Cora Jane 2

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by SaiyanPrincessX [/i] [B]Heres another question I heard once. If you could get 1 million dollars by taking a gun to your head would you do it? There are 10 guns, 2 of which are loaded. [/B][/QUOTE] [font=arial][size=1] Well I would do it... I mean you have a 20% chance of yeah killing yourself... but and 80% chance of life... besides... there could also be problems with the gun and what not else... the odds are more in your favor.[/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1] I guess it truly depends on which friend I was talking to, the topic, and my mood. If I felt like being really sarcastic... well I probably would lie... but I would have a really really sarcastic tone, (especially about the first and second dilema). The third one is alot more difficult... this brings up memories from the past. Ok. One of the girl's at school, her mother died of cancer last year... my grandmother has cancer... a close friend of the family died from cancer... so as you can tell this one hits me hard. Anywho. I would say "everything's gonna be alright" then once they are over the shock and have come to terms with the reality of who ever it is that has the cancer... I would sit and talk them through what's going on, and always make myself available if they need to talk. But for the first two... I would probably lie... 'hey, if they shut up... and stop moaning and groaning about it... it works.. right?' lol.... [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1] Well magazines.... I tend to get [u]Guitar World[/u], [u]Guitar One[/u], [u]Skateboard (Transworld/Big Brother)[/u], and then there's one other Skateboard magazine I tend to get. I go and pick these up when I have the cash flow coming in. I usually go for the Guitar Mags first... then if I have extra cash besides what I am spending on the Guitar Mags, I get the skateboard ones. What can I say... I love to watch skateboarding and skaters.... lol... I used to skate for crying out loud... but then I got hurt... *trails off babbling about when she got severly hurt -- no more sports for Frogger... *sigh* ah well* But yeah... once in a while I also get or peruse the hair mags. Mainly when I get in the mood to cut my hair... lol... which lately, has been quite often. I like to peruse the short hair mags, and try to find a new style... see since my hair is half-way down my back, when I chop my hair... I got to make sure I find what I like... and I think I got the style in mind.... lol (two long strips in front, that go to my chin, and the rest [u]short[/u] and spikey... say maybe an inch to an inch and a half long) but yeah... that's about it. [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Well?. Let?s see here. What am I looking for in my [I] ideal [/I] partner?. Hmmm?. Ok, I?ll start with physical. They have to be taller than me? and I?m about 5?5-5?6. Umm?. I tend to go for guys with dark hair and dark eyes? I don?t know why, I just do. I like the hair to be shaved underneath, then long over it. But one thing I don?t like that when I have my hair short? that the guy?s hair is twice as long as mine? like I know when a girl has short hair (i.e. Punk, short and spiked) and the guy has hair about to eye level? fine, I don?t mind... but when say my hair is short, and the guy?s hair is to his shoulders?. Umm? I find that awkward, so that bothers me. Well I don?t care too much for hair color? but like I said, I find dark hair attractive? also, any color works (blue, green, purple, black/red streaked). Anywho. I do like a toned body, like in shape, and yes arms are nice? nice arms? lol. And I do like abs? why, I don?t know, I just do! Not to fond of tons of body hair? I don?t know, I just don?t like it. Although I?m not the most athletic person, if he were to play basketball or swim, that is just something that would make me smile, being those [u] were[/u] the sports that I used to do, and I enjoy doing those for fun. Also then I know that they would have a nice build, as that comes with the territory. Ok now to the characteristics. He would definitely have to have an appreciation for the Fine Arts, and participate in them in some way, either musical/theatrical? able to draw is nice to, I LOVE to look at artwork. Umm? I would be grateful if he could sing or play an instrument too. Since in all, I do play piano, guitar, and sing. Music is a big part of my life, so he would have to be able to get used to that, and enjoy it as well. He has to be someone that I click with also. I like a person who enjoys the same things I do. He also would have to be some one whom I could be me ? crazy Cora. Lol. Anywho. Well let?s see here? what else would be nice? umm?. I am also big with writing? well I LOVE poetry. I love to read it, have it written to/about me, and I love to write about others. He would have to be somewhat intelligent. I like someone who can stimulate my mind. I enjoy listening to some one who can talk with me about theology? although; I?m not really all that religious of late. But yeah, I enjoy discussing theology, and different concepts of the like. I love people whom I can listen to and just be captivated by what they are saying. I have a friend that when he talks, people listen, because they are captivated by him? lol? he is a really neat guy. I don?t want a guy who is ALWAYS happy-go-lucky, that drives me nuts. I like someone who is truly down to earth, meaning he has his up days and his down days? Like everyone else. A guy who can sit and listen and be honest is always good too? something that I admire greatly. I want someone, who is willing to talk when they are struggling, so that I can also share that same bond, when I am struggling, he will listen and we will talk. I want some one sincere. Some one who is trust-worthy is also admirable. Oh, and they have to enjoy road trips? I love them, and I love to travel!! I guess what overall what would be nice, some one with the same interests as me. They have to be someone that I ?click? with, not someone who just sits on the outside and is shallow. (Shallowness in a relationship bugs the hell out of me.) And as always, some one pleasing to the eye, yes ?eye candy? is nice. I like some one whom I could look at, and I wouldn?t be saying to myself? ?Omg, he?s so ugly.? He has to be some one who is respectful, who respects my friends, my family, along with his friends, family, and self, and me. And I can say? I probably won?t be on the dating scene for a while? this last relationship sucked pretty badly. And the guy, well trust was broken. I guess that?s more than enough for now, I think that I have rambled on enough. [color=green]~*~Frogger~*~[/color][/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Semjaza.... I am currently in the process of obtaining some of the Pixies music. I have a friend that's going to download it for me... thus I can listen to it. *Yay another burned CD* lol. Well I will let you know more what I think once I obtain that CD. [color=blue] [EDIT] Well in my posession, I have a burned CD of the Pixies.... so far I enjoy it. Also I was reading a Guitar One (or Guitar World) magazine, and they had the Pixies in it about garage rock, or something like that. It caught me off guard, then I realized it... and went WOW! lol. Well, so far so good. [/EDIT] [/color] [color=green]~*~Frogger~*~[/color] [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1][u](nameless)[/u] My momentum seems to be fading What am I doing here? Is this what I was longing for, The loneliness that I?m seeing. My dreams and aspirations Only imagined, for now From the past and the present What lies ahead from here? They all look and point Laughing as they stare, My soul is hurt within me Wondering why I even care. I sit in my own corner Wondering what?s over there, Probably more ridiculing And no one?s love is there. Loneliness, oh loneliness You are there for me, Solitude is what I know, And where I go to hide. The loneliness that dwells Deep inside my soul Wonders what to do When I am fully loved. I know that sounds unreasonable Although it is still possible What can I do when I know love? What will I do when that comes true? Love is something I know not I wish that I could say I wish I had an answer For all that was here today. [color=green] 6 March 2003 ~*~ Frogger~*~ [/color][/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1][u]What Is Life About?[/u] In the rain We sat there still You looking straight at me I staring back at you. The cigarette was lit While we talked, The topic talked about was life. As we only thought Emotions were roaring We wanted to know What this life meant Is this life about love? Or does it even matter? The love we have Is only our imagination We wonder what True love is And the question Still remains. What is this life about? The cigarette just burnt out The question stand before us We want to continue talking Not knowing what to say The awkward silence site there Glaring back at us We wait for this to pass Pass by, beyond us still. I sat waiting for this This moment to come and go I wish I would have left For the pain was oh so strong. The pain hit me like a punch One that hit my kidney, I hurt and come longing For this healing to come ?round. Then it happened one day As I waited for someone Not knowing who it would be Then finding you consoling I know it seems So very inadequate Sitting and waiting For someone to come for me. I know it must seem random As you read this tale, Of love that left me Standing all alone. The silence was killing me Deep down inside. I did not know what to do So I just sad there and cried. You held me so tightly I sat back and watched I was crying to someone, Who truly cared for me. I may like my solitude But I still have that need A need to be loved by others And have that love Shown to me. Yes I may be different Incapable of that Showing emotion pains me Because all that I?ve been through You came, helped, and saved me With out you I don?t know What I would be doing Or how I?d be living, But you were by my side. You helped me move on, You were what I needed Although you are so far Far away from here. You helped me understand That love hurts, But you can?t get through it And make it on your own. What is life about? [color=green] Thanks 6 March 2003 ~*~ Frogger~*~ [/color][/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Hey guys, how are you? Well I guess I was wondering, on average, how much do y'all sleep? If ya could, give a rough estimate... say 2-4 hours a night. Just wondering. Thanks. [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Well Welcome, but one thing... Newbie threads are against the rules. Hope to see you around. [color=green]~*~Frogger~*~[/color][/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]I really am not quite sure if I really really want to reply to this thread.... but I am going to anyways. Well if you ask me, Punk music for the most part anymore is not really punk, its more pop. So I like what Vegeta Rocker said, "Pop Punk", because that [u][i]is[/i][/u] what it is. But I wouldn't really call it [i]happy[/i] music... when I hear the term [i]happy music[/i], personally I think of most ska music, or "Happy California Music" as one of my teachers likes to call it... (she used to live there). Anywho. There is some okay punk music out there, and there's some not so good "punk" music out there... I guess it depends on your taste... and personally, I don't like all the new "punk" music. I think it sucks... but oh well... there's my two cents worth.[/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Well, I guess I kind of know what you mean. I know, yeah I'm a girl and all, but, this kind of happened to me before I ended up dumping my now, ex boyfriend. Before we became an 'item' he was like all wanting to be with me, and trying to cuddle and all that... but yeah, so when we started going out, things were still kind of there, but then there were times when he was like, 'I have plans, sorry to break our date' or 'My brother and I are going to hang out' or 'I have band practice' (he's in a band). So yeah, I know what you mean. What I personally would do is try to wait it out a little longer, and see what happens, if nothing changes I would dump her... I know it seems odd for a girl telling you to dump your girl, but stuff like that shouldn't happen in a relationship. Tell her, you don't want breaking up with her to get in the way of your friendship... (that is if you still intend on being friends). That's what me and my friend did, and we are like best friends. I guess I've said what I was gonna say, plus some... so there you go. [color=green] ~*~Frogger~*~[/font][/size][/color]

[font=arial][size=1]Harry there are some people in your life that you will meet, be it a romantic interest, or just some one that impresses you to improve in your life. Maybe a family member, or a teacher. There are many people in my life that I will never forget, unfortunately, my ex is some one who fits into that category. Trust me, if I could forget him, I would? He helped me change for the better, and not give up in music. I am still greatly involved in music and was, but I was having a hard time with a few things?. We talked through things, and well I am still involved with music, even more than I was? I am also continuing with drama. I love to act, and help back stage, and I am doing so in a show currently. Although things go rough, I still press through, also people deal with loss in different forms?. You may not like to talk things out with others, I do? although I don?t like to do so that much, but this topic is harder for me, so I like to hear what others have to say. For the rest of you, I have decided that I will not tell him? I have also decided that all of my dwelling on this topic is kind of making things a drag for everyone else. I will try to let up on all of that. I know, you don?t want to hear me complain, and I mean not to, but stuff happens and yeah I know you have to move on in life? and this is how I am doing it. I am talking to others about it. If you don?t like it, lump it and ignore this thread? I know that you are all welcome to your opinions and I encourage them. But I do not want this thread to turn into a ?I?m gonna bash your opinion!? or ?I?m gonna tear you down because I can!? thread. I am open to hear what you have to say, and honestly even if I don?t want to hear it, for the most part I know I need to hear it. I will take it in, even if I don?t want to. Thanks for replying. [color=green]~*~Froggie~*~[/color][/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Thanks Gokents... you are only so right... It won't be luck that pulls me through this.... It [b]will be[/b] my dedication. Thanks for listening to me complain.... I appreciate it, and the advice you all have given me. Thanks again!! ~*~Frogger~*~[/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Thanks for all the response... I know what I am going to do... and I do know that there are other fish in the sea. I guess for me it's hard, because I know it in my head that he's trash, and well in my heart, I still have to convince myself. lol.. ah well... I'm working on it. Thanks guys for your support. [color=blue] It takes a moment to fall in love, but it takes a lifetime to forget.[/color] ~*~Frogger~*~[/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Well I know guys who play girls are dogs, and dogs are no good. The thing is that I guess I know he has feelings for me still which is not making my life any easier. I guess that having the same intrests didn't really help things much.. as in now. Like I am huge in music and drama, as is he, and we did a lot of that type of stuff together, and well yeah, so now when I play guitar, I think of him, and when I hear Nirvana, and some other music I think of him. When drama comes around I think of him... DAMNIT! Why does stuff like this have to be so hard!!![/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]I swear being in music and the like, it can be a curse. Well for example, my ex-boyfriend and I are both musically inclined, we would go out and usually end up at his house, and play guitar and sing, occasionally dance (Piro- if ya read this, I know it's shocking... ya I danced... lol), and light up a smoke. But hey, ah well.. so if I ever hear Nirvana I think of him, because that is what he usually played for me... also a little joke that was between us was that I have to sing the "Star Spangled Banner" for the games at school, basketball and volleyball, so he would play it and I would sing... lol... but yeah that reminds me of him too... *sigh* ah well. Otherwise, memories are tied to most songs, another popular one from forever ago, "Blue" by Eiffel 65 reminds me of a friend I went to grade school with... he was obsessed with that song... like if there was nothing to do, he would hum that song, otherwise he would break out the Sugar Ray... lol... Sugar Ray... the good old stuff... heh. Anywho... most music has a memory. ~*~Frogger~*~[/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]I guess one thing that makes it hard, is that I go to a Catholic all girl school. Like most of my friends all go to the local public schools... lol... oh well... lets see what others say.... [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1]Why are people so confusing? I have a chance to break some news to my ex-boyfriend, that his girl (the one of whom he cheated on me with), is cheating on him.... What should I do? But first here's s little back ground.... Ok big deal... I know that my luck with relationships is never really that good. But why do things have to seem like they are going great, then they fall apart. I guess it seems wrong, that the guy I was dating, decided he would cheat on me, then he lied to me... ok I can get over the whole cheating thing, but when you lie to me that takes it a little too far. Its not that he lied once, but he continued to lie to me.... argh! I have tons of friends that go to most the schools in the Omaha/Metro/Bellevue area. My ex-boyfriend goes to Omaha North... ok we were dating yeah, he cheated on me with this girl who goes to Omaha Central. So I dumped him, but yeah it's weird to go from talking all the time, to like not talking at all. He has been giving me kind of a cold shoulder type thing one moment, then the next he is all like "I miss you, I'm gonna give you a hug." And I am not really a touchy-feely person. I have a personal space bubble, and you don't invade it, because if you do, I smack you upside your head. Anywho... My ex, and this girl from Central were dating... ok big deal. No but I have friends at Central, and they see her and this jock all over each other at school, and it's ridiculous(sp). But what should I do... do you think I should tell him, or what? Should I take him back? I don't know!!!! argh... Ah well... I guess yeah, I miss him... that's a given. But yeah, what would you do? I guess I could be really rude and burst his bubble, because he thought he was too good to get caught, and I caught him.... *sigh* he was stupid and he knows that ... but yeah... should I tell him what's up with his new girl? I don't know.... I think I might, but I guess I want to see what others would do first. Thanks for the help. [color=green]~*~Frogger~*~[/color][/font][/size]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Charles [/i] [B]Now--when my emotions are at a certain degree (i.e., when I'm really happy, or really sad)--[i]that[/i] has a tremendous effect on what I write. [/B][/QUOTE] [font=arial][size=1] I am soooooo like that. Emotions play a huge part in what I write. I write when something has happened in my life, and also like Lady Macaiodh. [/font][/size] [quote][i]Originally posted by Lady Macaiodh [/i] I feel bad, & the best stuff I write is depressing. When I really feel bad, I tend to wallow in it. It's weird, I was going through my poetry & I noticd there are big time gaps from when I was happily in a relationship (I have about 10 years' worth of poems). Or happy, period. It's like I have no idea what to write about. But when I feel depressed, confused, etc., it's like a floodgate opening. [/quote] [font=arial][size=1] I guess when things go either really wrong, or really good, I have tons of poetry to go with that experience I went through. lol, I find it very funny when I go back and there is all of this [i]deep, dark, and depressing poetry[/i]. I guess to me that is entertaining. lol, ah well. [color=blue]~*~Frogger~*~[/color] [/font][/size]

[font=arial][size=1][color=blue]I've been told that I need help many times, also been told a lot of other things because of the poetry that I write. Most of the time my poetry is dark, depressing, and occasionally violent. Once in a while, it is all lovey-dovey. hehe... I do fall in love, but then again, love sucks. But yeah, I don't think you need therapy, not yet, it's not dark enough for that... ^_^ But hey, I really don't have too much room to talk about needing help for all the dark stuff I write. [/font][/size][/color]

[font=arial][size=1][color=blue]well the pattern is close to Shakespearean... but hey that is what I have been writing for like the last week... and reading for the last two weeks... it's good, I like it, and it is similar to how I write... like your choice of words and the themes. [/font][/size][/color]

[font=arial][size=1][color=blue]I guess this would be the next one to post. This it the third one that I have written in the last 3 days. Enough from me... here's the sonnet. [/color] [u]Wasting Away[/u] My mind?s wasting away, thinking of you You are the one that I still want to feel You always said that you?d be there, I knew Your love is missing from my life I?ll deal What am I supposed to do with you gone When I left you, it hit me like a bomb Yet I always find myself dreaming on And I keep wondering how I stay calm My soul seems that it is wasting away All things in my life seem to fall apart The thoughts and feelings only seem to sway Yet it seems that you have stolen my heart Everyone tells me that I should just see How there?s many other fish in the sea [/font][/size]

[font=arial][color=blue][size=1]Well Paradise Kiss, that is one of my favorites, Lone Wolf and Cub, I am familiar with that one, that's about it.... lol... I love ParaKiss though. It has a fun story line.[/font][/color][/size]

[font=arial][size=1][color=blue]I am currently using Industrial Otaku, otherwise I use V6. I don't really like Liquid. Why, I don't know, I just don't like it. Industrial suits me, as does V6, I guess it just depends on my mood. lol. well there is my comment. :cool: ~*~Frogger~*~[/font][/size][/color]

[font=arial][size=1][color=blue]Yeah I heard he died. How sad, I mean I used to watch that show every day when I was younger... well, I guess that will be one of those random things I will remember of childhood, and how it just ended my senior year of high school. *sigh* Mr. Rogers, my neighbor. *sigh* [/font][/color][/size]