Suicidal problems...

[Avalon]

I'm really having problems for the past three weeks and right now I think I'm going to do something drastic. Here's the story:

I spent the night over my friend, Revi's, house and we kinda got drunk and ended up sleeping with each other. The next day, I realized what I did and was very ashamed. I didn't talk to her and still haven't. After that, I repented every day and prayed every night. I couldn't tell my mother...she would go off the deep end and curse at me about Christianity and their laws. So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. And the kids in school. The kids in school like to make fun of me and tease me. Monday of last week, we had a food fight. But instead of throwing food at other persons, they threw it at me. I was so mortified. Tuesday, some girls tripped me down the stairs. Wednesday, they cut a lot of my hair while I was studying in class. Thursday and Friday I cut school to avoid tormentation. I feel like dying!! I cried every day of the week for three weeks straight. I don't know what to do!! Can you tell me?

[Guest Matt]

tell your mom u fell bad, tell here everything but the sleeping with ur friend part. get help. don't kill ur self.:(

[Sui Generis]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]I'm really having problems for the past three weeks and right now I think I'm going to do something drastic. Here's the story:

I spent the night over my friend, Revi's, house and we kinda got drunk and ended up sleeping with each other. The next day, I realized what I did and was very ashamed. I didn't talk to her and still haven't. After that, I repented every day and prayed every night. I couldn't tell my mother...she would go off the deep end and curse at me about Christianity and their laws. So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. And the kids in school. The kids in school like to make fun of me and tease me. Monday of last week, we had a food fight. But instead of throwing food at other persons, they threw it at me. I was so mortified. Tuesday, some girls tripped me down the stairs. Wednesday, they cut a lot of my hair while I was studying in class. Thursday and Friday I cut school to avoid tormentation. I feel like dying!! I cried every day of the week for three weeks straight. I don't know what to do!! Can you tell me? [/B][/QUOTE]


Hey you know what!! Hang in there I am having something to that extent happen to me...just not with the sleepign with someone yet...thing....But yes I did skip school yesterday to aviod everything...but I'll tell you one thing if you kill yoruself....they'll just remember you as a wuss...if you prove that you are strong enough to endever this you will become stronger yourself...and will gain some respect....Also God will not have damned you...for if you repented and sincerely ment it its kewl..."Do not hate the Sinner hate the sin"...If your mom is a heavy Christian she would have read that many a time...So just go to her and tell her what happened and tell her that you are ashamed and scared and sorry....What I would say is to pray to god to help those kdis...and otherwise snub 'em...Don't pay attention to them...and if worst comes to worse call me and get me a ticket and I will be there in two days to kick their sorry asses...:)

[Sara]

[FONT=century gothic]Please, [i]don't[/i] do anything drastic. You're having a hell of a time right now, but I have every confidence that you'll pull through.

Don't worry about God damning you. When I see people worrying about things like this--it sometimes makes me think James has got the right of things. Religion is crazy.

But that's definitely NOT the important thing here.

Hey--what the little kids learn in Sunday School holds true. God loves ya. Unconditionally. [i]No matter what.[/i]

If that's not something you want to hear about right now, that's okay. Even if you don't realize it, you do have people who care about you.

You can pull through this. Life's rough--you're having a worse time than a lot of people--but please don't give up.

If you want to talk, you can reach me on AIM or Yahoo at cynic042.[/FONT]

[Avalon]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by DuoGod of Death [/i]
[B]


Hey you know what!! Hang in there I am having something to that extent happen to me...just not with the sleepign with someone yet...thing....But yes I did skip school yesterday to aviod everything...but I'll tell you one thing if you kill yoruself....they'll just remember you as a wuss...if you prove that you are strong enough to endever this you will become stronger yourself...and will gain some respect....Also God will not have damned you...for if you repented and sincerely ment it its kewl..."Do not hate the Sinner hate the sin"...If your mom is a heavy Christian she would have read that many a time...So just go to her and tell her what happened and tell her that you are ashamed and scared and sorry....What I would say is to pray to god to help those kdis...and otherwise snub 'em...Don't pay attention to them...and if worst comes to worse call me and get me a ticket and I will be there in two days to kick their sorry asses...:) [/B][/QUOTE]

But the problem with that is...I liked the sex!! :bawl: No not again! Shut up! Shut up!! Shut up!!!

[Guest Matt]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by DuoGod of Death [/i]
[B]
and if worst comes to worse call me and get me a ticket and I will be there in two days to kick their sorry asses...:) [/B][/QUOTE]

i'll be there too, duo can't do it alone. no one messes with Panny Chan and gets away with it. if u need anything, just call. :cool:

[Transtic Nerve]

I'm just going to say one thing... suicide is for cowards... it's never the answer, just a way out.. a way out for people who can't handle the hardships of life...

As far as what happened... you have to accept it... and others.. well they all need to grow up... I'm gay, and I've delt with the torment but I'm still here...you have to deal with it... once you get out on your own, away from the immaturities of school, you'll be fine... your mother doesn't have to know anything... it's your life, not hers... just don't kill yourself... you have so much to look up to... if you think you are at the bottom of your pit, there's no where to go but up... so thats what you have to look up to....

[Guest Matt]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]

But the problem with that is...I liked the sex!! :bawl: No not again! Shut up! Shut up!! Shut up!!! [/B][/QUOTE]

it's not wrong if u like it. this is my first time admitting this but, i have had sex with a guy before, once. i liked it, but i find girls 100% better. just because i liked it doesn't mean i'm wrong or bad.

[Kuja]

[SIZE=1][FONT=century gothic][COLOR=crimson]well i know your like omg that Ahold kuja typed in my thread. But i have been there, seen it happen too.
First off i lost one of my friends my junior year of high school. At Lunch. In my arms. Ill never forget what she said when she died. But trust me life may be down for ya. It isnt worth it. You have friends, here and you should always rememer that. People here like you and enjoy your posts, the good and the bad. But look life is more important than anything i can of. Look i lost a friend and from personal experience sucide isnt the answer.

A. Sue the pants off the girls who cut your hair.
B. Tell your mom the truth THE WHOLE TRUTH.
C. Make sure not drink it is the root of all evil in my mind... ruins more lives than anything.[/COLOR][/FONT][/SIZE]

[Transtic Nerve]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Son Goten [/i]
[B]

it's not wrong if u like it. this is my first time admitting this but, i have had sex with a guy before, once. i liked it, but i find girls 100% better. just because i liked it doesn't mean i'm wrong or bad. [/B][/QUOTE]

Amen sister! ::high five:: lol

Does that mean you're bi or just one of those straight boys who likes to experiement... or did like to... they are still just as good lol.

[Guest Matt]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Transtic Nerve [/i]
[B]

Amen sister! ::high five:: lol

Does that mean you're bi or just one of those straight boys who likes to experiement... or did like to... they are still just as good lol. [/B][/QUOTE]

i am straight, but it was one of those times i'm over at a friends house, he pulls out a porn mag, and it escalates from there.

[Transtic Nerve]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Son Goten [/i]
[B]

i am straight, but it was one of those times i'm over at a friends house, he pulls out a porn mag, and it escalates from there. [/B][/QUOTE]

Tis a shame... i can have my hopes up for the cute boys can't I!?!? lol But yeah, my friend still claims he's straight and we've been doing stuff for over 5 years! .... yeah this is too serious a thread to try to be funny in.... ::looks around and starts looking at Gackt pics:: OHH don't you think my avatar is Kawaii??

[JCBaggee]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]I'm really having problems for the past three weeks and right now I think I'm going to do something drastic. Here's the story:

I spent the night over my friend, Revi's, house and we kinda got drunk and ended up sleeping with each other. The next day, I realized what I did and was very ashamed. I didn't talk to her and still haven't. After that, I repented every day and prayed every night. I couldn't tell my mother...she would go off the deep end and curse at me about Christianity and their laws. So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. And the kids in school. The kids in school like to make fun of me and tease me. Monday of last week, we had a food fight. But instead of throwing food at other persons, they threw it at me. I was so mortified. Tuesday, some girls tripped me down the stairs. Wednesday, they cut a lot of my hair while I was studying in class. Thursday and Friday I cut school to avoid tormentation. I feel like dying!! I cried every day of the week for three weeks straight. I don't know what to do!! Can you tell me? [/B][/QUOTE][color=red][size=3][b]Don't you dare![/b]
Remember me?! Your Otaku Valentine! I don't think any less of you, 'cuz I don't care! Heck, the fact that TN is gay doesn't bug me, 'cuz it's his decision...if you're gay, big deal, who cares! If your friends are making fun of you, they aren't your friends! I've lost enough friends this week, I don't need to lose you too![/color][/size]

[Dan L]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. [/B][/QUOTE]

Erm... I'm not religious... but my mum and dad are... and what they would say is 'God doesn't damn anyone'.. you see.. the only people who would damn you are those who fear what they don't understand.. the same christians that are so anti-homosexual.. but that's not what the religion is about, that's their personal beliefs. I know many christians who don't judge anyone to the same extent as those people.. That's what religion is truly about. And as for the people who make fun of you- ignore them. Soomer or later if they continue this way someone will stand up to them. ;)

[Kei]

[COLOR=sky blue]Don't kill yourself. Think of all the people who love and care about you. You'd make all of them so sad, and if there's one thing you shouldn't do its let your family down.

It's alright that you slept with your friend. That doesn't make you a bad person. And God loves everyone, no matter they be gay, straight, black, white, whatever. He loves you and always will.

As for the teasing thing, forget about 'em. I get teased on a daily basis and I don't let it bother me. I just remember that they're just a bunch of ignorant morons that don't have anything else better to do than ridicule someone else to boost their own ego. But I would do something about the girl who cut your hair. That's assault and you can sue her for it. And tell your mom the truth. Even though she's religious, she's still your mother. She might get argry, but she'll eventually calm down and you two can talk about it. Just don't kill yourself. That's cowardly and stupid. (Not to sound harsh, but it is)[/COLOR]

[mornigndew]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B] So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. [/B][/QUOTE]
[color=blue][size=1]God will, if you suicide.
Don't feel bad, what's done is done. [/color][/size]

[boris]

well, if you were drunk, that prob made it hard on judgment. but being drunk dose not make it ok, i think your friend may have been in the right place at the right.you might want to find out if your straight, bi, or gay. when you find out, that may make it easyer to decide what to do.

if you kill your self, you dont solve anything.stay alive, i am not saying it will get better tommarow, or even next week. but do remember, people have bad memories and will forget.

[James]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]I'm really having problems for the past three weeks and right now I think I'm going to do something drastic. Here's the story:

I spent the night over my friend, Revi's, house and we kinda got drunk and ended up sleeping with each other. The next day, I realized what I did and was very ashamed. I didn't talk to her and still haven't. After that, I repented every day and prayed every night. I couldn't tell my mother...she would go off the deep end and curse at me about Christianity and their laws. So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. And the kids in school. The kids in school like to make fun of me and tease me. Monday of last week, we had a food fight. But instead of throwing food at other persons, they threw it at me. I was so mortified. Tuesday, some girls tripped me down the stairs. Wednesday, they cut a lot of my hair while I was studying in class. Thursday and Friday I cut school to avoid tormentation. I feel like dying!! I cried every day of the week for three weeks straight. I don't know what to do!! Can you tell me? [/B][/QUOTE]

[color=royalblue]*sigh* Panny Chan...this is when my disapproval of religion becomes very justified. But I won't talk about that now...as it's not appropriate.

What I will say is that you have absolutely nothing to regret or feel sorry for.

If you [i]are[/i] infact homosexual or bisexual...there is nothing wrong with that at all. And nobody should ever dare tell you that God disapproves of you -- as nobody but God can judge other human beings...and if you are a kind person who treats others well and lives your life according to what you believe is right...I don't think God would have a reason to be angry about you.

I went through a period during my second last year of high school where I felt very depressed. Very depressed. And thoughts of suicide crossed my mind on a daily basis.

Sometimes I still get a little depressed...and sometimes it can be difficult to control and deal with.

I'm not saying that for sympathy or anything though -- I'm saying it because I totally understand how you feel. The world tells you how you have to look...how you have to behave...and even how you should [i]love[/i]. But that isn't right.

As I believe I've said before...if you have sex with someone...or you are in love with someone (whether it be someone of a different religion, cultural background or someone of the same sex)...only you can decide whether or not it is acceptable.

And if you were to end up falling in love with someone of the same sex...the idea that they are the same sex shouldn't even enter your mind. Falling in love is a good thing...and it's wrong to tell people that they're not allowed to fall in love with certain people. If you fall in love, you fall in love.

I'm not saying to be wreckless...but I'm saying (in a kind of awkward way) that I understand what you're going through. It's very difficult to swim against the stream of abuse and intolerance in the world -- [i]especially[/i] when your own parents disapprove of you.

But if you can get past all of that crap...and end up finding someone who you love (male OR female)...you will find that life can be happy and that the good can definitely outweigh the bad. :)

Be happy with yourself. It's not you who are doing wrong. Those around you who disapprove are the ones who are truly doing wrong.[/color]

[Vegitto4]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Panny Chan ;) [/i]
[B]I'm really having problems for the past three weeks and right now I think I'm going to do something drastic. Here's the story:

I spent the night over my friend, Revi's, house and we kinda got drunk and ended up sleeping with each other. The next day, I realized what I did and was very ashamed. I didn't talk to her and still haven't. After that, I repented every day and prayed every night. I couldn't tell my mother...she would go off the deep end and curse at me about Christianity and their laws. So I'm kinda worried that God might have damned me or something. And the kids in school. The kids in school like to make fun of me and tease me. Monday of last week, we had a food fight. But instead of throwing food at other persons, they threw it at me. I was so mortified. Tuesday, some girls tripped me down the stairs. Wednesday, they cut a lot of my hair while I was studying in class. Thursday and Friday I cut school to avoid tormentation. I feel like dying!! I cried every day of the week for three weeks straight. I don't know what to do!! Can you tell me? [/B][/QUOTE]

If you have truly repented for your sins, then you shouldn't be feeling guity about it anymore. You have been forgiven if you were sincere, and changed your actions

[James]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Vegitto4 [/i]
[B]

If you have truly repented for your sins, then you shouldn't be feeling guity about it anymore. You have been forgiven if you were sincere, and changed your actions [/B][/QUOTE]

[color=royalblue]She didn't sin. :)

Let's not make her feel like she [i]truly[/i] has something to be sorry for.[/color]

[Dan L]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by James [/i]
[B]

[color=royalblue]*sigh* Panny Chan...this is when my disapproval of religion becomes very justified. But I won't talk about that now...as it's not appropriate.[/color] [/B][/QUOTE]

hmmm.... I don't actually think religion is the problem, I think it's more the organisation, i'e' the church. They are the ones putting forward the 'God condemns homosexuals' and such ideas. My mum and dad are both religious (and christian) but beleive in no such thing. I'm not saying you're wrong to disapprove of religion, but I think religion itself isn't the problem in this case, the problem is those that represent it.

[James]

[QUOTE][i]Originally posted by Deus_Ex_Machina [/i]
[B]

hmmm.... I don't actually think religion is the problem, I think it's more the organisation, i'e' the church. They are the ones putting forward the 'God condemns homosexuals' and such ideas. My mum and dad are both religious (and christian) but beleive in no such thing. I'm not saying you're wrong to disapprove of religion, but I think religion itself isn't the problem in this case, the problem is those that represent it. [/B][/QUOTE]

[color=royalblue]If religion were taken in true context, much of the world would be a better place.

Unfortunately, as with anything like this...religion is interpreted by people who have their own agendas. Thus the whole creationism/anti-homosexuality/interolance stuff.

But let's let the subject rest there. I think we all agree that religion in its pure form isn't the problem -- but obviously, someone has taught Panny Chan that what she did would be considered a "sin" and that she will be damned by God if she is involved in such activity.

Whoever taught her that is truly immoral.[/color]

[k9*]

christians are supposed to show God's love, not the devil's hate...

panny, the ones that are judging you are the sinners, as james has said...and i'm going to leave it at that

[JCBaggee]

[color=red][size=3]God, religion makes me sick sometimes.

Panny...My AOL IM handle is at the top of my siggy...don't do anything stupid...I care...and obviously everyone who posted before me does. Screw the sinners! As long as you're happy, who cares what other people think?!

--JCBaggee

"Life's a gift...why would anyone want to take that away?"
--Jarred, the Pretender[/color][/size]

[mornigndew]

[color=blue][size=1]Penny, what you did is not sin, you have no intention to do it. If you suicide or do anything stupid to hurt yourself because you fêel guilty, then that's bad. Suicide is a sin, you show disrepect toward life.
You make a mistake, the important thing about it you know what you did and learn from, not running away. There're many people who care about you like JC. Everything make mistake, you're not the only one. [/color][/size]