darkblue]i used to be half in love w/ wolverine. he's just so dark & mysterious & sexy.. & i relate to him b/c he's been through some serious **** (more so than your average mutant, no?). i really liked his comic during the period where he was in japan (before he was an x-man, i think). he also has some really sweet quotes. "better to die than to lose what i have lost" has got to be my favorite. i was so obsessed w/ him, i'd draw him, write poems about him, & have dreams about him. geez, what is it w/ me & men who are drawn characters? i also love rogue b/c she's a flirtatious, sexy, southern redhead w/ kickass powers. i love the powers of storm (weather control) & jean grey (telekinesis & telepathy), though i'm not too fond of the characters. jubilee is by far the worst. btw, i took that test & here are my results: #1 Wolverine (weird) #2 Magneto #3 Psylocke #4 Beast #5 Professer X #6 Apocalypse #7 Sabretooth #8 Storm #9 Mystique #10 Rogue #11 Cyclops #12 Jean-Grey [/color]

[color=darkblue]i'm sorry, but, unless you're not telling us the whole story, it sounds as though she's being a total *****. also, the fact that she's the supposed leader of her group is pretty insightful. it's seems rather like the power has gone to her head, no? she won't tell you why she's mad. she deliberately messed up your set, then had the nerve to get angry about it, like she had the right to do that. she's trying to intimidate you... & you're letting it happen. i mean, what are you, a mind reader? i see no reason to cater to her, or go around asking what's wrong, or begging forgiveness. she wouldn't actually turn your friends against you, would she? & would they listen to her? i'd write her off until she 'fesses up... & if your friends desert you b/c of her then they weren't even your friends. this seems like a volatile little clique here. this just seems pathetically immature to me. if i were you, i'd be the least involved in it as possible. there's no reason why you should sink to her level. god, am i in high school again? jesus chicken, you are a really cool person, & her behavior is beneath you. besides, when someone messes w/ your music... now that's crossing the line.[/color];)

[color=darkblue]gokents--i think you're doing the right thing. i've done the same thing. i think if you relate more to that side of your heritage... you should do it. everyone ought to be proud of their surname.[/color]

[color=darkblue]i would have ripped off my clothes & said, "but do you have a body like [i]this?[/i]" checkmate, baby.[/color]