Lost in Ohio

[Heaven's Cloud]

[color=indigo]I just arrived in Ohio today, and, truth be told, I am very nervous and slightly afraid. I moved away from my home of twelve years, accepting a job in a small city in eastern Ohio, expecting a sense of pride and prestige or at least a twinge of unbridled excitement. Instead, my stomach is churning out gallons of acidic nerve juice and even my tasty, alcoholic Sam Adams is not stifling the tremor in my hand.

I am not nervous about starting my new job, I know I am more then capable for the task. I am not homesick for my family, house, and dog; I have lived away from them before, and I managed to bumble my way through life's routine. I am not uncomfortable temporarily living with an uncle that I scarcely know, and bunking with cousins who couldn't be more opposite in demeanor then yours truly. I am not even daunted by the fact that I know no one in Ohio save my uncle and his kids. So why do I feel so empty inside?

During the drive to Ohio I came to a realization. I have entered the business world. I am not working at a job that I think I'll love (although it could be enjoyable), nor am I entering a field that could be the launching pad for my dreams. Instead I took a job that will make me money fairly quickly, and in moderate sums; I took the job that offered to pay me the most. And the instant I realized that, I also realized that I sold out my dreams. Did I play my own Judas? Even though this job could potentially provide me with enough money to live comfortably all of my life, did I make the right decision? Did I just put my dreams on hold, or did I make my thirty pieces of silver?[/color]

[James]

[color=#808080]We don't all end up where we'd like to be, unfortunately. Sometimes the only way to achieve your dream is to take a big gamble -- which can sometimes end in heartache.

What you have done is nothing out of the ordinary. You've chosen something that makes sense to you at the time. What you must remember is that you are only young. You can spend some time building up experience where you are and then you can take that gamble and follow more of a dream-like path. ^_^

I've done a lot of things (careerwise) that I never thought I'd do. But it has only added to my experience overall. It hasn't deterred me from following my dreams at all. ^_^ I'm sure you'll be okay.[/color]

[Kent]

I think you put your dreams on hold for 30 peices...

By that I mean that you dont have to forget your dreams, but in the mean time, atleast your gonna make alittle money.

Truth is, most of us that actually get to our dreams make it their one of a couple ways.

Either the big gamble wit lots of hard work...

Or the hard work way with something else, which allows you to go to your dreams when you have the freedom of a comfortable life.

It is true that some or most of us dont get to our dreams.
But I believe that if you work and never forget your dreams, there is no chance that you are merely gaining thirty peices of silver.

I think your just setting yourself up for a life that will hopfully allow you to persue other things- your dreams.

[Delian]

There is no need to feel like you've sold yourself out. What you're doing right now is assessing your short term priorities. It doesn't mean that you can't follow your dreams later on. This job is only a stepping stone to your other goals in life. Be happy you still know what your dreams are. :)

Lots A Luv

[Lady Macaiodh]

[color=darkblue]What is the job you just took, & what was it you really wanted to do? Do you think your dream was unrealistic? Is it possible that you could still do it one day?

Heh, I'm still gonna be a rock star. Why don't we just start a band?[/color]

[Delian]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Lady Macaiodh [/i]
[B][color=darkblue]What is the job you just took, & what was it you really wanted to do? Do you think your dream was unrealistic? Is it possible that you could still do it one day?

Heh, I'm still gonna be a rock star. Why don't we just start a band?[/color] [/B][/QUOTE]

Hehe..becoming a rock star...now that's a dream!!! Let me know if you need a drummer...or a singer;)

[Kei]

[color=royalblue]It's perfectly all right that you took this job, HC. True, this may not be the job you want to do for the rest of your life, but who ever really starts out with that dream job they've always wanted? You've chosen more of a "money now" job, which is certainly understandable, but you can always look for a job you'll truly enjoy. Nothing's stopping you from doing that. Just go with the flow, and if you come across a job you like better, go for it.

[size=1]On another note, I live in Ohio. Where abouts in the East are you?[/size][/color]

[Heaven's Cloud]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Lady Macaiodh [/i]
[B][color=darkblue]
Heh, I'm still gonna be a rock star. Why don't we just start a band?[/color] [/B][/QUOTE]

[color=indigo]To quote the vernacular: "Bless my stars and garters"; How did you guess what my ideal profession is with such ease?

My new job is a simple customer service job; I travel around and make sure buyers no how to use our ordering guides, and I also take their orders on the phone or via the web. Our product; kitchen and bathroom items (sinks, bathtubs, showers, ect...). I know this is a safe job, one that could become a career if I wished it, but I feel that I am a bit too bohemian for this kind of work. I wonder if money will overrule my need to ramble and live amongst both the outer and inner fringe.

I decided this morning that I will view my new post as a temporary one, and hopefully it will be a stepping stone for my future dreams.[/color]

ps. Lady K, I now reside in Warren Ohio, somewhere between Pittsburgh and Cleveland.

[Lady Macaiodh]

[color=darkblue]Yeah, I was pretty sure that was it.

Well, as we all know, it's pretty hard to make a living playing music. How rigorously have you pursued it? I've made a few bucks here & there performing, but I always ended up getting side-tracked. I haven't played a show in a couple of years.

I think you're in a pretty good position to pursue it in your spare time, though. That's what aspiring musicians have to do when they're first getting into the business. You're in a new town so you'll have to hit the right type of "clubs" (or what-have-you), shows, & music stores to meet others like yourself. Put up ads on the bulletin boards describing the type of musicians you want (this is how my friend Jessica & I started our second band). Try to have fun with it & don't take it too seriously at first. If it doesn't work out, you'll still have your backup plan. And you'll have a great time in the process. If you think the band is going somewhere, cut a demo (less expensive than you think) & send it to every club within a hundred mile radius (exaggerating, but you get what I mean). You might have to harass them a bit, but they're used to it. The odds are you'll most likely get a show.

And remember... Sublime's "Robbin' the Hood" was recorded on a simple 4-track in Bradley Nowell's living room, & now it's a cult legend!

You don't have to give up your dreams just because you need to look out for yourself.

Delian: Heh, a good drummer is what I always have the hardest time finding, especially a female one. When are you coming over? As for the singing, lol, sorry but I'm [i]always[/i] the vocalist! I was born for the spotlight baby. Don't sound half bad, either.[/color]:naughty:

[Darkness]

Just think of it as a means to an end. You won't be stuck there forever, unless you want to be. I believe that people have dreams and they have goals. Goals are easier to reach, but nonetheless important. And dreams are more desirable but harder to achieve. Being successful in your career is a goal and music is your dream. (Actually, your goal and dream match mine exactly!)

Use your goal to support your dream and eventually you'll be happy!

[SaiyanPrincessX]

I agree with almost everyone. ^^ Stick with it, the job your at could gain you more knowledge, and perpair you for whatever your dream job may be.:)

[SIZE=1][COLOR=royalblue]I too live in Ohio.. ^_^[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[Mnemolth]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Heaven's Cloud [/i]
[B][color=indigo]I just arrived in Ohio today, and, truth be told, I am very nervous and slightly afraid. I moved away from my home of twelve years, accepting a job in a small city in eastern Ohio, expecting a sense of pride and prestige or at least a twinge of unbridled excitement. Instead, my stomach is churning out gallons of acidic nerve juice and even my tasty, alcoholic Sam Adams is not stifling the tremor in my hand.

I am not nervous about starting my new job, I know I am more then capable for the task. I am not homesick for my family, house, and dog; I have lived away from them before, and I managed to bumble my way through life's routine. I am not uncomfortable temporarily living with an uncle that I scarcely know, and bunking with cousins who couldn't be more opposite in demeanor then yours truly. I am not even daunted by the fact that I know no one in Ohio save my uncle and his kids. So why do I feel so empty inside?

During the drive to Ohio I came to a realization. I have entered the business world. I am not working at a job that I think I'll love (although it could be enjoyable), nor am I entering a field that could be the launching pad for my dreams. Instead I took a job that will make me money fairly quickly, and in moderate sums; I took the job that offered to pay me the most. And the instant I realized that, I also realized that I sold out my dreams. Did I play my own Judas? Even though this job could potentially provide me with enough money to live comfortably all of my life, did I make the right decision? Did I just put my dreams on hold, or did I make my thirty pieces of silver?[/color] [/B][/QUOTE]

Bah, you're just getting old. ;)

It'll pass, you'll die, and worms will feed on your rotting corpse. No big deal. :D

[silentdeath]

hey i live in ohio and there is nothing wrong here.

you just don't feel good?

who knows?

Mnemolth's right it may be old age!