Frankie Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 Well as some of my friends here know... Almost 3 years ago i was living in another town with my Adoptive mother Darlene. MY birth mother and her boyfriend came to viset one day. THey brought along my half brother derek and my half sister tawnie... Later on those four moved in with us. Well my brother derek was a pain... a pest and all... But as for me and my sister tawnie... its another story... Me and tawnie bonded so much. We were best friends and sisters... who cared about that whole technical blood stuff. Well.. for an unknown reason my adoptive mother evicted them. They dissapered when i was on vacation with my adoptive father Ron... I was depressed. It is bonding with a pet and then have it die or run away... Just a bit to depressed. I moved back in with my dad Ron. A few years passed by and i got more and more depressed. I couldnet stop thinking about all those fun memories of hanging out in the fiels, riding horses, riding on the 12 mile loop on our bikes.... It got so bad.. i became suicidal. Of course i was a member here by then. I had no friends.. and my only friend... had dissapered to who knows where. I was suicidal to the point that one day on OB i felt that it was pointless...life. So i got the pistol from my dads bedroom. I sat here posting a few more times. I was pretty pessamistic and sarcastic in my posts. Well a new person here on OB pmed me. He noticed my behavior... not the suicidal bit... but jsut my attitude was well... let me put it in my words... ROTTEN. We pmed back and forth for a bit. For some reason i liked him. He was kind and friendly and caught my intrest... i wondered if that was what having a friend was like.... So i put the gun away hopeing to talk to this member again one day. Odd now... we talk every night and he is like a brother to me. That would be Shaun... Anyways... Just recently... like a week or so ago i went on vacation with Ron. We went to the Oregon Desert to camp out. Well the trip was ok.. hot dry and windy. It was fine with me. I was sick the day before we left so i never left the camper. Ron went to a local restraunt to bring home "To Go Dinner"... when he got back with my small meal... he was acting a bit wierd. "Um if someone knocks on the door while im in the shower... Go ahead and answer it.. they are ok..."He says quickly "Who is it?" I ask "Oh just some people i saw in the restraunt that i know... ill be back" He answers as he leaves. I shruged it off and continued to play with the laptop and eat my small meal. He comes back after a while and tells me who he saw... "Guess who i saw at the restraunt" He says I shrug and guess "Dr. Whats his name?" (confidentiality) "no" "Thank goodness... another lecture from him and ill jump off fort rock." "I saw Raela..." This happens to be my birth mothers name. I about died. Heart Attack was sure to drop in the midst of my hyperventalation. If Raela was around.... SO WAS TAWNIE. Well the day me and ron were leaveing. My sister knocked on the camper door. She stoped by before i left. We chatted and caught up a tid bit. Unfortunatly i finally had to say goodbye and get in the truck for home. I did get pictures though and im glad to have. She just mailed me her first letter to me. I hope to keep in contact with her untill she can move closer to me... in with me even more prefered. It tore me appart to see they dissapered the first time.. id hate for it to happen again... This has been really naggin on my mind and i thought i should share my neat news with you all... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JJ Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 That's great Blanko!!!! =) I hope everything will work out for you and your family! =) (notice the obsesion here) When do you think she'll move closer? =) Wish you the best! =) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankie Posted June 29, 2003 Author Share Posted June 29, 2003 heh thanks.... when she is old enough... See ... well.. her mother (Raela) Told her to move out... and shes not even 14 yet. So she just moved to a friends house... when i get an apartment ... whenever that will happen... ill be happy to have her move on in when shes allowed to. But you know its all up to her... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dragon Fou Lu Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 this sort of reminds me when i was on holiday last year. when i was in new zealand in 1999 i had to leave all my friends with no method of contacting each other, well i hadn't seen any of them for 3 years is the point. but when i was at an airport last year wandering around a bookshop i heard a voice i hadn't heard in ages yelling " Hello! " when i turned round i noticed it was one of my friends from New Zealand! :eek: so we got talking about stuff, unfortunately i didn't get an e-mail address or anything as a contact so that was a little upsetting. :( but it's good for you blanko to see someone who you missed a lot :) and i hope she moves close to you :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlackDragon465 Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 Not to mean it in a bad way or anything but you sound like you suffer from depression A LOT. That is not normal and it is needed to get help. I am in no way trying to offend you but depression is NOT normal and it is not a good thing. Also I hope life gets better for you or you might end up killing yourself. You already admitted you have this problem and that is a good thing. Why didn't you get help if you know you have depression? You know I think you kinda get out of it and go back to it. I don't meant to sound mean or act like a Doctor or anything but next time you go into depression you may end up killing yourself for no reason but being depressed. Life is not easy and one has to learn that. I have encountered some things that seem you will never get away from or things like that. I just hope everything turns out good for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexa Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 [size=1]I'm glad it all worked out. I fell very lucky--the worst that has ever happened to my family is my parents' divorce.[/size] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Skyrose Posted June 29, 2003 Share Posted June 29, 2003 Aw man, that's so awesome! I didn't even think lucky stuff like that happens in reality, it's never worked like that for me -.- You should feel really lucky, that's so awesome =) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankie Posted June 30, 2003 Author Share Posted June 30, 2003 [QUOTE][i]Originally posted by BlackDragon465 [/i] [B]Not to mean it in a bad way or anything but you sound like you suffer from depression A LOT. That is not normal and it is needed to get help. I am in no way trying to offend you but depression is NOT normal and it is not a good thing. Also I hope life gets better for you or you might end up killing yourself. You already admitted you have this problem and that is a good thing. Why didn't you get help if you know you have depression? You know I think you kinda get out of it and go back to it. I don't meant to sound mean or act like a Doctor or anything but next time you go into depression you may end up killing yourself for no reason but being depressed. Life is not easy and one has to learn that. I have encountered some things that seem you will never get away from or things like that. I just hope everything turns out good for you. [/B][/QUOTE] heh... i know Beginning this year i started cutting myself... and quiet once i gaiend control of my emotions yet again. i go to a psyciatrist (sp) sometimes and that helps... but you are right... i go in and out of depression... ALOT.... my dad just quit drinking little over a year ago.. and not that its a bad thing or anything.. .but hes changed.. he ignores me even more then he already did when eh was drinking.... and its just me and him living in this small house... so... i normaly catch myself talkign to myself alot... course then i beat myself up about being a complete psycopath (sp) and talkign to myself.... Anyways... i too think this is great.. lets jsut hope she keeps up mailing me... because i want to know where she is once i get my licence.... road trip...! heh Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlackDragon465 Posted June 30, 2003 Share Posted June 30, 2003 [QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Blanko [/i] [B]heh... i know Beginning this year i started cutting myself... and quiet once i gaiend control of my emotions yet again. i go to a psyciatrist (sp) sometimes and that helps... but you are right... i go in and out of depression... ALOT.... my dad just quit drinking little over a year ago.. and not that its a bad thing or anything.. .but hes changed.. he ignores me even more then he already did when eh was drinking.... and its just me and him living in this small house... so... i normaly catch myself talkign to myself alot... course then i beat myself up about being a complete psycopath (sp) and talkign to myself.... Anyways... i too think this is great.. lets jsut hope she keeps up mailing me... because i want to know where she is once i get my licence.... road trip...! heh [/B][/QUOTE] I am glad you didn't take my post in a bad or offensive way. I understand is hard at times. I have had an awful last 2 simesters in school this year. It was just god damn awful. Every day I went to school and sometimes I felt like killing one of my teachers. Seriously I wasn't joking he was awful and disliked me because I am lazy. I got so angry everyday I usually use all my force and slam my hands into the nearest thing I could find. Ofcourse I am no Jackie Chan so I ended up getting my arm swollen and stuff and damaged books,chairs and other stuff. One time I started bleeding from it. This is just to show you I don't have a happy perfect life. Anyway hope she keeps mailing you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankie Posted June 30, 2003 Author Share Posted June 30, 2003 [b][quote]I am glad you didn't take my post in a bad or offensive way. I understand is hard at times. I have had an awful last 2 simesters in school this year. It was just god damn awful. Every day I went to school and sometimes I felt like killing one of my teachers. Seriously I wasn't joking he was awful and disliked me because I am lazy. I got so angry everyday I usually use all my force and slam my hands into the nearest thing I could find. Ofcourse I am no Jackie Chan so I ended up getting my arm swollen and stuff and damaged books,chairs and other stuff. One time I started bleeding from it. This is just to show you I don't have a happy perfect life. Anyway hope she keeps mailing you.[/quote][/b] Happy life... you should feel like a royal compared to mine....psycho mother drinking dad... a few idiotic sisters... nothing to do but sit up in my room and wait for the roof to cave in... to badthat never happened.... ~_~;; Anyways... no i did not take that post in a bad way.. i understood the point... alot of people talk to me about that... just not.. on OB Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nate Posted July 1, 2003 Share Posted July 1, 2003 Flora.........i.........don't know exactly what to say........ I didn't know it was ever that bad.... I mean i know you and me've talked and you've hinted..but never that bad....*wishes he could take back the stuff he said in the last few pms he sent* Well..at least she's writing now...hope it gets even better.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Delian Posted July 1, 2003 Share Posted July 1, 2003 Reading that, I felt so sad for you. I'm glad it worked out in the end. Sisters can be annoying at times, but they're great. I'm real happy for you and relieved for the fact that you didn't take your own life. I hope you guys stay in touch and even move in together. You sound like you need good people around you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankie Posted July 1, 2003 Author Share Posted July 1, 2003 [QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Delian [/i] [B]Reading that, I felt so sad for you. I'm glad it worked out in the end. Sisters can be annoying at times, but they're great. I'm real happy for you and relieved for the fact that you didn't take your own life. I hope you guys stay in touch and even move in together. You sound like you need good people around you. [/B][/QUOTE] good people..... heck id even take bad people... ANY PEOPLE for that matter... its so boreing here.. depressing even... but thanks... and yes Nate... i have already forgivien you on the whole pm thing.. i never told you so you wouldnt know not to flip out... thanks people.. i appreciate you even takeing the time to at least read and post here... it means a bunch... knowing some of you care Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nate Posted July 1, 2003 Share Posted July 1, 2003 [QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Blanko [/i] [B]heh thanks.... when she is old enough... See ... well.. her mother (Raela) Told her to move out... and shes not even 14 yet. So she just moved to a friends house... when i get an apartment ... whenever that will happen... ill be happy to have her move on in when shes allowed to. But you know its all up to her... [/B][/QUOTE] hold it..she got kicked out and not even 14? Damn..Flora,..good thing it won't my sis who got kicked out..or that so called 'mom' would be killed or seriously hurt....*shakes head* what da f*ck is the world coming to....... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankie Posted July 2, 2003 Author Share Posted July 2, 2003 nate... i really dont know.... they treated her like a slave... they sat on their buts and ate all the food they wanted.... she hardly got any... her dad was verbaly abusive and her brother (my brother as well) he was physically abusive.... but when ever she tried to talk about it.. they said it was her fault... so then the go find a new family thing popped up. they treated her more like a slave then a family memer. she did everything.... the dishes.. the laundry.. took care of the dogs and EVERYTHING.. while the others just sat around like lazy slobs.. seeing how they are lazy slobs... anyways... i dont get what this world or at least THEY are coming to.. but at least she got out of that situation Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nate Posted July 2, 2003 Share Posted July 2, 2003 jusdt like a said flora.....i wouldn't do it to get her back into the house..just to get them for donig it. Then, she'd ocme home with me when i came back.. Maybe me plans are rational...who knows? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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