Writing Painful Princess

[Inuyasha Fandom]

Painful Princess


So afraid to open your eyes,
So fearful of hurting
Or so you dare claim.

Yet all you do is hurt yourself
Some one please help you,
I'm begging for hopes and dreams
All I really want
But I can't save you now.

If I only knew
What you would do to me
If I only knew that all you do is hurt
But even if I did,
I'd do it all over again.
I know you're lost,
I know you're hurting
But you're trapped within a delusion.

Because you are a painful princess.

I once wanted to be there for you always
I wanted to be there for you when you cried
I wanted to love you always.
But you hurt me so much,
And destroyed all of that.

As much as I want to say this is all your fault
As you did bring this on yourself,
It also takes two to tango.
Because you are my painful princess

You belong to pain,
And pain belongs to you
You hurt me because I was the only one there
Beause I was the only one who wouldn't leave you
So you hurt me until I did
Feels like the pain will never end.

But I guess nothing was real after all,
I know you beleive that,
it wasn't real all along.
So nothing was lost
But alone is where you belong.

And so I left you then
I refused to remain there amidst the hurt you inflict.
But yet while I still I love you
I won't be held down
Chained to the painful princess you've become.

Because I love you
I've let go of you
I won't be there for you to hurt.
No more am I a punching bag for you
No more sorrows inflicted by you
It's such a relief.


You attempt impossibilities,
Just for the pain of the failure
Just so you could be miserable
To drown out your will to fly,
Because within the darkness you know yourself,
Finding your place amidst the ashes of pain and hurt.
I can't hold onto you,
But I don't want to forget our memories,
I wonder what's wrong with me?

I don't want to say goodbye,
But I have to break free

But I've forgiven you after all,
Anything is better than to let you be alone.
So I let you have my sweet surrender.
But I can not allow you with me.
All is still lost
I can't let you remain in my life.
In my dreams
I still give you all of my love
My heart never broken
But while I live among the daylight,
I will not be there for you.
Not any more,
My darling painful princess

So thus is the painful princess
I still hear your laughter in my ears
A sweet sound I'll never try to push away
Never in all my years
I still treasure the memories we made
No matter how hard I try to forget

They say love is thine sweetest woe
And thine most joyful sorrow
They are so right.
It feels almost like God sat the world on me
Don't come to me,
I can't fix you
If you loved me
Then prove it
But it hurts too bad,
With all my screaming unheard
Echoing forever through the void
I still love you my princess

But you are lost to me within the cold
I'm still grieving,
Lost and bleeding still from your lash
Heaven please shine down on me
Guide me now to the path that is right.
All my life
I will wait
For some one to come and save you
Right or wrong,
I can't let go of the fear
I'm lost with out you.
Some one please help me now.

Now my feelings surge
Anger has returned, and it's baring all its teeth
And as mush as I wish
I could find the words to make it all better
I know it will never happen.
So, grow up and and accept it.
You'll never be in my life again
I've locked the last door of my heart
And all but you have a key.
As much as I mourn the loss of your so called love,
It will never be.


But yet no matter how hard I tried
You kept pushing me away
Because you wanted your misery over happiness
There's no talking to you
But when all is said and done
You're going to be the lonely one
You'll be the one left behind.

And after all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I still love you
But oh no
Don't get me wrong my sweet,
I won't take the pain you inflict
Not any more
But you did make me stronger
You made me believe in myself
Why can't you do the same?

I remember why
Such a foolish question to ask
The answer right in front of me.
You love your misery too much

Now you think you hold the knife of my undoing
You think you stab me
But all you do is scratch me.
You think you hurt me,
When you do nothing of the sort.
What's going to make you realize
That you can't hurt me any more?
And what's going to hurt you,
And make you furious,
In your endless circle of pain
Just like what I've been saying,
Is that you won't stop me.

I hear your going around
Playing the victim now,
Making people beleive you were the right one,
As you've convinced yourself,
But don't even go thinking I'm the one to blame
Because you got bitten by your own ploy
And yet even I can admit this isn't all your doing.
And still if that's the role you're going to play
Then you can keep it,
Because you are the victim of yourself.
There is no turning back.

I thought I saw the good in you,
Which is why I stayed all this time
But it was all unjustly imaged
And helped me to not see the truth
Pretending I was blind to it
In part because I had such faith in you
You disguised your real self
By living in denial
And convincing yourself that you were right
And yet I repeat
In the end
You'll see you can't stop me.

Now I will tell you
I don't want your hand
I don't want to let myself fall before you
And yet its killing me
Feeling like I'm falling forever
You used to seem so strong
And yet made me so unsure of myself
It was almost like drowning
Drowning in your misery

You poor sweet pathetic princess
Dry your eyes
Rid them of the tears
I won't fall for them
Not after all of the pain
You live to break me
And love to hate me,
Don't you, princess?
Don't deny it,
You better remember
I'm sick of it all.
I had enough.
But you probably think I'l just come back to you.
Oh no.
But is it still too late to survive your own mistakes?
I can only hope they haven't spelled your fate,
And it hurts to feel that way

Well now its your turn
And about damn time.
And now I have some clarity,
I don't know why it took all this time
I don't know why you're this way
You'll never be happy
Not because I'll be making it that way,
But because you'll be hurting them like you did me
All you do is instigate
And it's always me that falls
And thus I just scream,
It echoes in my head,
I didn't know what to do.
But now I see the light.

Don't cry to me
You loved me?
Then you would have meant all of your apologizes.
Don't make me laugh.
It's all pissing me off.
You selfishly hate yourself
And take it out on me.
And for trying to say you were a wonder,
You hurt me worse than anyone ever had.
I must be a fool for taking so much.
No wonder you're so jaded
But maybe one day you can remember yourself.

I thought I knew you
You were always by my side,
Always down for a ride
But i was such a fool
But thanks for making things so clear
I think it was always a ploy to backstab me
Well congrats
It worked
But its only made me stronger.

I'm a fighter,
Didn't you know that?
Did you think I'd wither up and die?
That I'd die a pretty little death?
Think again.
I thought I'd forget,
But I'll remember
I used to go with your flow
I didn't really care about me.
But never again.
I won't bow to make it easy for you to hurt me.
My lonliness without you won't hurt me.
So here I go,
On my own.
I don't need anybody,
Not anybody like you.

Sorry that you just can't see
What you once meant to me
But your head's up in space.
You need to come back down to earth
Sorry princess you've missed out
Well tough luck
You brought this on yourself
This is how the story ends.

I don't need your pain
I don't need to be there for you
If all I'll get is you lashing out at me
You drove me away
And I hope it made you happy.
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
So to have we parted
There's no fixing things
You took my heart beat from me
You stabbed it for me
But now I'm stronger
And you'll never hurt me again.


After all,
You are the painful princess.
That's all you're good for.
When I walked away,
I hoped you would one day feel what I did.
So now I go,
And regardless of anything the future holds,
It doesn't scare me at all.
Nothing's like before.
I hate you
And I love you.
I wish I could just choose one.

And even after all this
I know you still are clueless,
After all,
You are the painful princess.

So let me spell it out for you


It's over.
I don't need you any more,
My darling painful Princess