Lady Macaiodh

[color=darkblue][size=1]All I got was a set of towels from my aunt. That's it. I graduated number one in my class, too. Go figure. Maybe the fact that I didn't invite anybody had something to do with it.[/color][/size]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Queen Asuka [/i] [color=hotpink][size=1]Lady M is not presently married because she's divorced. And the baby will be VERY blessed because leaving that bastard has saved BOTH of their lives. *Hmphs*[/color][/size][/quote] [color=darkblue][size=1][i]Thank[/i] you! I'm glad I didn't have to say it. We're not divorced yet, though, because he's refusing to sign. He's still in jail, & I still have to testify. *_*[/color][/size] [quote][color=hotpink][size=1]When's the due date? :toothy:[/color][/size][/QUOTE] [COLOR=darkblue][size=1]October 19th. (Please, God, let him be a Scorpio.) And I was just kidding about the gift thing. Charles: He moves and kicks around a lot, but he's too small still (only 9 inches stretched out) for it to be uncomfortable. Mitch: Thanks for the poem, I love it. *saves* And, yes, I'm very happy and excited about the baby, although he does complicate things -- he is the little miracle, the only good thing to come out of a horrible situation.[/size][/COLOR]

[color=darkblue][size=1]Summer vacation? What is this mysterious thing you are speaking of?[/color][/size]

[COLOR=darkblue][size=1]So I went to the doctor today and found out my baby is a boy. Everyone was completely shocked because they were all positive it was going to be a girl. That fact alone convinced me that it had to be a boy, so [i]I[/i] wasn't shocked at all. Check him out in the ultrasound pic... he is so cute... look at his little toes! On the downside, I found out that I have a cyst on one of my ovaries and I have to have surgery after I recover from the birth, so that whole time period will be very... uncomfortable... But, yeah, now I have to think of names and start buying stuff. Anyone who wants to send presents to this adorable baby, feel free! lol Happy day. :)[/size][/COLOR]

[color=darkblue][size=1]I used to be one of those "ludicrously fast" drivers, once upon a time, but no longer, because: 1) I've been in so many wrecks where I was a passenger that I realize that most people on the road are non-driving bastards and not to be trusted. 2) So many of my friends have gotten DUIs and have been in pointless accidents. 3) I'm not in that big of a hurry anymore.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1][b]My blog address:[/b] [URL]http://d_lasher.blogspot.com[/URL] [b]Blog name:[/b] Ghost World [b]Thoughts behind it/Reason for creating it:[/b] As you can see if you open it, I haven't written in quite awhile. I had another one once, and I abandonded that after not very long, as well. I started the first one because I was having very intense feelings and wanted to post a letter I had written. It was a good feeling, and I wanted to shout it from the rooftops. Hence, public diary. It served it's purpose, and I was done with it. The current one was started right after the breakup of Mike and myself. I couldn't sort out my feelings at all... they were all a jumble. It helped getting them down, even though I was frustrated and not at all eloquent. But since I'm emotionally dead right now, I haven't written lately. I also suppose that I want people to understand me, which is why I had the link in my signature for awhile. I get the impression that no one here really understands me. I'm sure some people here think I'm strange, slutty, too outspoken, etc. I figured that maybe people would get why I act like that, if I described things I was going through. Another impression I get is that people think I make up stuff like what's in my blog. Tragically, it's all true. Even I'm not that mean to my characters.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1]The only good teachers I had were in my one year of public school. I nominated my chemistry teacher, Mrs. Thomas, for Who's Who, and she started me on the road of science. Also, my college English Composition professor was great, even though she was a flaming liberal feminist to the utmost extreme. I had one teacher my senior year that didn't hate me, but he always had these crusty loogs (sp?) in his mouth, and I think he had ulterior motives because he kept asking me out.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1]It will sound better if you clean up the metre a bit. Otherwise, very insightful.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1]I'm wondering what you were so emotional about. What the inspiration was.[/color][/size]

[COLOR=darkblue][size=1]I wrote this when I was fifteen. Ah, how innocent and optimistic I was! Don't ask me why I decided to post it, but I want to know what everyone thinks about it. I have neither changed nor edited anything. The sentence at the beginning is the actual title. Vwallah.[/size] written december, 1995. you could call this my cynical and arrogant side. If success is counted sweetest by those who never succeed, as Ms. Dickinson claimed, I could exist simply on the nectar of my triumphs. They are, while few and far between, at least appreciated. By who or what, I do not know. Certainly no one I have encountered has seen me for what I am, which is... well, let's just say I don't know that either. At least I can say that the scant amount of my actual, unaided, pure successes has led me to encounter the one insurmountable truth in this life: all things are worthless, or perhaps exist to serve as obstacles which constantly block my straight and narrow path (ie. that future which I have chosen to grasp). It seems that I purposely choose the lifestyle of the most resistance in order to **** up my vitality even more than it already is. Now I know I've probably given the impression that I have a negative outlook on life. On the contrary, it couldn't be more positive! How else could I have not committed suicide? I know my life sucks, but doesn't everybody's? My mission is to enjoy the enlightenment I have and continually receive, and not tell anybody else about it so I can laugh at them and at how pathetic they are and at how compared to them I'm in bliss. Sure. It's so fulfilling. Yeah, right. Maybe I should use my superiority to better the world. Then we could all just get along (because who wouldn't listen to pure wisdom?). But, no, that would indicate that I actually care, when, in reality, I would thoroughly enjoy living on a space station with certain select few worthy persons while we bomb the earth and destroy all those who [i]aren't[/i] worthy. Then we could descend, have unbridled and passionate sex for awhile, and repopulate the planet with the perfect race of individuals who would never have to worry about taking any **** from anybody, because no one would ever give it to them for the rest of time. Except to spur mentally challenging heated discussions to keep us ruthless. Yeah, that would be alright. I think I could live with it. It's a distinct possibility. [/COLOR]

[color=darkblue][size=1]I think I just learned more about you by reading that than I have in the past two years I've been here. Don't we all just love writing that way? As for the writing itself, I wouldn't dare critique someone else's work. Never been my style. But I liked it, and I hardly like anything.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1]Richmond is crime crazy. You can be walking down the street and see someone getting beat up, and the general reaction is, "Well, that's a shame." There are tons of unsolved brutal cases around here. So I guess it's not the same for me.[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue][size=1]I knew I shouldn't have opened this thread. Too late now... I believe in the soul. I don't think we are just bags of flesh. This is just one form of existence, like a change of clothes. So, yeah, I do think there is an afterlife... or that life continues, more accurately. As for what's on the other side... hopefully good things. Having said that, I've noticed that there are some people here that use even the remotest spiritual topic to make incredibly long and sermon-like posts that barely anybody has the patience to read, in order to convice everyone that they are right. How's that working for ya?[/color][/size]

[color=darkblue]Where are you people getting this information? Any links?[/color]

[color=darkblue]Disturbing, but good. I still can't get over the fact that he fantisized about taking a **** in their toilet, though. Good lord. Leave it to me to focus on that...[/color]

[color=darkblue]The movie sucked. I knew it would as soon as I heard Jennifer Love Hewitt was playing a brilliant scientist/spy-type person. The plot was ridiculous. I kept leaving the theater to smoke, and I couldn't just walk out because my ride wouldn't leave...[/color]

[color=darkblue]Yeah, I'd have to agree. Gothic guys are in a class all their own. *swoon* And if I ever see a really masculine one, it won't be the same at all... Anyone ever notice that the men in Anne Rice books are typically feminine? I think that's when I started getting attracted to less macho types. She makes them so sexy... [/color]

[color=darkblue]Shy, you have way too much time on your hands. :) I like vanilla ice cream, plain. I don't go for the syrup. I especially like pie a' la mode. I get a slice of pie (apple, cherry, etc.) fresh out of the oven and let vanilla ice cream melt on top of it. Then I feel sick afterwards, because I hardly ever eat that much sugar at once, but it's worth it.[/color]

[color=darkblue]Wiccanism is a valid religion. Simple as that. But, all the kids running around saying they're Wiccan because they think it's cool, on the other hand... [/color]

[color=darkblue]If I'm seeing a guy, he'd [i]better[/i] get rid of back and excessive chest hair before I have to touch or look at it. Blech. I think guys wearing black eye-liner are sexy...[/color]

[color=darkblue]I think this topic should be changed to "is the Bible true?" because so far only like two people have bothered to answer it right... *jumps off cliff*[/color]

[color=darkblue]Do any of you realize that you're not even answering the original question?[/color]

[color=darkblue]Why rehash things like this? Let's just drop it. I remember my worst moment on the boards, and I don't see why anyone would ever want to know about all the crap that goes on here sometimes. It was the first time I'd been in love in years, and I poured my heart out, and I knew he could never love me, and it sucked. There, I did it. And I'm sure it will never be acknowledged. Just so you know, I've never forgotten you, and I never will. A part of my heart will be yours forever.[/color]

[color=darkblue]What? I'm a combination of all those things. I'd never narrow myself down to just one, two, or five. More than anything, I'm the oldest and protector, but that's not one of the choices. I'm such a ham, though, that I can fit every characteristic described. I have honestly been everything on that list, and stil can be, if I'm in the mood. Sorry I didn't vote. >_< I'm in the "silent musician" phase right now, though it's hard to tell from my posts lately. [/color]

[color=darkblue]Friend=family. That's all there is to it. You'd sacrifice for them, you'd forgive them for anything, you will love them to the end. That's what a [i]true[/i] friend is. Eventually, you discover they are diamonds in the rough... few and far between.[/color]