Nomad

Ok I don't have a banner or image or anything right now just information. Ok as some obviously might have noticed is that I haven't been on the internet for a long while now. The reason I haven't be on isn't because I ran away, hid or whatever else you can come up with that involves me gettin rid of my computer. The reason is because my computer, well, sorta burnt out. I don't know exactly what's wrong with it but I know I can't turn it on. My parents apparently found out somethin that they think is the reason for the little burn out, and are trying to get some money together to buy the new part(s) for the computer. There's two last things. One is that since I have no connection to my computer (I am using my dad's laptop) I cannot make banners or anything else you've seen me make or build. That includes my webpage. The last thing is that if anyone sends my an email or posts I probably won't respond or even read it until I get back on the net, which might take 4 to 5 days. So just letting you all know what's going on. Hopefully I can get my puter back up soon and make some more banners for you all to enjoy, but until then, later. EDIT: [b]Oh, and If anyone that has changed their email, that I've had on my addy list or buddy list or my AIM buddy list, then please please send me an email with your new email and what not. Although, I can't use my AIM till I fix my puter I would still like your names and emails just in case. [color=blue]EDIT/EDIT: I now have a new name on WebTV or MSNTV. The name is [email]ace_raidenak@webtv.net[/email] so if anyone needs to contact me there's the addy.[/color][/b]

Untitled The feeling is something never before seen to me, Always there deep in the soul, Unable to be revealed, Revealed to the only one who can help me. The feeling is to much to handle, Always around you, But belonging elsewhere, With someone else. It's hard to deny what I feel, Although try as I do, It is hiding from the conversations of everyday life, Not wanting to be just another loser. The feeling is bottled up inside, It's eating me alive, I can't sleep without it waking me, I can't think straight, I can't go on with this feeling locked up inside. I don't know what to do now, The feeling has caused another one, One that has taken many lives, One that has tampered with the feelings of others, The feeling of depression will consume me, It will consume my soul unless I am able to reveal to you my feelings. It brings about the feeling of hopelessness, Showing me that I mean othing, Nothing to anyone, Showing me that I shall feel the lonliness of life, I shall be alone until death, I shall be alone until it ends, Ending it sooner will ease the pain quicker. The sleepless nights are killing me, Making me feel the pain worse than before, Pushing along the angst, the agony of going on alone, Alone without the feeling I have longed for. The bastard of a person I am, Has yet to become happy, Happiness is something for the beautiful people, For the people who have experienced the feeling, The people who will always be unlike me, The all know the feeling, But have yet to feel depression, Only you can relieve my pain. You know who I am, We know each other, You know the feeling, I do not, I only wish to feel that way, To be like so many others, To be happy like you, To be happy with you. Nowhere have I found happiness, Nowhere have I seen it for me, Only for others, Others who do not notice the unhappy ones, The ones who have not felt depression before. I pray the angels to keep my soul, To keep my soul if the depression should take me, If it should suddenly end, If my life is extinguished. This is not an obsession, It is in fact the feeling of happiness, To have someone to give the feeling back, That is what the feeling is, Although the evil is quickly devouring every type of feeling that induces happiness, The hate is consuming me, Only one person can rescue me. My heart is slowy wilting in weakness, Everytime I miss the feeling, Everytime it is directed to someone else. Depression is not the feeling, It's not the feeling but is in fact killing it, Hurting the inside every day that goes by without you, Whenever I neglect to help you, Whenever I neglect to express myself to you. The unbarable pain of depression is something you shouldn't know, It is something that you should not deal with, While I suffer from this horrible sickness, Unknown to everyone around me, Unknown to you, Which could be as dangerous as anything else. If the feeling is agreed upon, The crime will be commited, One which I will be arrested for if failed, But could escape the harsh reality of lonliness, But be sentenced to damnation is succeeded. Everything seemed so good about life, Then the reality kicks in and life sucks, Life is unfair on so many levels, The harshest being the sickness infecting me, No wonder people have to end it all, ALthough relieving them from their sadness, It causes grief to the ones around them. The crows are watching over me, Waiting for me to make a choice, Waiting for the answers I've been looking for, Waiting for the answer that will push me over the edge, The answer that will bring the knife, The answer that will slit, cut and hang my way out of life. The savior will come to the aid, Only if the moment presents itself, Only is the feeling is felt, Only if you can say that you feel the same as me, As I have thought many of times, Afraid at the rejection, The rejection of your feelings. Death will be the result of rejection, Pain will be caused, Grief will grace everyones soul for life, The end will come soon, The crows will take me to a new life, A new life where the happiness is felt, A place where the love is shared, A place where I am loved as so many others around me where. END Yeah so there, say what you will about it.

I [i]did[/i] read your last post, and I was just stating what I saw and that's it. Don't go into anything because you think I was trying to be ignorant or trying to do something that you have already done. Anyway, on Thursday I got Live Aus Berlin from my friend, and it's a cool live version of some of their songs like Du Hast, Heirate Mich, Herzeleid, Du Riescht So Gut, Sehnsucht and Rammstein. It's pretty cool.

I have taken Spanish for four years and still don't know enough to hold a good convo with someone. I want to learn Japanese but I can't find a good place to. I want to take that or German. Or, what I really want to do is to goto college in Oklahoma, where my dad's from, and learn Choctaw, and Native-American language. Spanish is somewhat easy, having it four years in a row can actually teach ya somethin, hmmm...... I am currently a Sophomore in high school (11th grade here).

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Shinmaru [/i] [B]Q: What type of gimmick match was the famous Bret Hart/Stone Cold Steve Austin match at WrestleMania XIII? Who was the special enforcer/guest referee for that match? [/B][/QUOTE] yeah I should have mentioned that it was his last theme song before ECW was bought by McMahon. Anyways, A: The match was a Submission Match with Ken Shamrock as guest referee/special enforcer. Q: Who has competed in more WrestleManias than anyone else?

Rammstein is awsome. And I saw that in the German version Sehnsucht Du Hast means "You Have" and in the English version it means "You Hate", dunno. I have Mutter, Herzeleid and Sehnsucht. My favorite would probably be Sehnsucht. Then again the other two are close to it. My favorite [i]songs[/i] from them are Links 2 3 4, Herzeleid, Feuer Frei!, Mutter, Eifersucht and Kuss Mich (Fellfrosch). I got into Rammstein by my friend, who also got me into ICP which is another story. And we have actually looked up translated lyrics to different songs. Some of them are weird. Even when translated correctly it still sounds weird. But, meh.

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Shinmaru [/i] [B]Q: What is the name of the wrestling organization where current (and one former) WWE wrestlers Matt Hardy, Jeff Hardy, Shannon Moore, and Shane "Hurricane" Helms got their start? [/B][/QUOTE] A: The Organization was/is called OMEGA (Organization of Modern Extreme Grappling Artists). Q: What was Sandman's theme music from ECW? (Heh, I don't think it gets easier than that, then again...)

[color=darkred][size=3]I have a really, really bad anger problem. But the thing is, I don't show anger unless someone constantly is doing something to me. Doing something like making fun of me and what not, although I have learned over the past year or so to ignore most of them. Not really ignore, because everytime someone says something to me to try and make me mad, builds up inside of me. And that's were most of my anger comes from, built up frustration and anger. Some people have tried helping me with my anger, but hasn't helped. It just makes me think more about it, and when I do then the anger is multiplied by two because of the thinking. I used to get mad right away when someone said something mean to me, but not anymore, well.... There is only one reason why I will hit someone, yell, and/or throw things at someone. That reason is if they talk about or do something to my family, but more importantly my little brother. If someone hits him, or talks about him I will get so mad I start doing things I don't realize. I have never really punched a hole into anything in my house, I've made dents and cracks but that's about it. One of these days I think I'm going to snap and rip someones head off because of my anger. I need to figure out how to settle down and get rid of the anger, rather than let it build inside. I'm afraid to end up doing something like that. When I listen to music like the heavy deep meaning stuff like Metallica (i.e.; Fade to Black) and other music of that sort. Ok, I'm getting a little..... yeah, so I'm going to stop now.[/size][/color]

[color=darkblue][size=3]So many opinions, heh. My opinion is I hate her music, although she can somewhat act. I don't hate her music because it's pop or whatever you wanna call it. I hate it because of the sound of it. I don't like songs such as "I love you so much, blah blah blah" and "We should be together and we can cuddle yadda yadda yadda." I don't like those type of songs. I don't categorize that type of music as pop, I categorize it in my own way. I like hard heavy music, yeah alot of it can be like "I love you...", but it's not with all the violins, pianos, like guitars, and all that other stuff. I like it if it has loud guitar rifs, bass guitars, drums, screaming, and the overall feel of hate/sadness/pain/etc. But that's my opinion. I don't like people like the wannabe punk rocker Avril, I don't like Britney Spears, I don't like Backstreet, I don't like 98 degrees and all the other music of that sort. If you disagree with me then fine, you can go and sit in the corner and rant and rave all you want. I don't care, people have their own opinions. Some like the music that I don't like, I like music that some people don't like. That's the way it is. And I dunno if I made any sense, or if you stopped reading in the middle or what, but I've said what I wanted to say and now, I'm off. Later[/size][/color]

[color=darkblue][size=3]That....is....great. :D I love banners that have that weird death-like vibe around it. I have even made banners with that weird death-like vibe. I like the, what looks like some sort of x-ray of the neck and head of the person. I think that's what it is, the spine and skull. And the background is absolutely great. The only thing that brings it down is the NekroMedia text. You can't really see it. But overall it's one of my favorite pieces of art to come out of OB.[/size][/color]

[color=darkblue][size=3]Well, here's my desktop. I don't really like to have my desktop icons showing so I have them hidden most of the time. But when I do have them showing, I have them in a weird position. And I also don't like having my taskbar at the bottom at all times to I have it on auto hide. Anyways, here it is.[/size][/color]

[color=darkblue][size=3]Ok, one last banner before I goto bed. It's currently 2:44 AM were I live so if this post is a little weird, then jsut ignor it. Ok, alinkin park banner.[/size][/color]

[FONT=century][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]The first two are awsome. The third makes me dizzy though. *yells*Look!*points behind Kaola* *saves images and runs away*MWAHAHAHA*runs into pole*. Ok, keep up the good work.[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=century][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Hope htis is better. Stupid typo, to lazy to fix it.[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Anything by Slipknot basically. And these: Metallica, Fade to black - Where ever I may Roam - Enter Sandman - Seek and Destroy - Invisible Kid. I should stop now, or I'll be here for a while.[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=century][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Ok, another banner, blah blah blah blah. I want comments, please, good or bad. (no one checks here anyway except a couple).[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]:) Kewl. Ok, here are the two splash images I want to use for the site. Which one do you all think is better?[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Here's is something else for the wonderful people of OB (well at least the people who still take a look in here). It's the layout for my site. How is it? It's not supposed to be all high tech and what not. Just a layout. [img]http://www.otakuboards.com/attachment.php?s=&postid=457682[/img][/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Bet you can't guess what my MyOtaku name is. If you're that weird then it's Nomad. I'm too lazy right now to type it in. So just go there and search for me. It [i]would[/i] be easier to find people if we had something like a members list, like we do on the boards.[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]:) ok, here's another banner I made for someone.... I can't remember who though..... I think his name starts with a S, not sure though. Bah, I can't remember anyway, here's a new one. How is it?[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[color=darkblue][font=arial][size=3]In fact, we [i]do[/i] have a big WWE thread right, [url=http://www.otakuboards.com/showthread.php?s=&threadid=13944]here[/url]. So you might wanna check that out.[/size][/font][/color]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Has anyone got their CD. It's great. Not great as in 'I will only listen to them, period.', great as in a cd I would listen to often. I know of a few people here who like them. What songs are your favorites and why? The whole CD is good, I can't decide. But if I had to.... Silhouettes - because it just has that feel to it and I like the lyrics. Nowhere Kids - It's a cool song. The lyrics, again, are great. Something about these two songs just makes me want to listen to them the most. Then there is, Bottom of a Bottle - Of course, because I saw the video on MTV on All Things Rock. It was a cool song and I wanted the cd. So it's the song that made me want the CD. So who else likes them?[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]Cool. I've only noticed it when I was listening to my CD and I heard these movie clips and asked my dad if he's heard them before. he said he's heard them on a movie and we went out and rented it and it was cool.[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]The Warriors Has anyone seen this movie. It was made back in 1979 but it's still a good movie, in my opinion. Movies with gangs seem to appeal to me. This movie is about a gang, called The Warriors, trying to get back to their turf after a little trouble. I'm going to tell you some of the beginning of the story and I didn't know wether or not to spoiler this so I just did so; [spoiler]The movie starts out with The Warriors, and numerous other gangs going to a meeting. (although every gang is there, they only have 9 members going to the meeting) The leader of biggest gang in the city, The Riffs, named Cyrus is speaking to all the gangs about the numbers advantage the gangs have over the police in the city. Well it goes through some more talking with Cyrus, then a gang member shoots and kills him (I'm not going to tell you the name of the gang nor the person who shot him). Then everyone stops in shock. Then the police arrive with their sirens blaring and all the gangs start a mad dash to escape them. Well the Warriors all escape except their leader, Cleon, who stayed behind to check on Cyrus. While down on the ground where Cyrus lay dead, the gang member who shot him yelled out, "It was him! He shot Cyrus! The Warriors!" Then The Riffs go into believing him and beat down Cleon, then the movie starts with The Riffs putting out the word that they want the Warriors. So now every gang in the city is looking for them. Now they have to get back to Coney Island by way of subway from the Bronx. They have to make multiple transitions to get home, though. So now they have the problem of dealing with every gang between the Bronx and Coney Island.[/spoiler] Well, I dunno if you wanted to know that much. Anyway, it's an awsome movie, for some reason I like old movies like that. Not real big on suprises and stuff, but still good. So has anyone seen it? EDIT: [NOTE: If you like Psychopathic Records, and the artist Anybody Killa, and happen to have the cd 'Hatchet Warrior' then.... in the songs there are clips from a movie. The movie is this one. Heh.][/COLOR][/size][/FONT]

[FONT=arial][size=3][COLOR=darkblue]I can draw. Just not as well as others can. And I can make banners (duh). I do both. Maybe we should have like sections or something of the sort. Photography should be included, but it's Chris' decision. Just commenting. Later[/COLOR][/size][/FONT]