Writing Let You In My Head

[SachiroUchiha]

(before I begin, I'd like to say that I changed the title of this story, and that it's somewhere on TheOtaku. I didn't get alot of reviews so I'm hoping I'll get some here. This is my first attempt at fanfiction, so if you have any comments on how I can improve, please let me know. Thanks!!)
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Solitude.

This is what I call this...constant loneliness, this endless time to think about the past and the future, my goals. It is good, because if I just let myself become attached to these almost? inferior people of Konoha, they would just slow me down. Weaken me. I don?t want nor need friends, because they just bring back memories from the past that I?d rather forget. Of course, these clueless idiots (like a certain Haruno?ugh?and other fangirls) do try to associate themselves with me, barely aware of the hostile barrier that I have built around myself. Fools - becoming emotionally attached to others.

They are so naïve! Naïve of the many dangers of this, the danger of trust. The cost of becoming foolish enough to trust other people, no matter how many suspicious things they do. My own brother, whom everyone had once looked up to, betrayed the Uchiha Clan - my Clan who had dared to trust my genius brother, my Clan who had ultimately paid the highest price with their lives. And now, I alone am the only one left to see the ruins of my Clan, see for myself how trust ruined everything? my possible life. But this life now will someday, eventually give me the chance to destroy that evil man painfully, and to restore my Clan to full power. This pain is the only thing that I?m grateful to my brother for.

As I stand alone here in the cool shade of the leafy green trees above me, barely watching the remaining members of Team Seven (the team members that I am forced to be around with), Uzumaki Naruto decides to leave the group. He runs up to me. I coldly glance at him. Stupid, clumsy idiot. How on earth did he ever become a Genin? The only useful jutsu he knows is the forbidden Shadow Clone Jutsu...

?Sasuke, come and practice with me and Sakura! Kakashi?s making us all recap on using our chakra properly. We have to run up trees, again!?

Mentally, I sigh. So boring, so annoying. Why must I be slowed down continually by these two dimwits? And what did I ever do to anyone, to deserve being annoyed all the time by Naruto?

I narrow my eyes at him. ?I don?t need this sort of practice.?

Naruto scowls. ?Yeah, because my name?s Sasuke Uchiha and I?m too good for everybody so I don?t need to practice. Yeah yeah, say something new!?
I turn my head away from him, acting like I am bored- which I am, actually. And?although I don?t show it- it would be weak if I did? his words sting me, just a little. Why?would that be so??

?Whatever,? I say coldly to him. With no sign of the anger directed at myself, for allowing this feeling caused by him shown on my face, I walk away, and Naruto does not follow. Probably going back to Sakura now to complain about me.

As I walk off, I think about what he said. What the hell does he know about me? He doesn?t know what it?s like to suffer by losing everything! He knows nothing, nothing at all about me! I do need to practice, but not by walking up trees; I mastered that a long time ago. I need to practice different skills, master new jutsu. Only by doing this, can I avenge my Clan and become stronger. I grit my teeth, temper flaring. Why am I letting his words affect me?? Naruto thinks I?m selfish, and arrogant. What do I care? Ugh! He was alone, from the very start! Nobody at all had expectations of him, nobody at all, unless they were wondering whether Naruto could keep the Nine Tailed Fox inside of him! I, on the other hand, had family at the start.

I was stupid enough to grow a little attached to some, was stupid enough let myself love some. I was a fool, a ?weakling?, just like Itachi said. There were expectations of me, always. Whenever I succeeded, I was always told by my respected father that that was what was expected by his son, that that was what was expected by an Uchiha. If I ever failed, then the disappointment in the eyes of my family was overwhelming. I was forever in the shadow of my brother, always known as ?Itachi?s brother?, never known by my actual name. It had frustrated me so much to know that I could never exceed these expectations- that I would always be overshadowed by the genius in our family, my traitor brother. It was so frustrating at the time? I used to feel like screaming at my parents, ?Leave me alone, I?m not my brother!! And I could be just as good as he is, if you would just stop comparing me to someone I?m not!!? That, was when I was.. a child.

And even now, now that Konoha knows the truth about Itachi, I am still barely any different, still haunted endlessly by memories. The only difference now is this new pain and longing for someone to?care, that arrived after the destruction. I wish that I still had a home to go to sometimes, wish that I still could feel loved. Wish even now that someone, sometimes, maybe even once, would kiss my forehead before I sleep at night. I was just a child, back then, when it happened?then deprived of love for the rest of my childhood. I want to be accepted for who I am, and I don?t want expectations of myself. I want to be able to love and be loved, yet I absolutely cannot allow myself to be that weak. I will not cause myself more pain than necessary. But I won?t let myself be distracted these wishes, for they can never come true, for my childhood was stolen from me. I can never trust, love again?

Because 12 years ago, a boy named Itachi Uchiha destroyed every member of my Clan so he could become stronger? and he ripped to shreds any hope of me loving another person ever again.

My name is Sasuke Uchiha, and I am not my brother - I will not gain power the same way he did, either. I exist now, to avenge my Clan, by destroying my traitor brother, and to restore the once greatness of the Uchihas, so that one day I may find inner peace within the hatred and hurt inside of me.

This is who I really am.

[DragonRider11]

Wow. You really get in the guys head! Awesome charachter analysis! Your a pretty cool writer!