Writing My tragedy. True story of true love.

[Guest SuperMaxSonic]

In 8th grade, I met a girl. I almost immediatly fell deeply in love with her. We became good friends, but she did not know how I felt about her yet. The next year, my best friend encouraged me to ask tell her how I felt, and that he had did'nt like her the way I did. So I did tell her, and she was okay with how I felt. However, then I began to follow her around school. She was all I thought about. Before I met her, I did'nt take showers, did'nt wear deoderent, did'nt brush my teeth, and cared not of my outward appearance. She inspired me to change my life. I regained my faith in God becauce of her. Then I found out that my best friend had been going out with her for a month. I was devestated. However, I decided to play the friend card until he skrewed up. A year later, we were at out best spot in our friendship. But, not having her depressed me. I began to obsess over her. I began to follow her more often. But I always stayed by her side when she needed me. When my friend mistreated her, I was there when no-one else was. Then they broke up. That's when I began to go downhill. I was so afraid of loosing her that I wrote love letters to her constantly. Then they began to turn grim. She asked me not to follow her so much, and I gradually cut down on it. The letters began to talk of loosing faith and suiside. During the class I had with her, I'd cut myself with sharp things in the classroom to get her attention. One day, I wrote in a letter,"I'd even hurt myself so you'd feel sorry for me." What I was saying was that that's why I had been cutting myself, to get her attention. But it sounded like a threat unto myself, and she showed it to her mom, becauce she was afraid. Her mom threatened to put a restraining order on me. I'm now taking drugs for depression, but I still miss her. I'v never had a real friend until her, and I blew it. It hurts to be alone. I nead to ask for whoever is reading this letter's help. I'v told her that I no longer wish to be anymore than friends, but... It seems so hopeless. Please help.

[Treble]

Well first off, stop using drugs it'll only make things worse. Try working out or do something else that you may enjoy like drawing, listening to music, playing sports etc.

As for your lover, try to pull jokes or do something to make her laugh, and eventually things may work out. Stay strong, keep your head up, and never give up. One last thing, I know this may have been said a lot of times before, but remember there's a lot of other girls out there you'll find the right person one day. ;)

[Guest SuperMaxSonic]

I just need my friend back. That's all I wanted...

[T man]

Just act like the friend you were in the past and get over the boy friend, girl friend thing. You should be happy that you have A friend because haveing A friend is better than haveing no one.:demon:

[Decadence]

that hurts i know... but don't hurt your self over her. that only makes her feel worse. think about it if she likes you she feels bad that your hurting your self. it looks hopeless now but its not if she isnt the right one she isnt it happens. im not saying it doesnt hurt but it just happens theres not much you can do about that. unless you go the way i did for a while and care about no one.... that hursts even worse when you find some one you care about cuz then you end up bracking down walls you put up and if they leave it hursts about 10 times worse. so dont go that way. eather she's going to like you or not be your self if you likfe her dont hurt your self over her or kill your self over her. cuz if you do you just ended your life for some one and if it hursts them theres nothing they can say to make it better they cant say sorry to you or say they loved you or any thing. just do some other stuff for a while and give her some time it may turn out she likes you but wasnt sure how to act with you all depressed and stuff. well thats just my advice probly not very good though so take it or leave it and sorry bout whats happening man i know it hurts... happened to me to.