Lady Macaiodh

[color=darkblue]hate to say it, babe, but it sounds like the friendship might be unsalvagable. he's probably sensed you two growing apart and [i]does[/i] have feelings for you... so he's getting more clingy. just let him down as easy as you can. but don't expect him not to avoid you after that. [/color]

[color=darkblue]people will do just about anything for money. nothing surprises me anymore. this place i moved from recently... this mother sends her 6 year old out to be a prositute.. & the girl has to give the mom the money. how's that for mother of the year? but i see that kind of stuff so often, i can't do much about it, esp. where i live. most of the police & social services don't even care.[/color]

[color=darkblue]i wish school were [i]all[/i] mid-terms & finals. no going to class, no quizzes, no stupid projects... i'd rather study at home & just come in twice a year. they feed you so much boring red tape sometimes.[/color]

[COLOR=darkblue]come back after death? you people are nuts! who'd want to hang around [i]this[/i] dimension any longer than necessary? lol when i die, i'm going to the other realm & not coming back, heheh. j/k, if reincarnation was true, i'd just keep coming back in all kinds of forms (male, female, rich, poor, gay, straight, etc.), but i'd want to keep my past life memories. i want to see how it feels to be everyone else. that way, i'd have true empathy.[/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]i know, but it just seems like it's always one thing after another, endless drama. i feel better today, though, except i'm about to go to this dreaded thanksgiving family reunion. bah. [/color]

[color=darkblue]i just thought of another one. "the nastiest of the nast." i know "nast" isn't a word, but it's the state of being nasty. if something's really nasty, we say "that is just the nastiest of the nast."[/color]

[color=darkblue]::falls over anime style & cries:: i haven't seen anything since vegeta exploded. i have no cable, no computer, no money, & no friends who watch dbz. if i don't see how it ends for myself, i will seriously expire. i SUCK. ::sniff:: i miss you, vegeta-sama.[/color]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Transtic Nerve [/i] [B]"The fingers you have dialed with are too fat To hang up and try again, please mash the keyboard with your soft, mushy fat hands" ::cries!:: [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]::dies laughing:: i can't believe i can still type, even though i died. my predicament is even worse than yours, transtic![/COLOR]

[color=darkblue][b]Deborah[/b] is a Hebrew name & it means "bee". i don't know why my parents named me that, other than that it's from the Bible & it sounded good. my brothers have Bible names, too.[/color]

[color=darkblue]lately (in the past few months), i wake up, without an alarm, at around 5 AM. i wish i could let get myself to sleep later, but i can't.[/color]

[color=darkblue]"that's bad. bad [i]and[/i] sad." when something's bad [i]and[/i] sad, you know it's really bad. we've been saying that a lot lately. ;)[/color]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Lalaith Ril [/i] [B]I'm sure there is one thread about this. Prolly more. Is there anything that helps you in depression? Lately I've been sinking into depression more and more, even to the point where I tried to kill myself earlier today. I can't control it and sometimes wish it would end. What can I do to get rid of this? I've tried everything, but everything I do just seems to make everything worse..... Theres been a lot going on lately in my life. ANd I haven't been able to handel it too well. Is there anything you guys know that helps you get off of depression, so that you can concentrate on your own life? Not your misery in your life. [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]i hate to say this, but i really don't know what you are all talking about in response to this post. i personally do not see much point to life anymore. if it wasn't for hurting the people that i love, i would have killed myself by now. p.s. i hope that any respect you might have for me is not compromised by this post, as i am insane. please forgive me, mods. i am serious.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]ah, yes. just do a search of my latest posts & you'll see that i can definitely relate. i don't know. it eats away at me. i still love him, even after everything. my parents are threatening him w/ this lawsuit so he will sign the seperation papers, & it tears me up w/ guilt. on the other hand, there are some days that i hate him. i wish i had those days more often. but that doesn't mean i'll give in & go back to him. i don't want to die [i]that[/i] badly.[/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]i dunno... i'm one of those types of people who you either love or you hate. there's no in-between. yea, gods, what i wouldn't give for simple mediocrity.[/color]

[COLOR=darkblue]dear god, that did not sound like i expected at all. i've been wondering about this lately, too, b/c i've never heard the fusion voices. that sounded pretty eerie to me, like some kind of demon voice! i don't think i can sleep now. [/COLOR] :nervous:

[COLOR=darkblue]okay, here it is... this is in text form, so there are some grammatical errors, like the thoughts i italicized. you should be able to read it, though. plus: 1) it's pretty long. 2) i was rather melodramatic at this time. 3) i was listening to nothing but the misfits & metallica at this time (4 years ago), so it's also morbid. thanks to noryko for linking it. ;)[/COLOR] [URL]http://www.geocities.com/wackyman_81/DeborahsEssay2[/URL]

[COLOR=darkblue]moby's incredibly talented, but i don't have the money for any of his cds. he's at the top of my "must-buy" list, along w/ beck. i mostly listen to "rock" or "punk" but i could get into those guys.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i hate that show, b/c at this place i was staying, i was forced to watch it nonstop. & they all sucked. just sang songs written by other people, from what i saw.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i don't really see the problem as long as they regulate it like alcohol. be of age, don't do it in public, don't drive while impaired, etc. plus, it would put a lot of dealers out of business. i think the legal aspects are going to be focused on, rather than health issues, if this debate ever sees any real fruition in congress.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]this is one of those touchy subjects for me, one which i won't discuss b/c you will not be able to shut me up. i did, however, write an essay about this a few years ago for english class. it's pretty in depth, though, so i will only post it if there are requests. people probably don't want to know that much about me, anyway... (even though the reading of it did make people cry, lol).[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Wing Gundam [/i] [B][COLOR=crimson]Lady M, I seriously feel for you. I know you've had a rough time but sometimes you just got to pull up you're head and don't think about tomorrow just think about today. And if you ever need any one to talk to just pm because I'm here for you.[/COLOR] [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]i really appreciate the sentiment, but now i kind of wish i hadn't brought it up, just b/c i'm not really ready to talk about it yet. i was just trying to show cruizr some solidarity, lol. but no matter [i]how[/i] or [i]why[/i] you lose someone you love... you feel like part of you is gone, too.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]hmmm... it hasn't been one of those days, it's been one of those years. sometimes i think i never should have gotten out of bed since jan. 1, 2002. i don't mean to complain, but i recently discovered that my husband has been cheating on me, so i'm getting a divorce. & i'm being forced to live w/ my parents as a result. bah. so yeah, i know how you feel.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i have read a lot of good ones, but i'm sick as a dog right now & can't think of very many. was reading welsh's [i]filth[/i]: "I feel a bit light, then it's like my brain starts to birl around in my head sending my thoughts & emotions cascading around. I sense them emptying into something approximating a leaky bucket which is drained before i examine it's contents." i have felt that way many a time. "I have probed the minds of the insane, & wondered what lies beneath, even as i revered the unknown force at work, & envied the carelessness of the kill." --myself (while feelling sadistic)[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i don't believe in IQ tests. there's no way mine is accurate.[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by wrist cutter [/i] [B]The four "your"s you used in your post, SSJgoten, should all be replaced with "you're". [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]rotflmao, this is why i love you, wristcutter. i'm not going to say what i really want to. ::wipes eyes:: my aspiration is to cut up dead people (possibly be a coroner), but my real dream is to play guitar for a living. ::sigh:: if only.[/COLOR]