Alcohol and break-ups

[renayiiq]

[QUOTE=persocomblues]
As I noted before I don't think alcohol is a proper escape because it does get you more depressed and it isn't a good thing to become dependent on it. What are your thoughts on that? A few forum members have said how it is an escape from reality, how do you feel about that? Do you have any intention on changing how and when you drink?[/QUOTE]

First of all, I only drink every few months, if even that. I alreay have my addiction...cigarettes. It can be an escape from reality. Well, actually, for me, when I'm drunk or tipsy or even slightly buzzed, I don't focus on the bad things. I laugh and I talk about the happier things, and I can go to bed early. How and when? You mean, drinking less? Like I said, I don't drink that often. I'll go to parties every few months or I'll have a whole bunch of stuff happen, and one incident will heighten the emotional pain to where I have a little drink and I get drunk and I go to sleep. Let's see: my friend died of cancer, my b/f broke up with me, my cat has a disease and he has an 80% chance of dying, and people are stating to start with the rumors...again. When death, misery, and loneliness swell up to a certain point, that's when I drink. Or, when I get invited to a party (which is hardly ever), I'll have a shot or two and that's it. Alcohol only helps me escape so much, anyways, my real escape comes from punching the heck out of my closet door. And writing poetry. Alcohol isn't very accessable for me, anyways. I do it occasionally. I don't have enough access to become dependant.

[Gavin]

[SIZE=1]Interesting, most interesting.

"[I]Not Good[/I]", those were my initial thoughts when I read the title of this topic, and having read through the responses so far, it hasn't changed. Alcohol and depression are never, ever a good mix and will often make a situation worse, a fair comparison might be fire and petrol. Since you say you only drink every few months, and it's not all that accessible then it should be that much easier to help give it up.

I know it seems somewhat presumptuous of me to suggest that you give it up when you believe it's doing you no harm, but it and smoking are probably the most damaging habits, aside from hard drug of course, that you could pick up. And really you're doing yourself no favours even if it's an escape for you. As I've said to you before renayiiq, what you really need to is start talking to someone and try to get your life back on track. Aside from that I have no other advice, as I say to my younger brother, it's your life and ultimately how you life it is up to you.[/SIZE]

[renayiiq]

[QUOTE=Gavin][SIZE=1]Interesting, most interesting.

"[I]Not Good[/I]", those were my initial thoughts when I read the title of this topic, and having read through the responses so far, it hasn't changed. Alcohol and depression are never, ever a good mix and will often make a situation worse, a fair comparison might be fire and petrol. Since you say you only drink every few months, and it's not all that accessible then it should be that much easier to help give it up.

I know it seems somewhat presumptuous of me to suggest that you give it up when you believe it's doing you no harm, but it and smoking are probably the most damaging habits, aside from hard drug of course, that you could pick up. And really you're doing yourself no favours even if it's an escape for you. As I've said to you before renayiiq, what you really need to is start talking to someone and try to get your life back on track. Aside from that I have no other advice, as I say to my younger brother, it's your life and ultimately how you life it is up to you.[/SIZE][/QUOTE]

Well, I've found one way to ease my pain. I'm finding a better crowd to hang with. I'm kinda on the step team now, "kinda" meaning that I don't get to perform because of my big lack of inexperience, but I get to learn the routines and condition with the other girls. Most of these girls are nice and don't do drugs or talk alot of crap. There's a pretty good chance that I could make some friends. Better ones than I have now, anyways. And I've got another great reason to be happy and keep my spirits up. My cat is VERY ill, and I love him very much. My mom says that if I'm all depressed and sad and stuff, that he'll sense it and might give up his will to live. I love him so much and I can't let that happen. Brit and ben invited me to the movies, as well.
There is a downside, though...all of my so-called "friends" (Brandy, Rachal, Luke, Tim, Minda, Michelle, Elora, Sebastian 1, Sebastian 2, John, Gethsemane, etc.) keep going up to Korey (my recent ex, with whom I am now friends with), and telling him just how much of a jerk he is. And he's getting on my case about it. I don't control them!
Smoking - I plan to quit either during this Christmas break (yes, Christmas! HA! I am politically INcorrect! Hahaha!) or during the summer break, when I have no school, lots of my own time to do it w/o the stress of balancing grades, friends, activities, etc., on my shoulders.
Alcohol is not a habit for me. It doesn't taste god enough to become a habit. I am being very serious. I smoke menthols, so they taste pretty good (to me). I hate beer, and hard liquor tastes like ****, so I have to chase it with something. Wine is okay, tastes good some of the time, but doesn't do the job fast enough.
Well, it seems that life just may be getting easier -- and I'm making some changes to make it easier. I'm starting to be kinda...optimistic. This optimism stuff ain't so bad, after all...it's not as hard as I thought. Turns out, everyone has been right, especially my mom. If I just go for things that i like and want to do, set realistic goals, and not care what anyone thinks, maybe I will be happy.
Whatcha think?
(I've been like this all day, for some strange reason. I think something's wrong with me...or maybe something's [I]right[/I] with me for once. Wow. This just feels...weird, but kinda nice. LOL.)