Your Mentallity & Your Personality

[Aberinkula]

[COLOR="77656"]For me, I'm somewhat mentally stable. Now I have anger problems. I smash things when I'm mad, I hit things, and I yell. Sometimes I get so mad that I cry, but that's rare. I'm very imaginative too, I can come up with a story-line in a matter of seconds and turn it into something great. Even though my writing capabilities are limited. >_>

I act perverted, but I'm not. however that gets me into trouble. I accidentally brushed a girl's boob. at first it was a joke to her, and then it turned into a fight. Now one of my friends just told me not to worry about it. So I didn't then the next day at school, we made up. However she is a drama queen. Plus when someone says something, I tend to take differently. One of my friends had the nerve to ask me how it (the boob) felt. At lunch the next day, he got into a fight with me. (For the record it was MetalCore, but he gets pissed easily and soon forgets it.) He said he was kidding about the question. I don't know if he said that he was joking or not, but he should have never said it. So I tend to not listen.

In a PM, DB said I could be Passive Aggressive. From reading the Internet, I started to believe it, and I still do. But if I'm Passive Aggressive or not, I don't know.

So anyways, what are you like? Do you have any mental disorders or problems? Are you smart, or creative? Tell here... DISCUSS![/COLOR]

[2010DigitalBoy]

[COLOR="DarkOrange"]lol, about that. I misunderstood that actually, before. But if you think you are anyway, then whatever.

Anyway, though it leaves out important things about my brothers, I could be summarized by...

[B]Exposition[/B]

Depending on your sleep patterns, it's possible that you know what it's like to be kept up all night by your thoughts. Or perhaps it is that you naturally find yourself unable to sleep at night, and your thoughts see it fit to accompany you. To those who have not experienced this, it would be best to describe it. Thoughts from all corners of the mind might decide to bubble up during these lonely hours. In a time where something important rests upon your mind, it is likely to occupy your thoughts as it normally would. "Does she really love me?" "I hope I did well on the midterms," "I'm really glad I decided to become a vegetarian." In the meantime, other more menial thoughts might seek to shoulder these ones. "I really like that new Tool song," "I should change my desktop tomorrow." Perhaps a song will flitter through your head. "I'm a masochist, I'm turning on the screw."

Silos Cygnus was the type of boy to experience this on a daily basis. He had been a lifetime victim of chronic insomnia. However, as is the case with most, he was not diagnosed with this, nor had perfectly recognized that he suffered any problem. However, he was well aware that his sleep patterns were abnormal, because they had a habit of conflicting with other peoples' schedules. His parents had been notified of this later in his teens when he thought that it might be affecting his grades. His parents knew that even when he was a small child he'd had difficulty sleeping, however they'd never related it to a potential disorder.

Cygnus' time awake at night had, in recent years, become more stressful for him. On nights in which he found himself awake for a particular amount of time, his mind would run wild into speculation about his life. Sometimes there had been simplistic and often recurring themes of these strange thought patterns. For instance, there had been times in which he would wonder if his long hair was creating too much heat around his head, or if he'd be happier not having to put up with badgering questions about the nature of it. Sometimes his thoughts would be out of character entirely. Several times he had enacted a work-out regiment for himself late at night, hoping that by doing exercise he could start to get in shape without taking away from his day.

Other times his thoughts would be more complex. Cygnus had become obsessed with psychoanalyzing himself under the notion that he was different from other people or suffered psychological ailment. Because of his reserved nature among strangers, Cygnus was often ridiculed about his lack of physical capabilities, less-than-good looks, and reclusive personality. However, among friends he was thought of as outlandish for the way he said offensive or otherwise abnormal things for no reason. Though they only meant to poke fun at him, Cygnus wondered if their words held more meaning. On one hand, he thought that in a world as big as the one he lived in there must have been millions of people who were exactly like himself. However, the more he thought about the differences in culture between different places and his inability to find another person like himself, he became curious.

Most of Cygnus' time, he found, was spent doing repetitive tasks. While using the internet, he would cycle between two pages or reload a single one over and over even if he knew it would not change. Likewise, he would get up and walk around his house as if he expected to find something happening, only to return to what he was doing and repeat this process incessantly.

Cygnus believed himself to suffer from Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. While he was in his early teens, his father was diagnosed with the disorder and a few years later he found himself to bear matching symptoms. Upon researching the disorder thoroughly, he assured himself of his ailment, however he still did not seek to have it professionally diagnosed or cured.

He had also researched and found himself matched to every symptom of Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, however he had strong beliefs that the disorder was not real. Having known an incredible amount of people taking medication for this ailment, he'd lost trust that it was even a disorder and just the common behavior of people his age. Despite this, as his conditions seemed to grow worse, he wondered if it might be best for him to go find out if medication would actually be best for him, seeing that his inattention toward things which he aspired to succeed at was causing him to fail.

One of the biggest reasons that Cygnus did not believe in the existence of some of these psychological or physical disorders was because of the recent propaganda regarding Restless Leg Syndrome. For as long as he could remember, Cygnus had been known for his inability to keep one seating position for more than a few minutes, and it had caused him trouble while trying to concentrate at his desk, however he could not believe that something as simplistic as that could be considered a mental ailment.

It was in identifying all of these things to himself, though, that he began to question his own disbelief. After all, while it did seem ridiculous to himself that he could be suffering from so many disorders, it also stood to reason that they could all be real, and that he was denying himself the treatment he deserved. [/COLOR]

[Odin M Yggdrasi]

I'm a sociopath with a god complex- be glad the death note I have is not a real one or there would be trouble since I can match Light Yagami exactly with regard to personality. (I'm trying not to write any names in it anyway, I kind of would like to keep it just as a conversation piece and not have someone I show it to read the name of someone they like in it)

Yes, that includes how he acts in the final chapters- I get like that when too much goes wrong at once. It's kind of an overload, and usually if i am given time and space to cool down I will do so quickly and return to my normal self. The biggest difference is that when I get mad even though I may destroy stuff, I usually will only break objects that are easily replaced or are already garbage such as failed-to-burn DVDR discs.

There is also a strong bipolar coupled with aspergers, which makes me indecisive a lot- but once I decide something there is almost no changing it. It also provides a 'shell' effect, where I may be cold and seem to not care most of the time, while sometimes acting like a truely good person. I do like to think through actions before taking them, and love calculated risks.

I try not to be perverted, even though sometimes it may seem like I am. I am such a nerd that I think women look better with their clothes on, so it is kind of expected that I wouldn't be anywhere near as perverted as most people my age would be.

I am told that my mind works kind of like Spock from Star Trek- while I do have emotions I have problems identifying and understanding them. I've been working on it, and am getting better, but still am below where I should be. Logic just makes so much more sense. Abstract concepts, which emotions are a very good example of, tend to stall me a little bit- but once I figure out what they are and how they work I am fine with it.

Probably the neatest effect of aspergers is that even though I have problems identifying my own emotions, I can sense them in other people- especially pain and sadness. I may be an *** most of the time, but when I sense those I will usually do what I can to help them.

Originally (Around 1st Grade) I was diagnosed with ADHD, later it was re diagnosed to OCD with bipolar and antisocial, but comparing how I am to newer research it is likely that I would be re diagnosed again as aspergers, that being a closer match than any previous diagnosis.

[Aberinkula]

[COLOR="77656"]I wish I could make myself emotionless at times becasue I feel that emotions aren't that important. I myself stay up sometimes wondering about the Universe' secrest. Like how did god jsut get there? I find it impossible tobelieve he was just there. I also think what it would belike if Earth ws the only planet with sentient beings.

I used to, and somewhat still believe that we are in an Artificial Universe created by some being for mere entertainment. I believe this because of the supernatural. Some thing jsut seem to weird to believe. Maybe ghost's are just programs that linger around after deletion and the 'light' is just a empty space where we are brought back as different characters. I also believe that some UFO's are actually beings sent from the Real World to moniter our actions, and to make sure we don't get oo smart. Sounds a little matrixy, but that's what I believe.

But why do I believe in god? Becasue I want to think that we aren't artificial, so I have soemthign to look forward to after death. I've been told that I have a strong aura, and I believe it. I've been kept up at night just thinking of these wondrs and what truly lies beyond adn beneath our reality. And if there is an alternate reality, is it artificial to? Lke a server in an MMO.

But back to the emotion thing. I find some emotions useless, like happiness. No matter how happy someone is, they are really broken inside. A smile is just a beautiful facade used to shroud pain.

[QUOTE]The biggest difference is that when I get mad even though I may destroy stuff, I usually will only break objects that are easily replaced or are already garbage such as failed-to-burn DVDR discs. [/QUOTE]

Same here, my mom yells at me, but I could care less. I had a computer a few months ago taht woas a piece of ****., I got mad ebcasue I couldn't fidn my sneaker, so I kicked it and broke it. I also broke a few of my mom's things. Heirlooms more or less. But holy christ, it's just an object, get over it. I used to have this broken paddle, useless. My radio wouldn't work right, so I took the paddle and threw it against the wall. It shattered into pieces, so I just sat there looking at the motherboard and tied to put it back together, but it was a failed attempt.

I aslo have this thing about tecnology that started when I broke a remote and put it back together. I love to inspect things and see what makes something tick. I will also purposely brake a remote or something just to put it back together. I used to have an MP3, it broke so I decided to open to check it out. Sadly I could never get it apart. When I'm not angry I'm a *****.

Sometimes when I'm angry I daydream about killing the person who made me mad, however I would never do that. I don't actually have a mental disorder, I just have issues. I'm the kind of person who has the symptoms just not the disease. I kind of do things someone with OCD would, and I also think I have a split personality that coems out when I'm about to sleep. [spoiler]Has to do with Masterbation[/spoiler][/COLOR]

[2010DigitalBoy]

[COLOR="DarkOrange"]Prem, this is real lol material XD yall are some frighteningly angry kids, man. Most absolutely angry I ever got and I kicked over a fan. Even made sure it landed on my bed, and that I didn't kick it too hard to break it. Yall are crazy *** mofos. [/COLOR]

[Aberinkula]

[COLOR="77656"]Oh yeah, sometimes I get so mad that I bite myself to let off steam. One of fingers has rougher skin that the others becasue of it.

Oh, I'm crazy!?[/COLOR]

[Odin M Yggdrasi]

[quote name='Deus ex Machina'][COLOR="DarkOrange"]Yall are crazy *** mofos. [/COLOR][/QUOTE]

Please don't call me crazy, it sounds so derating.

I prefer to be the lord of insanity, or something with a little more dash to it, maybe even Disco Lord Yggdrasil.

[Allamorph]

[quote name='Odin M Yggdrasi']I am told that my mind works kind of like Spock from Star Trek- while I do have emotions I have problems identifying and understanding them. I've been working on it, and am getting better, but still am below where I should be. Logic just makes so much more sense. Abstract concepts, which emotions are a very good example of, tend to stall me a little bit- but once I figure out what they are and how they work I am fine with it.[/quote]
[FONT=Arial]Well, to put it simply from someone who kinda works the same way, it's Logic's job to make sense. :p Abstract concepts are the other side of the equation. (You might be surprised to know this, but logic works best while intertwined with abstraction, and sometimes the best thing you can possibly do for yourself is to be utterly stupid for no reason at all. Like pie. Or Uncle Ub's umbrella, and his underwear, too.)

Incidentally, Spock has no problems identifying and understanding his emotions; he just sees no logical sense to them. As long as we're arguing about fictional, abstract persons, that is.

Anyway, I have no state of mind any more. I got rid of it a while back because it was cumbersome and interfered with my abject logic. I just basically decide who I am as I go, which is much more convenient. Mostly I'm Difficult. It's amusing, and makes people roll their eyes when they see my (user)name attached to anything.

Speaking of pie, I have a post to finish....[/FONT]

[2010DigitalBoy]

[quote name='Allamorph'][FONT=Arial] It's amusing, and makes people roll their eyes when they see my (user)name attached to anything.[/FONT][/QUOTE]

[COLOR="DarkOrange"]Funny, usually I react by clicking on the thread as fast as possible (then proceeding to not read half of what you wrote XD)[/COLOR]

[DeathKnight]

[quote name='Gunslinger'][COLOR="77656"]I also broke a few of my mom's things. Heirlooms more or less. But holy christ, it's just an object, get over it.[/COLOR][/QUOTE]

[color=crimson]Jesus Christ this thread is a quagmire of some people with crap just flowing out of their mouth. I swear to god if this is the pending electorate in America I hope they start conscription so that you all end up Iraq with lead rearranging your dim personalities and giving you a hint of interesting traits.

God this thread gives me a headache.[/color]

[Odin M Yggdrasi]

[quote name='DeathKnight'][color=crimson]Jesus Christ this thread is a quagmire of some people with crap just flowing out of their mouth. I swear to god if this is the pending electorate in America I hope they start conscription so that you all end up Iraq with lead rearranging your dim personalities and giving you a hint of interesting traits.

God this thread gives me a headache.[/color][/QUOTE]

I just hope you aren't the kind who gets psychic powers when you get a headache.


And I'm suprised that you don't believe it, perhaps I should change my avatar since psycho mithos as an avatar does sometimes seem to discredit what I say.

But life is so much easier when you are totally out of your head. Seriously, don't diss it untill you try it. Don't need drugs either, just get psycho.

[DeathKnight]

[quote name='Odin M Yggdrasi']Don't need drugs either, just get psycho.[/QUOTE]

[color=crimson]I don't think you're lying, but neither do I have much reason to believe you.

If your situation is true, I would say that you are the most interesting person so far compared to the two wonder-twits.[/color]

[Rachmaninoff]

Reading this thread makes me feel utterly normal actually. I can't even imagine being anything like what's been described so far. I tend to be very organized, driven and goal directed. It's gotten me to where I am now, about to get my Masters degree and then start the Doctrate program next year. I'm told that I'm helpful and that I'm good at compromising and getting people to get along. As well as that I'm outgoing and social. I also handle stress well since even though I get angry like anyone else, I'm not violent and I get over it quickly. About the only thing I don't do is seek out new stuff, that tends to come from others, usually close friends, saying hey, check this out.

Now is any of this accurate? Beats me, most if not all of that is from those silly personality tests as well as the reviews given to me by past students, you know, where you fill out that form at the end of a semester to tell the school what you thought of your teacher. XP

[2010DigitalBoy]

[quote name='DeathKnight'][color=crimson]I don't think you're lying, but neither do I have much reason to believe you.

If your situation is true, I would say that you are the most interesting person so far compared to the two wonder-twits.[/color][/QUOTE]

[COLOR="DarkOrange"]Dude, mine was copied out of a novel. WTF you think I typed that ****?[/COLOR]

[Horendithas]

[COLOR="Indigo"][quote name='Deus ex Machina'][COLOR="DarkOrange"]Dude, mine was copied out of a novel. WTF you think I typed that ****?[/COLOR][/QUOTE]The real question here is if any of that actually describes you or not. If it does, who typed it originally doesn't really matter.

Now as for myself, I'm pretty boring and laid back except for working hard at school to maintain my grades. I rarely get angry, but when I do, I'm not nice. Though I calm down quickly and it really takes a lot to get me upset. Personality wise, my friends say I'm fun to be around and I'm fairly outgoing as well. The only thing that throws me off is people thinking I'm religious because I'm polite. That one I just don't get. Religion has nothing to do with being polite. lol[/COLOR]

[2010DigitalBoy]

[quote name='indifference'][COLOR="Indigo"]The real question here is if any of that actually describes you or not. If it does, who typed it originally doesn't really matter. [/COLOR][/QUOTE]
[COLOR="DarkOrange"]
I meant to say 'you think I typed that **** just now'

See, its from a novel i myself am writing about a character who is similar to myself. However, that description is downright robotic, and only talks about the characters supposed mental illnesses cuz the story, Medicate Me is all about his confusion toward those things. I share those sentiments, but I'd barely say it could describe me as there's much more to me. [/COLOR]

[Odin M Yggdrasi]

Mine was the real me, I'm slightly worse about it online than I am in reality actually- though it is still detectable.

I hate being smart, it's cursed I tell yaa.

[SunfallE]

[COLOR="RoyalBlue"][FONT="Lucida Sans Unicode"][quote name='Allamorph;796343][FONT=Arial]Anyway, [B]I have no state of mind any more[/B]. I got rid of it a while back because it was cumbersome and interfered with my abject logic. I just basically decide who I am as I go, which is much more convenient. [B]Mostly I'm Difficult[/B]. It's amusing, and makes people roll their eyes when they see my (user)name attached to anything.[/FONT][/QUOTE]Hahahaha! In other words you are a mystery to yourself and therefore can't see your own state of mind. :p [spoiler]Oh and once again... I'm just poking you Allamorph! ^_~ [/spoiler][QUOTE=DeathKnight'][color=crimson]Jesus Christ this thread is a quagmire of some people with crap just flowing out of their mouth. I swear to god if this is the pending electorate in America I hope they start conscription so that you all end up Iraq with lead rearranging your dim personalities and giving you a hint of interesting traits.

God this thread gives me a headache.[/color][/QUOTE]I think it's their job to give everyone a headache. o_O At least I hope so![quote name='Rachmaninoff']Reading this thread makes me feel utterly normal actually. [/QUOTE]Hehe, I think it has the same effect on me as well. XP But then DB has always seemed weird to me. [spoiler]I'm just poking you by the way DB[/spoiler]

Anyway, I'm pretty normal I guess. No anger issues, or rather I know how to deal with my anger instead of kicking a wall or other things. I like to think that I'm laid back and fun to be around and since many of my friends tell me that I'll assume that it's true.

Oh and you could say I'm direct. No sitting on the sidelines when someone is messing things up. If something needs to be fixed it frustrates me when people just let it slide. Or they try to leave you responsible and mooch off of you in the process. I had one roommate who refused to pay for her share of the message service with our phone service, even though it was a mere two dollars a month. She had no problem with getting messages though since it was universal and not done by person, just by the phone number.

When I moved in everyone else had been letting her get away with that kind of stuff all along and I basically told her that if she was too cheap to pay the two bucks then I would be deleting any and all messages for her. I remember how much it horrified the other girls, but she finally quit refusing to pay for the little expenses. Sure it was only two dollars, but that sort of thing really annoys me. It was just so petty on her part in my opinion. lol[/FONT][/COLOR]

[Allamorph]

[quote name='SunfallE][COLOR="RoyalBlue"][FONT="Lucida Sans Unicode"]Hahahaha! In other words you are a mystery to yourself and therefore can't see your own state of mind. :p [spoiler]Oh and once again... I'm just poking you Allamorph! ^_~ [/spoiler][/FONT'][/COLOR][/quote]
[FONT=Arial]Sometimes I wonder.....

[spoiler]HOMG. Never woulda known. (^_^)[/spoiler][/FONT]