Lady Macaiodh

did your friend know you liked her, yet he asked her out anyway? if so, he's not much of a friend. he just broke the friend code, putting a girl over your friendship. the question is, can you take seeing the two of them together. if so, you should tell your friend that you felt betrayed, then wait to see what he says. give him a chance to apologize, at least.

well, have you ever thought about just asking the teacher to let you change seats to get away from him? it seems like she wants the problem resolved almost as much as you do. if she says no, just explain that the guy is distracting you from her teaching & that you're concerned about your grades. that ought to do it.

well, i'm manic-depressive/bi-polar. so believe me, i know about depression. i go from feeling like i'm high to a huge crash. i used to take lithium, etc. but i didn't like the fact that it made me feel like a sloth. i haven't taken my meds in about 2 years... before that, i'd been taking them since i was 13. i feel better now than i have in years. i learn to deal w/ the cycles my own way. when i feel, down, i do the things i love, like play guitar or write or paint. also, i watch tv to distract myself, or read books. if i can get my mind off of it, that helps. other times, i just fully embrace it, do something that makes me see how huge it really is, something that gets me in touch with what's going on inside my head. i have a few friends i can talk to w/out someone saying something about me being crazy. but you're doing the right thing now in talking about it. even if no one gives any good advice, at least you're stating it for the record to yourself. meditating works wonders. you just have to find the right meditation. just breathing correctly helps.

the first one is a metaphor for an abusive relationship, "winter" being the actual relationship, & "spring" being the breakup. i was torn between wanting him desperately & knowing that he was bad for me. Skeletal. For Phil Jan 1997 Why is it that winter speaks to the world in such low cold tones, with his pale blue stares that pierce my warm heart like his icicle fingers? Spring looms terribly in the distance, miles away from frightening him off. And though I hate the green he Scratches from my eyes, I long for the abusive chill of his breath. For what purpose, Winter, do you stay? Is it not enough that you bring death And setting to each new sunrise, Inhibiting scavengers and beetles From feeding on decomposing bodies? I wait, watching for your exit And the entrance of Spring, Terrified that the fleeting cold, Which preserves morgues and corpses, Will leave in its place, The humid, sickly smell of my own decay. ---------------------------------------------------- this one is basically saying that we must oversome the horrors in the world we live in, rise up, & become stronger b/c of it. DeathKnight, this one's for you! Meditation. for the USRs 6/98 In my disgust I have closed myself? I wrap my wings of anger Tightly around my body, Tighter around my soul, Frantic that the world Should not seep through any spaces Between each fringe of feather. Contaminated, but still White as Snow, I turn from the world?s ways, My face pointing to the East, Breathing in its coolness. I cannot explain why I have been chosen To lead this complex life, To know what I have come to know, To stand unshadowed in the face Of my own self-loathing & conquer it day by day. I will not sit idle while I destroy My own self-respect, While I let the world & Ignorance & inclinations break me. I will raise my eyes to the sun & they will be wide open to its brilliance. ---Deborah Macaiodh [EMAIL=ruca_1488@yahoo.com]ruca_1488@yahoo.com[/EMAIL]

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are goku & roshi the only ones who do the pure kamehameha? b/c it seems like some other people do it, but different versions of it. or are they the same just w/ different words?

actually, the skin doesn't have to be white. the more blood drank, the more human-like the skin becomes. azim gorged himself in "queen of the damned"... he was dark brown.

eminem makes me LMAO, i must admit. i have his first cd. i mean, he mocks himself just as much as he does other people, & nothing he says is even true.

i have pale white skin. scottish, ya know...?

you know, a vortex. like a black hole, nothing can escape it.

yeah, but then the hair strands wouldn't blow around w/ the energy or in the wind or anything.

so what would you do on the show? like, what would be your stunt? or do i even wanna know...

my town is known to those who live here as "the vortex" b/c no matter how hard you try to get out, it always sucks you back in.

wtf happened to that nerdshoe guy at the end of the movie? it sounded like... well, i don't want to describe what it sounded like.

i feel like i should respond to that post, kuja... on the one hand, don't set yourself up for a fall, but on the other hand, that's incredibly romantic...

i see your point. i do wish i could quit. i started when i was just a stupid kid, been doing it for 9 years now. but every time i get stressed, i go back to it. but heroin is worse to me. i just hate it so much. when you take a drag off a cigarette, there's not much of a chance of you passing out, turning blue, going into convulsions, foaming at the mouth & dying on a dirty floor w/in the space of five minutes. plus 75% of the heroin addicts i've ever known are now dead. & cigs don't give you "the sickness." heroin is one thing i will never, ever do.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by DeathKnight [/i] [B][color=crimson][b][size=1]all the **** that happened with my biological mother.... I was born the son of Tammy Lynn howell And John Cavvera... They... slept together in the front room of John's house and guess who was created.... Well.... 9 months later... i was born.... Kenneth Andrew Howell... My Father (John) Denyed that he was my father... even when the DNA tests proved it to be 99.9% chance that hes my father.... He denyed it and enyed it.... but the Judge ruled he was the father.... He ran off though and now lives in Cali... My mother soon abondoned me.... She said she didnt want a brat to take care of... So she packed up and left me to my grandparents.... I have a little sister... who i havent seen in 7 years.... and... i am worried beyond anything you've ever been worried about... Shes too innocent... it isnt her fault my mom is a slut... and my dad is a coward.... Sis... please be and stay safe.... God Bless Her every day of her life.... and thats the storys of the first few years of this... bittersweet symphony i live in.... ......[/color][/size][/b] [/B][/QUOTE] good christ, DK. well, at least you don't have those negative influences in your life anymore, although i'm sure the memory is quite haunting... *sigh* life... a mystery... me, my negative influences are still around. i'll pm you w/ the details if you want. it's way too personal to post, but something is telling me to tell you.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by DeathKnight [/i] [B] [color=crimson][b][size=1]Its a show where they do stupid... idiotic... crazy things... and MTV airs it for 30 minutes... Thats my dream... yea...[/color][/b][/size] [/B][/QUOTE] did you see the one where the guy got into the port-a-potty & got someone to flip it upside down while he was still inside? i have a trademark... i go around singing to myself & talking to myself. people give me wierd looks. what? i'm just answering the voices in my head...

that's the only limp bizkit song i actually like. i have definitely felt that way, esp. at my old high school, heritage christian academy, the hell of all schools...

this is the worst thing i've ever seen. me and a bunch of people were riding around in a car. someone got the bright idea to go get some heroin. i basically cussed them all out, but there was nothing i could do since i had no other ride. we drove around for awhile, but couldn't find any. this one guy jared said "i know a girl w/ mad hook-ups, we should call her." i just sat in the car sulking outside of her house while they made phone calls. i was sitting in the far back of the station wagon, kind of laying down, so i didn't see her get into the front seat to direct us to the spot. they got the dope & we went back to her house. she told us to sit outside since her mom was inside & she wanted to shoot up before she went in. i climbed out the back door to smoke a cigarette, since the whole thing disgusted me & i didn't want to be around it. i walked to the front of the car when i saw it. the girl, abra, was sticking the needle in her arm... an arm which rested on a swollen, pregnant belly. i nearly puked. she was at least nine months pregnant. jared was actually helping her w/ the tourniquet!! nobody even cared! she wanted to get high right then so badly that she didn't even care who saw that she was a worthless, child-abusing, dope fiend. all i could think about was that dope pumping into the baby's brain, wondering how many times she had done that. & what really makes this story the worst is that 2 weeks later, the baby girl was born deformed & dead. don't ever do heroin, people, it will destroy you & everything you love. see my sig.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by mornigndew [/i] [B] [color=blue] You like to listen to broken heart type of music. Give something new a try [/color] [/B][/QUOTE] let him be. sometimes it's good to wallow in it for awhile. but if you want to be cheered up, i highly recommend sublime... no matter what mood i'm in, i always feel a lot better when i'm done. then again, sometimes i need to blast "mouth for war" by pantera at full volume while i break things...

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Will2x [/i] [B]i hope this topic stays up forever, it has to be in the records! What would you do if your bf/gf said "MAKE LOVE TO ME OR ITS OVER!" [/B][/QUOTE] i would laugh in his face & say "is this a joke? you know you are addicted to me & you won't ever leave me no matter what i do. i own you. & who are you to be giving ultimatums?" then i'd add on like 3 more months longer that he'd have to wait to fulfill his desire, just out of spite, & get another lover on the side just in case i got horny.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Forest_Pixie [/i] [B]The point of music is to make you feel something .. to express emotion.. it's not telling you to kill people or do other stupid drastic things... [/B][/QUOTE] oh yes, some of it does. you've obviously never heard that slayer song "213." & a lot of other stuff i could name. a lot of the death metal i've heard talks about nothing but killing & disembowling people & the like...

thank you, it's so nice to be appreciated. something else... has this ever happened to you? you hear a song that describes your life so perfectly that you think, "i should've written that." so you get pissed at the band b/c they wrote it before you.

you read chris pike, heheh, pike is god. let me ask you this, did his books give you wierd revelations into life & the universe? btw, sita is one of the best vamps ever. i have every single book he's ever written, even the hard to find ones from the early 80's. i don't read them anymore, but i'm saving them for when i have kids.