my mum died when i was 12... (im 16 now) how i felt then was simply shock n more shock, cos it was an accident (of sorts but i don wanna talk bout it) it came suddenly. i cried a lot at first. occasionally i still do now. its hard growing up without a mum, it just leaves a void in you that you cant ever get rid of. time'll pass, n i'll have friends n boyfriends n get married n have children or even get a stepmum etc but its just not the same. my mum was the one who brought me into this world after all, its hard without her.