Lady Macaiodh

[COLOR=darkblue]can i ask god a question?[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]my god, do i know how you feel. i have fallen asleep like that many a time, or tried to but i was shaking too hard. that's why i quit the pill-popping. i dunno, right now i'm trying to quit drinking, or at least moderate it, but it's really hard. i don't know how i'll do it & the dt's really suck. just try not to ever have a problem w/ it. easier said than done, no? [/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by PiroMunkie [/i] [B][color=indigo]I've never been in a crash, but I know someone who has. The guy popped some LSD and decided to drive somewhere. He hit mutliple things before he finally stopped. Luckily no one was seriously hurt.[/color] [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]my friend did that exact same thing a few weeks ago, she hit 6 cars & totalled the last one plus her own, then she got a dui. & yet she said, "it sucks. my parents are only giving me $4500 for a new one." yeah, that would truly suck, [i]only[/i] $4500.[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by SSJ5 Vegeta [/i] [B]Sweet. What kind of car is it? [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]i would like to know that myself.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]why are they doing this crap. i don't have the money to go out & buy videos! i need [i]food[/i] & stuff. & my computer royally [i]sucks[/i] so there's no way i can watch it there, it would probably take like 3 days to DL 5 minutes of 1 episode. i'll probably [i]never[/i] see all of dbz! probably none of gt either, i still haven't seen that even once. sorry, i had to rant for a few minutes.[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Sephiroth [/i] [B]Well, Warlock old chum.... I could either dream of OB or I can dream of being surrounded by hot women in bikini's And so, I dream of the women :p [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]or you could dream of hot otaku women in bikinis, some of us aren't that bad. [/COLOR] :therock:

[COLOR=darkblue]i'd drop kick the little bastard across the street into oncoming traffic, then get arrested & assassinated for killing the president, lol. at least then, i'd get famous.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i love it when all the pumpkins start appearing for halloween, b/c it means my birthday is coming up. :cough: hint :cough:[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]lol, i got in a really messed up crash this summer. it was about one in the morning & my friend was driving me home. we were on a main road that goes right past the state prison. then this deer jumped in front of us & this is the messed up part. my friend drives a porche & he didn't want to hit it, so he swerved into this hugely steep embankment like a dumbass & still hit the deer anyway. but the car completely lost control & we did 3 360s, ending up in the opposite ditch facing the opposite direction w/ the front wheels in the air. then he just left me there right next to the prison to go to a pay phone for about 2 hours b/c he didn't have any insurance & he wanted me to watch the car & keep the cops from showing up. i was so mad b/c i already have a phobia about cars & he just left me to be killed by some escaped rapist.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i forgot to check about when this topic got started, but i have been seeing the commercials for the rest of it to begin on sept. 16th, i think. but maybe you guys are talking about something completely different.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]i think i lie to myself the most. i tell myself everything's okay, when in reality it's really ****ed, & i bury everything i feel. it's not good b/c you could explode (friendly advice).[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]you guys just made me realize that i've been here a year. this month exactly. & to quote cera... "ye gods." but you have to think of it being said in kind of a monotone to get the full effect. what a year. :sits up: good lord! now i really am freaking out.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]my school years were pure hell, but in a way i miss it. i mean, i wouldn't want to repeat it, but there are a lot of things i would've done differently. i never had much trouble w/ grades, but i was [i]really[/i] shy & so therefore never got laid. :p[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]yeah, i used to have dreams about vegitto 4 all the time. & also about... james... heheh...:naughty:[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]to answer it plainly, to those who believe in their cause, the terrorists are martyrs. but people who are against them don't think so. that's the whole concept of martyrdom... people are not going to agree on that one. but personally, i will be so glad when these kinds of discussions are over. yesterday, my tv was broken & i could only get one channel. so i had to watch the coverage... but i could only stomach about an hour of it. i'm sick of thinking about it. & more innocent people are going to die, that's just a fact. the whole situation depresses the hell outta me. i try not to think about it.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]well. what can i say about this one. i feel like it's been a year since so much utter crap has happened. nah, it would take way too long. basically, i missed you guys like crazy & was worried to death about seph for some reason. i talked to noryko on the phone & ran up my parents' bill insanely. i also twisted my ankle a month ago running from the cops & it still hurts really bad. don't ask. oh & also i decided to get a divorce & become a lesbian. heheh, j/k about the lesbian part, i am still available for flirting of all types. but i am getting a divorce. i don't want to talk about it. [/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]heh... my whole life has been a long freaky moment. i.e. sometimes i know things i should have no way of knowing.[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Red XIII [/i] [B][COLOR=TEAL]Hmm I was just wondering because when ever I wake up I seem to lose all memories of my dreams after the fist few seconds. The only dream I have ever been able to remember is that I am flying way above a city with a jet pack and a rocket launcher in my arm, blowing up cars and stuff.........weird huh[/color] [/B][/QUOTE][COLOR=darkblue]hmmm... i remember my dreams all too well. they're all in color. they're incredibly detailed. they all refer to past traumatic events. they usually involve brutal violence of some kind. i don't want to close my eyes, even when i'm tired. apparently, the universe is determinted i never forget the bad. hope there's a reason for that; otherwise, someone out there is really sadistic. or maybe it's my own warped mind manifesting. therapy?? help. bad times lately.[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by James [/i] [B][color=royalblue]Strongest Points: 1) Intelligent 2) Loving 3) Creative thinking Weakest Points: 1) Uncompromising (sometimes I can be uncompromising on certain issues...maybe as a means to an end or something, if that makes any sense) 2) Self Critical (I can be incredibly harsh on myself sometimes...often for no good reason. Sometimes I can make myself believe that I've really done the wrong thing or behave badly. And this can cause me to unfairly compromise my position in some cases.) 3) Defensive (Sometimes I can be overly defensive of my ideas...or of people around me. That is why I am occasionally critical of some sites which mimmick theOtaku/OtakuBoards etc...; I absolutely loathe copycats. So in those circumstances, I try very hard to be positive and optimistic [which can sometimes lead to overcompensation as well lol]).[/color] [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]ahh... methinks he protests too much... you're wonderful, james, why are you elaborating on the negative? hmm... seems to be a recurring theme... strongest: 1) intelligence 2) open-minded 3) i play a mean guitar weakest: 1) paranoid (lately) 2) too self-sacrificing 3) always in a crisis (i.e. homeless right now)[/COLOR]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by DBZChikaGhan [/i] [B][color=purple]Lady Macaiodh is addicted to the guitar. [/color] [/B][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue]enough said. i'm also addicted to making mad passionate love to my wildly sexy husband. [/COLOR]:naughty: :demon: :naughty:

[COLOR=darkblue]okay, you're preaching to the choir here. i feel your pain, literally. i have always looked like a freak, & it's always been a huge embarrassment to my "in the public eye" mother. i can't even go out in public w/out her ordering me to change. as she puts it, "it's not right that people judge you by appearence, but that's just the way it is." whatever, i will continue to fight for non-confornity, individuality, a society where we judge each other by what's inside. people who judge each other by their clothing might as well judge each other by race or sexuality. i refuse to accept it, so i guess i'm a freak. end.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=darkblue]there are 3 basic stages to what you're feeling: 1) regular depressed feelings 2) clinical depression (at least 2 weeks of constant depressed feelings) 3) chronic depression (at least 5 months of clinical depression) if you're experiencing stage 2, you need to see a professional of some sort (pastor, therapist, etc.) to work out why you're feeling this way. if you're experiencing stage 3, you need to start seeing a psychiatrist who will give you medication. as someone who has lived w/ chronic depression, i had to go through 12 psychs before i found a really good one. but it was worth it once i did. but what i found most helpful was discovering (imo) the purpose of life: to love & learn, & teach what you know to others. if you have done these things in some way, you have definitely made a difference. ginny, i think you're one of the smartest people on the boards. the world would definitely miss your presence. :)[/COLOR]

[color=darkblue]bwahahahaha! yeah, we chicks really suck. i'm serious. mind games. MIND GAMES!! see my comment in babygirl's thread. nah, girls don't suck any worse than guys. they just suck in a different way.[/color]

[color=darkblue]there probably wouldn't be as much physical violence, but there's be MUCH more senseless, catty, jealous, back-stabbing, petty bickering. heheh, women don't destroy your body, they destroy your EGO. [/color]

[color=darkblue]i... am... a... LOSER. i think everyone forgot about me b/c i've been here so infrequently lately... or maybe i just suck... i'd be a guy b/c i think i've done pretty much everything there is to do as a chick... yes, jenna, you would've had fun in that area. but if i stayed a girl i'd be anna b/c the drums are pretty much the only instrument i don't play very well. or navi b/c she is the sh*t. :blesses alice w/ the ability: if i was a guy i'd probably be seph b/c he's had a lot of sex & i always wondered how it felt to be such a STUD. ;)[/color]