Who Are You?

[Semjaza]

[b][i]Semjaza's General Warning:[/b][/i] This is, surprisingly, my first actual thread in Otaku Lounge [i]ever[/i], so let's try and make this something good. The thead is a collaboration of ideas and writing between me and CWB to try and get some good discussion... hopefully.

[b]If there are a substantial amount of posts that are very self-serving, overly self-loathing (I'm sure there will be some, as life is like that at points, but no notably suicidal crap -- so please avoid it) or anything of that sort, I will delete this thread without hesitation.[/b] I think we see enough of that in some of the other threads here. If that's all you can come up with please post your drama elsewhere, as that's not the point of this thread.

Rather detailed responses would be nice, but I don't expect you all to write as much as I do (aka probably way too much) in most threads heh.

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Okay here it is...

The question "Who are you?" should be easy to answer. After all, we know every one of our own intricate personal secrets, fears and dreams. Or do we? Interestingly enough, we sometimes shield these details from ourselves as well as we do from others. If I ask you who you are, it might be more difficult to answer than you think, because people in general don't know themselves quite as well as they think they do. People might identify themselves by music, clothing, friends, heritage, etc. but it's difficult to say who you really are, what you're going to do, how you're going to do it, why, and what you've already accomplished.

Keeping all that in mind as you answer this, who are you in your own mind? How do others see you (or at least how do you think, and why)? And how would you rather people saw you?

-- Again thanks to CWB in gathering the ideas,and writing a good portion of it, with me :).

[Amorphous]

wow good question. Lets see here.

[b]Who am I in my own mind?[/b]

Well this is something I find interesting, I find myself to be two different people at times. I am sometimes a person of silence... I have absolutely no reason to speak, Its like I don't need to speak and I don't see why other people are speaking at all. As soon as I hear somebody say something I find it funny, and I find it pathetic because the person is asking. Its weird its like when I'm in this state, I'm mean and very anoyyed by everything that goes on around me. It makes me want to smash the peoples faces in. So its suprising that I act this way because my other side is the exact oppisite.

My other side though is I act crazy or just plain stupid just to get a laugh out of other peoples mouth. Who knows, maybe I'm trying to hide my real feelings. Its like I'm acting like a fool just to get people to laugh. I listen to what people have to say and think to myself of why there asking this question and then I realize its because they don't know. I do anoyy people on purpose though. But that is beside the point.

I guess actually I'm neglecting to mention one other side of me. This other side is I am really emotional, which nobody and I mean nobody has ever seen this side of me. This is when I do my best writting as well. Because well I'm emotional and then all my ideas just flow on to the paper like water rushing down a stream.

[b]How do others see you?[/b]

I think others see me as a very weird person. I wouldn't think I have met one person who hasn't thought I was. But I'm cheerful alot and make my friends laugh so I think they see me as a really nice guy. But then they have never seen my silent side. But still I don't care how others see me, its not there opinion that truly counts in the end is it? No, its your own opinion that counts in the end.

[b]How would I rather people saw me?[/b]

well in all honesty it dosen't matter how other people see me, but I would like other people to see me as some person who is actually somewhat more cooler then what I am. It would be nice to be somewhat popular for a change. Who knows I might be one day.

detailed enough for you? Lol
anyways yeah thats about it.

[Duo Maxwell]

[b]Who am I in my mind?[/b]

In my mind I don't fit in anywhere, I wanna be close to people and trust them but I can't. I'm torn by my independt and headstrong opinions on society and I ridicule every bit of it.
I have emotional masks that I wear at school and home, like I said I don't trust these people. There is only a few people that I trust.
I can be super quiet, or well super crazy in which I'll do really weird things. One example is walking down the hall dragging my foot behind me like its being attacked my a gnome or something.

[b]Who am I to others?[/b]

That moody b!tch in the corner...
To others I'm weird and crazy, and very loud. Most people give me funny looks and some think I'm cool. (o.O)
No one actually can figure what goes on in my head, I don't tell them. I'm probably perceeved as some sort of a dag, or dork. Also people think that I pay full attention in class thus making me somesort of "brain" and they expect me to give them the answers.

[b]How would I like others to see me?[/b]

I have no opinion on this.. I don't care what others think, that's as selfish as I get. As long as I'm having fun doing what I'm doing, I couldn't give two hoots about what other people think. But I like having people think I'm insane, so its ALL good.

[Spikey]

[COLOR=crimson][B]Whom am I in my mind?[/b]


I am what you would refer to as the laziest man alive. Either that or you could refer to me as the Prince of nerds. But enough about what you would refer. I think of myself as a nerd. I play video games for 6 hours. I get on the computer 5 hours the most, and I watch T.V. for about another 6 hours. My life is based on a nerd. But I'm really okay with that, because that is whom I am, and that is what I like. But a lot of people ask me why would I want to be one? I say to them that I am. I think that because I do all of the stuff that I've already told you. I hope a lot of people can understand that, and why is it that I am. Now for what my friend refers to me as.

[B]Who am I to others?[/b]

To a lot of people that understand me, I'm the same thing, but to a lot of other people, such as my relitives, bad friends, etc. I am a big superstar. That is only because of my relitives. They have gone down a path which leads to sport superstar history. But I don't care. Sometimes people make fun of me, but what the heck. They want my relitives. That is all. But I alwas have my best friend, whom is a nerd too, thus he is tied with me at the Prince rating. Anyway, I guess most people think of me like I think of me. Even my teacher.

[B]How would I like others to see me[/b]

Exactly what I posted above. I want them to think of me as a nerd. One who sits around all-day and does nothing. Why, because that is who I am. I do all that stuff, and I don't care. I just do it because that is what I like, and who cares if other people make fun of me, I can like what I like. That has always been my belief. Follow your own path. What I think it's leading to is making video games, or testing them.[/color]

[Jesus Chicken]

Who am I in my own mind?

Hmm, I think I'm the wierdest average person. I can fit in with normal people IE Teenyboppers, and stuff. But I can also fit in with strange people. IE Harlequin and the like. I am often hopefully misunderstood. AT the moment, im being very strange towards one freind of mine in particular. Experimenting if you will emotionally. Long story. anyway. And generally, if I think something, no matter how inappropriate or rude, I will probably say it. Keeping secrets only hurts other people more, so I like to get it off my chest.
Thats how I see myself. Jack, the average wackjob.


Who am I to others?

Damn, now there's a mouthful, I hope. I think people see me as a muso. A strange one. A sick twisted strange muso. My freinds will see me as "the bastard" the "crazy bastard" or tired Jack. The bastard is the part of me that says what comes to mind, regardless of whos around.
The crazy bastard is the part of me that is strange and twisted. For example the "baby jokes" part of me. I will scream at people for no reason, and bite people aswell. Not hard, but hey. I only bite people I know well though.
Tired Jack is the part of me that only one person has properly seen. that would be Flynn. Tired Jack is the part of me that is sensible, and will carry on a serious conversation for hours with. Tired Jack will talk about things that actually matters to him, and things that heis interested in. Tired Jack is predictable as far as actions go, but hopefully intelligent as far as conversations go.
So yeah, I am three people!!!

How would I like others to see me?
I would like to either be Crazy Bastard, or Tired Jack to everyone. Perhaps Crazy to most and Tired to a few. But im pretty damn happy how I am

[Kei]

[color=royalblue][b]Who am I in my own mind?[/b]
In my mind, I'm a person who's just trying to live another day and change the way I look at things. There's lots of ups and downs going on right now, more downs than ups, and I'm finding it harder to make any light of it. I want to try to be a nice person, but I have a problem with that, as all the things that have happened to me have changed my perspective on the world, and I'm quite quick to judge a person before I get to know them. Nine times of ten, I end up pushing a person away that could be a really good friend. 'Tis a very bad habit.

[b]Who am I to others?[/b]
To others, I'm just that really smart girl who knows [i]everything.[/i] They also see me as a very condesending person, as I'm often snippy, and come off as that stuck-up kid that says "Hey, I'm smarter than you. Why are you talking to me?" To my friends, however, I'm quite nice, and a funny person. I'm often the crazy one of the group, and always looking for a laugh. I'm weird that way....

[b]How I would like others to see me[/b]
I would like others to see me as my friends do. It would be a nice thing, and maybe I wouldn't get snubbed as much. I really need to fix my attitude, as my current one won't get me very far once I graduate....[/color]

[Heaven's Cloud]

[color=indigo]I don't think I can truthfully tell you how others preceive me, or even how I would like others to see me. I tend to not dwell on that too much anymore. But I do believe I can awnser the question "Who am I in my own mind?" without cramming BS into my post.

I have always thought of myself as the loner that desperatly wants to be part of a group, but is unwilling to give up his privacy to do so. I have never had very many friends, only three or four at a time...and I have always been poor in relationships, all of them seem to crumble when the phrases "steady", "exclusive", or "commitment" arise. I am quite selfish at times, if I want something, I usually have no qualms about tip-toeing on the edges of morality to get it. I am irresponsible with money but I am very punctual, and I am a hard worker. I love reading, playing videogames, and looking at comics and anime...I tend to get lost in the fantasy of them. And, most of all, I am a dreamer. My mind wanders hither and tither, like a balloon caught in a breeze.[/color]

[DeathKnight]

[color=crimson][b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]

There is no definate way to establish who I am to myself. I have a wide range of emotions, and genre of human I could fit into, that it would be a waste of my own time to attempt to seek who I am. If I [i]were[/i] to dwell on it for a long time, I would probably just say that I feel that I am the short-changed person to people- The friend who does alot, but doesnt get much back. Then again, not to drown myself in self pity, i'm a comedic, somewhat gothic/depressed person, suicidal at times, cheery at others.

[b]How do others see you (or at least how do you think, and why)?[/b]

I can come off pretty harsh intially since i'm not that open to new people most of the time, because i'm extremely arrogant at times. But to people on OB mainly, I guess i'm just a silly roleplayer. Lol. To my better friends, I can be a more serious, concerened, mature person- But i'm honestly ignored alot when in my mature mode, because i'm depressed that way, and I know that people tire of it. But that doesnt help me o.-;

[b]And how would you rather people saw you?[/b]

Haha. I'm fine with how it is.[/color]

[PiroMunkie]

[size=1][color=indigo][b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
I have tried to dive into this thought many times; every time drawing to no single conclusion. I cannot hone myself in on one singluar trait that defines myself in general. I generally have three basic emotions of which I cycle through from time to time. One, I am pretty happy and laid back. Two, I do not carry any real emotion. I am pretty much just existing. I still remain rather laid back, but can become irritated if someone does, or says, something that makes me angry. Thirdly, I am depressed. When I become this way, it usually last for a while, and I often become rather mentally ill... especially when I am completely by myself which can often lead to insomnia. I might think of things that will make me cry, make me angry, or just further push me into depression. I am extremely irritable and often blow up on people for simpler things, in which I become increasingly more violent and unstable.

A majority of the time, I remain in the second "phase", but can easily be pushed into the third. It is quite rare that I am actually truly happy with how things are. Even then, I can switch from being happy to feeling like utter crap in a single heartbeat. Perhaps it is beause I take too much time to think about things to the point where I have thought so deeply into it, that I see where the bad things are in it instead of just enjoying what is good about it. No matter where I am emotionally set, I always try to care about how others are. Even if I am not happy at the time, I do not want others to share this. I prefer to make others feel better, even at my own expense. Somehow, it just makes me feel better.

So, I have never really been able to find something to really put myself under as to who I am. I just know that I [i]am[/i], but without definition.

[b]How do others see you (or at least how do you think, and why)?[/b]
I have my friends. I have my enemies. I have my acquaintances. To be honest, I am not exactly sure how others see me. I am not that comprehensive in reading other people like that. My friends, mostly the girls, tend to worry about me. I suppose... I do not have any real answer to this question. My mind just draws a blank here.

[b]And how would you rather people saw you?[/b]
Honsetly, I do not care. I am who I am... whoever that may be, and people are just going to have to accept that whether they like it or not. I am not going to change myself for another person just so I can get a preferred emotion from them.[/size][/color]

[vegeta rocker]

who are you in your own mind?
well, this is a question i have thought about a lot. I see myself in my own mind as someone who is diffrent from everyone else. I am never sure why, i just feel like the majority of emotions people continue to go through in front of me just don't apply to me in the same way, if at all. I have a major temper, though to all i am withdrawn and polite at the same time. But when i am angered i just go so insane i cannot control myself because the rush of anger just feels so good.
That feeling is my fault, i don't allow myself to get angry at people. I lock my anger in and keep it under control.
In my own mind, i am an emotionally unstable person with a bad temper.

How do others see you (or at least how do you think, and why)?
People see me as a quiet little bookish person who tries to be cool in bondage pants. Just because i like english and science fiction i am not allowed to be a so called punk or rocker. All i want is to be who i am and i dont fit into their little category. Which i hate, since they think that being a punk is being too cool for suppossedly smart people.

And how would you rather people saw you?
I really don't care how people see me. If i did it would have driven me crazy by now. Just because i don't get a certain reaction i would find favorable doesn't bother me.

[James]

[color=#507AAC]This is a really interesting thread. The responses by people so far have been somewhat surprising at times.

For the first point, who I am in my own mind...that's really hard to answer. Having three younger siblings and an often absent father (his professional life often kept him away from family in the past), I basically became the second father to my younger siblings. Especially to my youngest sister. And when I think about it, that experience at a fairly young age is partly what makes me who I am today. It's also partly why I'm here in this job on OtakuBoards. I'm a manager, both in life and professionally.

Even now, both my parents work and are often busy. So it's often my job to organize my younger siblings. I help them with their homework, I read to them and I take them out on some weekends. I think that all of that experience is reflected in the way I behave generally. You know, it's like...I like things to be organized and "efficient". I don't like to see waste or unnecessary actions.

Apart from that, I generally try to be a kind person to others. Sometimes that conflicts with my work (depending on the work), because my own personal nature has to come in second place when compared to the things I have to do on a professional level. I try hard to please other people, but I do so without (hopefully) compromising my own position.

I don't know what else I can really say about myself, other than that. I've had big ups and big downs in my life, but I rarely talk about those things here. Maybe [i]after[/i] I'm an Admin (and thus, when I have no responsibility here), I can be more comfortable expressing myself on a deeper level to the community.

As for how others see me, that's a difficult question to answer as well. Different people see me in different ways. On OB, because I primarily have to function in a professional way, that [i]does[/i] mean that my personal preferences are pushed back. But that's natural, I suppose. Several incidents in the past (the kuja thing, for instance) gave me the distinct impression that a large amount of people here were putting on a nice face but thinking secretly "I just wish that guy would get out of here; I'm just being nice so that I don't get banned", or something. But then, after really getting to know a lot of members here...I realized that this isn't the case. Most people understand the difference between private and professional behavior...and I think most people know that I'm trying my best to do the right thing as much as I can.

In real life (and to those who are closer to me online), I think people see me as just another person. Generally with a good sense of humor and a friendly attitude. I don't think people take any objection to me if they are just getting to know me in a "normal" way. People like kuja would probably think differently about me if they actually met me in real life. That is something I always think to myself.

As for how I'd like people to see me...once again, I don't know. I think all of us would like to be seen in a positive light. And sometimes it can be hurtful (and confronting) to realize that people will dislike you (or even hate you) for their own petty reasons. Or simply for no reason at all. I've come to learn that it's part of life. It doesn't mean that I'm perfect or that I don't do the wrong thing; we all do occasionally. It just means that I've learned not to be surprised if I step on someone's toes without knowing it. And that, if my actions are taken the wrong way, there is often little I can do to change that.

So, I can't dwell on what others think of me. Because I can't change an opinion about me (especially online), if I'm not actually there talking to that person every day. It's reasonable to expect that people will form false opinions of me based on one or two encounters on a professional level...but it's also reasonable to expect that if I try my hardest on all levels, most people are reasonable enough to see that effort and take it in a positive way.

So yeah, I wouldn't want to presume to know what everyone thinks of me. Unless people speak honestly about it all the time, it's very hard to know unless you talk to those people often. The bottom line is that I value different opinions. Some people's opinions of me are meaningless; I don't need or want their respect or admiration. But the opinons of those who are important to me (friends or colleagues) are much more valuable to me personally.[/color]

[Solo Tremaine]

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
In my own mind, I often see myself as an onlooker to ther situations, someone who generally doesn't get involved with that much, either because I'm shy or haven't anything to say. That's not to say I think I'm aloof, because I'm not. I just border on the moderately social line. I also don't think it's good to try and get involved with anything that you've not asked to be involved with unless it's actually open or you think you have something important and valid to say. So I'd say I'm quite objective in that perspective.

Generally, I see myself as being kind and generous towards others, but I also, for some reason, see myself as a bore at times. Maybe because I don't do very much or I can't comment much on what other people say, but I see myself annoying people far more often than I actually do. I am paranoid about hurting other people's feelings.

As an emotional overview, I would see myself as being positive and outgoing, but occasionally and briefly lapsing into anger and depression.

[b]How do others see you (or at least, how do you think), and why?[/b]
I think that others see me as being kind and not pushy. My friends see me as being rather weird because of my opinions sometimes, and they think it doesn't matter because I don't answer back when they say something about it. This is a minor thing, though (and it's understandable- everyone needs to poke fun at people from time to time, as do people need to have fun poked at). Most of the time the see me as amicable and approachable, reliable and trustworthy. I am trusted by those around me, which can make things more shocking when they see my angry side.

I don't think there's a vast amount of difference in what I see of myself and what my friends see. I'm always very open. It's just a matter of interpretation

[b]How would you rather people saw you[/b]
I don't mind too much. I'd rather they saw the good side of me, but I don't want them to just see that. I hate being told I'm perfect, because I'm not. I want them to make their own mind about me from seeing both sides of me. And then, the rest is their opiion, and I will respect that whatever they think. Unless it's nasty and/or unfounded.

[The Vampire: Ed]

[b]Who am I in my own mind?[/b]

It's actually pretty funny, but Valick's own description pretty much describes myself perfectly. There are a few differences though.

When I act crazy, and stupid to get a laugh. It's only when I'm among people I'm close to or at least know well enough. I usually won't act this way around strangers, or people I've only know for a short period of time. I also not actually trying to annoy anyone with my action either, I think it's just a way to try and make people feel a little better or happier.

Valick's first, and third paragraphs are a perfect description of myself.

[b]How do others see you?[/b]

Most people are either afraid of me or just think I'm too strange to interact with. The reason being is that I am fairly big, a little over six foot, have long dark brown hair, wear mostly black in public, a long black trench coat, and leather fingerless gloves. Occasionally sunglasses to hide my eyes from people, because I quite honestly hate it when people look into my eyes. Don't know why, I just do. Well, anyway that's just my attire for keeping people from bothering me. But I'm constantly staring at the ground, and rarely acknowledge others around me. I'm ALWAYS silent, because I just hate talking to people.

So with this description it's obvious that people think I'm not social, and I probably look like the type who's about to just snap and hurt someone for no reason at all.

[b]How would I rather others see me?[/b]

Quite honestly, I don't care. I don't care what people think about me, nor do I care if they dislike the way I dress. I have one true friend, he knows who he is, and I don't bother with people. It's the way I am, and I, for the most part, am happy with the way I am.

The only thing I dislike about myself is that I am not social with the right people. Someone I may like, or most family members. Besides that I'm fine with the way I am.

[Juu]

[color=deeppink] [size=1]Nice job Semji. ^^

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]

I am... optimistic, and cheerful. ^_^ I try my best to cheer people up if they're upset, and try to help out if I can. I'm usually pretty outgoing, and I like talking to new people, and making new friends. I don't let what others say about me get me down too much, and cheer up pretty soon afterwards. I'm the tall girl on the dance team, who has 3/5 guyfriends, who trips on a chair and makes about three other people fall down next to her.
I can be really sweet to people if they try to be nice to me, and alot of times we can end up really great friends. ^_^
Although people might see me as someone they might be able to tease and get away with, I'm very serious in situations where I have to be.

[b]How do others see you?[/b]

Ditz, Teacher's Pet, and Flirt. (Not true. --)
Alot of people call me a ditz either by the way I talk or the way I act. o_o' I even find myself holding my keys in my hand, and dig around in my backpack looking for it. >.> Then, I walk around saying someone stole my shirt in the locker room, when I'm wearing it. o_o'
People call me teacher's pet, because they've seen me talk to the teacher in a manner, where I can get them to change a grade from a C+ to an A. Ask Celia. >.>
People tend to call me a flirt, just because I have alot of guyfriends and like to hang around them alot. People tell me that I like someone just because I've talked to them for thirty minutes.

[b]How would I like others to see me?[/b]

I'd like them to see me as me. ^^ I would really like it if they would just see me as Juu, whether they like or hate me.

But... that's about it. ^_^[/color] [/size]

[amibasuki]

[FONT=arial][b]Who am I in my own mind?[/b]
ergh, where to start.....I'm so contradictory it's not funny. I'm always at extremes; I'm always either really happy, or really upset. sometimes I can be really outgoing and could talk your ear off, but other times I clam up and don't want anything to do with anyone. I laugh really easily, but if things really get to me I can cry at the drop of a hat. heh, maybe it's mood swings or something, I dunno. I'm usually a people-pleaser type person, cuz I don't like people getting irritated at me and I like making people happy, so sue me. but it really irritates me when people take advantage of that. so yeah, I show some spine every now and again, when it's necessary. my self-esteem could use a good boost. I think the only thing I'm proud of myself for is my performing ability. I'm decent at various music/acting (if I try hard enough :p) activities. if I didn't have that to fall back on, I'd pretty much be screwed. I'm well-rounded for the most part, I like a wide variety of different music/people/etc. I have a hard time forgiving people though; when I get my feelings hurt, they get hurt, and they stay that way. kinda stupid, but that's how it is.

[b]How do others see you?[/b]
I have no clue how my friends see me. everybody else sees me as this smart girl who doesn't talk much, I think. in my health class the other day, we did this little self-esteem thing where we wrote one good thing about every person in the class. I got my paper back, and yeah, it said stuff like 'smart', 'quiet', and a couple of 'friendly's thrown in for good measure. of course, those were only the good things. I don't know if I'd want to see what everybody would write if they were concentrating on the bad things >.<'

[b]How would I rather others see me?[/b]
I'd like people to see me in a positive light at least, I dunno what else though. for the most part, I'm a nice, reasonable person, unless someone's done something to me that I didn't deserve. then I might make some smart remark the next time I see them if they try playing it off. but that's about as bad as I get, mostly. so I'd like people to see me as a decent person, and not just as one of those brains that gets good grades all the time (thing is my grades aren't anything spectacular anyway, so I don't know where the whole 'smart' thing came in to play).
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[Anna]

[b]Who Am I In My Own Mind[/b]

... I'm one of the ones that will make it. I know what I want, and I know I am going to get it. I suppose this creed is what embodies why I think/act/feel/etc. the way I have and will continue to in my life. It's sort of hard to explain... hmm,.. well I'll say this in favor of keeping this as simple as possible:
I've made progress in my life, spiritually and academically, talent-wise and socially, but it's never going to be enough--I am never finished. No one is perfect, but I try to get as close as I can to it without destroying myself. Now don't go thinking that I think I'm just on top of everything and all that mess; what I'm getting at is that I work on my flaws more than I work on my strengths. In some ways this is good, and in some ways this is bad. I go back and forth between the two actually. Basically I know that as long as I continue to challenge myself and break myself down and rebuild rebuild rebuild, I can do anything. I am my worst enemy and biggest obstacle, and since I have myself figured out the world is in a different perspective, on my level I guess. Well I'm getting off of this subject because I'm not making a bit of sense.

[b]How Do Others See You?[/b]

Um, I dunno. I've heard things, but I don't commit but a few to memory.... I have an ego problem sometimes (on good days :whoops: ). I've heard everything from "extremely talented" to "self-righteous" and a few "weird"'s and "cool"'s, a while back some people thought I was freak when I was like,... 13 or something? Now I'm 18 and not really seen that way anymore. I've been thought of as "stuck up" a few times, and maybe I am to an extent. I dunno...

[b]How Would I Rather Others See Me?[/b]

More as a person. Sometimes I feel like people know me for what I do, and for what my beliefs are, but no one knows [i]why[/i] I do those things. I have a lot of friends,... but then again I really have maybe 2 or 3. That makes me sad sometimes...... that despite all my progress and status, I've allowed for people to know only a forth of me, rarely a half of me. Maybe I've closed them off because I figure they won't understand, or won't accept, and I don't care. All the same... I think it'd be nice to have more people who really... care about [i]me[/i].

[Corey]

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
In my own mind I am a listener. I listen to people and give them advice. I am a healer. Ussually I give people advice or help them out on a scale which can turn their entire mood around for the better. I am a lover. I am very loyal and sensuous. Overall, I am a good person.

[b]How do others see you?[/b]
Others see me as Me. There is no other word to describe it. I have been told I am a good friend. I have been called 'Freak', 'Loser', 'Hater', and a number of other rude things. I have also been told that I am odd. Mostly people see me as a mediator. I help prevent and disperse arguments or fights.

[b]How would you rather people saw you?[/b]
I would rather people see me as the person that I am. I am a very deeps person. I think of things that people don't usually talk about. I enjoy having debates. I like to talk of controversal items. If I were to sum myself up in one word, it would be "Interesting".

[Sara]

[size=1]James...You seem like you'd be a great big brother. ;)

Semjaza...When I saw this, I immediately thought of my AIM profile and how you commented on it. ;)

[b]Who Am I In My Own Mind[/b]

I'm...Sara. Heh. Eccentric, sometimes sarcastic, almost always amused by something. Life is funny. I'm pretty confident with myself, I can act and sing in front of lots of people....it's what I love. I've been in a bit of a whirlwind this past year especially, suffering from depression. Bah.

But this particular moment I am in a good mood. *waves*

[b]How Others See Me[/b]

Funny, smart, sweet, sarcastic, the list goes on. At school, I'm the quiet smart kid in the corner, I'm the girl who wears a gumball-machine ring to school every day, the one who dresses up fancy for no reason and wears a sweatshirt on picture day. I'm the girl who puts up a sign on her locker every day with an obscure holiday on it, who actually sings during chapel, who keeps a log of stupid things teachers say, and who always has a book on hand, who carries around a dictionary, who is always drawing or writing or reading.

Heh.

[b]How Would I Rather Others See Me?[/b]

I'm pretty satisfied with that, actually. I wrote it in an extremely positive manner. Heh.[/size]

[TheShinje]

This is worth replying to, Semjazzazazaa Azzzzzazzzzezezezel's (lol) first post in Otaku Lounge :p

[B] Who are you in your own mind [/B]

I am a caring, loving individual, who helps others either spirituallly, or if they don't believe in God, then I help them in other ways. I am the prowd owner of Rising Sun, my own manga series (that reminds me, time to post a new piccie in artist lol)
I alway believe in doing what is right, even if i have trouble, or do not achive this standard at all -_-

[B] How others see me [/B]


I do tend to p*ss a few people off with my beliefs, partly that's my fault, for shoving them at them, making them uncomfortable. But usually, people are willing to be my firend, regardless of the god i choose, and I respect their decision not to choose so.

And they love my Rising Sun :blush:

And I got votes for the otaku awards :blush:

[B] How I wish people saw me [/B]

I would not wish for this to change, I am who I am, deal with it -_-

bleh :devil:

(and you know I kid about ya name, [B]semjaza Azazel[/B]. see, I can say it :p )

[Shaun]

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
Well, I've always been the quiet one. I really came out of that my Junior year of high school though. That's when I started drama. my first big role was in Grease, and I played a dual roll. I had to sing alone in front of about 500 people. I just decided to get up and do it. I did, and I have been at it since. I now sing and play piano in a christian band called In His Eyes. I am a Christian. I was raised in church. I work for almost everything I get, including my truck and college education.
I come from a large family (4 brothers and a sister) and a recently broken home. I was always the one to pick up the odd hobbies, like anime, trains, music, and drawing.
I'd consider myself to be a loyal person as well.
[b]How others see me[/b]
The quiet smart kid. I got good grades in High school, so I was the smart one. I was also the sweet one. The guy with the girl connections. I always hung out with the girls, so when a guy liked one of them, they came to me. It's also been assumed that I'm gay. I'm not, at all.
[b]How I wish others would see me[/b]
I don't like it too much when people assume I am gay. They hardly know me. How would they know? Just ask me. That's all you have to do.
I'd also like it if a girl looked at me as boyfriend material, instead of that sweet guy she could talk to. Other than that, I'm pretty happy with the way others see me.

[GinnyLyn]

[COLOR=royalblue]*looks at Shaun's last paragraph* No comment. :p

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
Believe it or not, that's a tough one. I consider myself a thoughtful person, passionate in my faith, and rather eccentric. Marching to the beat of a different drummer. I think of myself as a lot smarter than I let on. I also know that I make a better follower than a leader. I am an artist with a mission of telling a story. And a fanatic of great animated shows. I'm quite lazy when no one's looking, but if someone is, I work hard to make a show of being a "good person".

[b]How others see me[/b]
I hate second guessing others. It's almost always negative. I think people tend to see me as a goofy, lovable, yet loyal hard worker. Though I'm not the best advice giver. I'm just sorta there. Someone who can always do the grunt work. XP

[b]How I wish others would see me[/b]
Like many said, I don't want too much to change. Though I do wish people would see me as a great listener of problems, even if I can't give advice. I wish they would see that, when I seem to be lost in space, I'm in the middle of deep thinking, not daydreaming. And I want them to see me as someone who's tactfully honest, if not bluntly honest. I don't want them to think of me as just there, but rather, someone who deserves the same amount of respect they are getting from me. And DEFINITELY not as someone to be walked all over.

*steps down from her soapbox* Heh.[/COLOR]

[amiboshi]

[b]Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
I'm pretty thruthful with myself, and because I took 8th grade to seperate from everyone else, and being sick this year, I think I've gotten to know myself a lot better. I'm not sure how to descibe myself... I have multip personalities, really, so it depends on the impression someone has on me as to which personality they'll see. At school and with my teachers, I'm pretty serious, and I find it hard to laugh sometimes, because I'm just trying to be serious in school. I also don't like to generally goof off in school, and I work pretty hard. At home, though, I'm really happy usually, and I laugh all the time, and I'm pretty lazy, even on homework.

[b]How do others see me?[/b]
Honestly, I have no clue. I'm sure some people think I'm an uptight *****, and some people really know me, so they know I'm actually fun to be around. Some people think I'm a goodie-goodie or something, because I actually do my homework. O.o But I don't usually get maid fun of or anything, so I don't know what most people think about me.

[b]How I wish other would see me[/b]
I think I'm a little unapproachable, especially at school, because I'm a quiet person (unless you talk to when, when I explode with chatter), so a lot of people just never talk to me. I would love to be friends with a lot of people, but I guess I'm too shy to go up to them. Bad childhood memories. >.> I also wish people would see me for me, instead of as some group or stereotype. I can't stand that. I'm just not sure what I wish people would think of me. I'm comfortable with myself, so if people give me a chance, I'm not a bad person at all. ;)

[Kent]

I am a "passionate" person by the accounts of others. In another way, people say Im emotional.

I would say Im just an average guy.

In all honesty I would say that I am the guy girls didnt like in highschool.

Although, I am also a guy that doesnt care any more. Ive become a person who is happy and proud to admit that Im a geek.

For the most part, I dont really know how others look at me. Some see a fat boy, some see a smarty.

I see myself, an Irish American 21 year old male.

I care about everything others have to say, but at the same time, I dont care.

In the end, I just hope that I dont have to deal with everyone elses opinions of myself.

I would prefer others see me for what I am, and eventually, after meeting me, they would see me as a good person. (hopefully)

Also, soon enough, all of you will get to see who I am... Ive got pictures that are soon to be developed as well as a newly hooked up scanner. Hope I get to post the pics soon. till then... my name will do.

[Guest Hikaru Ichijyo]

[B]Who are you in your own mind?[/B]

Well above all I'm a very dedicated worker to whatever I set my mind to. I'm a perfectionist that likes to make sure everything is running or working at it's best with little margins for error. I'm proud, and strong willed which probably isn't the best combination since I'm willing to go to great lengths to be the best at the stuff I do. Also can't hide the fact that I'm a lonely person, spent a major portion of my life alone and that can bother me at times quite a bit. Also overemotional about things and sadly I can't help that fact.

Above all things I'd definitely say I'm far from an average person, I won't use the term weird but I'm certainly unique compared to the standards that we define as normal. My music, cultural, and views on life are very different which I guess to some extent makes me special if not a bit more diverse.

In all reality I'm still trying to define in my mind who I really am not sure I've got the answer to that question just yet. With Maturity and experience I can probably answer this 10 years down the line.

[B]How do others see me? [/B]

That question is a little more difficult, you have a good portion that just can't stand my guts, the portion that have gotten to know me well enough and like me. Then you have the people that have never spoken to me or gotten the chance to find out anything about the true me.

Probably the one that bothers me the most is the group that just lable me as you psuedo "fan boy", or the resident Anime Guru without really bothering to actually find out anything remotely about my life. People judge me before they know me and in most cases people just see me as a really big anime fan instead of a normal person trying to go through life like everyone else. Also a good portion of people see me as not having a life of my own.

[B]How I wish others would see me as?[/B]

First off I wish others would see me as a normal person with feelings just like anyone else. I'm not anyone's punching bag, or errand boy. Another thing I wish others would see me as is not just an anime fan. Anime is a hobby in my life one I've been doing for years granted more then others have. It's a small part of my life, despite what people see and naturally assume.

So generally speaking I wish everyone would just see me as the normal average person that goes to work, enjoys video games, travels around the states a lot, and actually lives or as people would say "have a life".

I wish people would see the other side of me, the Straight A student whose earned honors across his educational years, has taken up a black belt in the sixth degree, writes his occassional scripts some of which were offered at one point a deal to be produced. Most importantly a person that seriously is into film and directing.

I apologize if I took too long in writing this, but I just wish people would see me for more then what they know about me or assume.

[Queen Asuka]

[color=hotpink][size=1][b] Who are you in your own mind?[/b]
Who am I to myself? Well, the way I view myself, I am little over-protective of things that belong to me. I have particular chair I always like to sit in, I have a particular cup that if anyone but me uses I have a heartattack, I have my belongings that I really hate for people to mess with, and I have my Ryan who I don't want anyone else to look at. *Covers him up and hides him* I also think I am usually pretty happy, but sometimes little things bother me. I'm becoming more negative than I used to be and I think it's from High School. I really HATE the way people look at you in high school.

But when I'm happy, I think I am a cute and cheerful person. Really hyper and Happy-Go-Lucky. When I get into something, I just can't let it go and I'm pretty determined. I get my release through dancing and watercoloring. I'm also really close to my mom and I'm growing closer to my younger sister as she is growing more mature.

And like Harlequin said, I myself am I hopeless romantic, too. ^_^

[b]How do others see you (or at least how do you think, and why)?[/b]
Well, I think my friends see me as a generally happy person who isn't afraid to speak her mind. I try not to have disagreements with them because they are all so important to me. Some people think I'm clingy (to Anna especially), some think I'm spoiled (and how I wish I was), and some think I'm seriously on drugs. I don't need drugs to act like a do. Like someone said to me the other day, if I was on speed, my heart would explode. ^_^

[b]How would you rather people saw you?[/b]
I want people to see me for who I am. I want them to know that there is more to me than meets the eye. I want to be loved more than anything. I crave attention, and who doesn't? That's why I have my Ryan because he gives me every ounce that I need on a daily basis. And I REALLY hope people don't think I'm on drugs.. >.<[/color][/size]