Writing Good but sad story

[Sui Generis]

Now if you're dealing with suicide or just have a really soft heart I don't suggest you read this, it is about suicide.



REI

Be true to self-destructive veins.
Rei sat in her chemistry class. She stared unseeingly at the test in front of her, occasionally making the effort to focus on the problems. After a while, she managed to steady herself enough to actually start working on it. Well...making marks on it at least. She hadn't studied at all. It may as well be in Greek for all she remembered. But then, it probably wouldn't have helped much if she had studied. She wouldn't have been able to see her notes for the tears blurring her vision. Rivan... one of her best friends. Just another teenage suicide. Intentional overdose. Rei put numbers together randomly, multiplying and dividing in the vain hopes that maybe she'd get a problem right. She turned the page, and stared uncomprehendingly. Oh wonderful, lab problems. She skipped that page.
Rei handed in her test, having left a page and a half blank. She worried for a second about how this would affect her average in this class, then quit thinking about it. Rivan dying had put things in perspective. After class ended, Rei went straight to her next class. She didn't feel like talking with her friends today. As she walked across the courtyard, however, she heard someone call her name. She ignored it, but suddenly Paige was walking next to her. "It'll be alright. Everyone dies sooner or later." he said.
"I know... it just seems so unreal." Rei replied, not looking at him. "I've known people who've attempted it, but no one's ever succeeded."
Paige unthinkingly adjusted his spiked bracelet over the scars on his wrist. They reached Rei's class. "Don't think so much on it." he said. "I know you're hurting. I am too. You want me to come into class with you? Maybe I can help take your mind off her."
"Thanks." said Rei. Paige could take her mind off anything. They walked into the classroom, heading quickly for the back where Paige wouldn't be noticed.
If I destroy myself I can't shine on
Rei walked home. She had the house to herself for the weekend. Her mother was on another important business trip. She flipped the television on, then turned it off again. She put on a cd, and poured herself a shot of Absolut vodka. The phone rang.
"Hello."
"What are you doing?" came Paige's voice.
"Vodka." replied Rei.
"I'll never understand why you like that stuff."
"Hypocrite." laughed Rei. "What are /you/ doing right now?"
"Not Absolut, I can tell you that."
"Come over and bring me some?"
"I'll be there in two seconds."
Swallowing habits die real hard
A zero. Rei wasn't altogether too surprised. She hadn't known any of the material on the test. She stuck it in the back of her notebook and sighed. Now that some of the shock had worn off, she started to worry about her average again. After class she talked with Paige, Eian, and Sabina.
"Don't worry about it." said Sabina, always the laid-back one.
"Well that's easy for you to say. Your parents are happy if you bring home a C."
"There'll be more tests. You can bring your grade back up." shrugged Eian.
"I suppose." said Rei.
Jay walked over. He had taken more care with his makeup to cover up his red eyes, but they could tell he'd been crying. Rivan was his girlfriend of a year and a half.
"Hey, man." said Eian.
"Yo." replied Jay. "What's happening?"
"Not much. We're consoling Rei." replied Sabina.
"I got a zero on my chem test." Rei informed him.
"Aww, that sucks." said Jay.
"Go hit something." said Eian. "Always helps."
"Hehe, give her one of your shoes, Jay." said Sabina, snickering.
Everyone automatically glanced at Jay's monstrosity of a pair of shoes. Black, clunky, with a two-inch platform.
"I still don't get why you have to wear those gigantic shoes when you're already, like, six four." said Eian.
"Yeah, you make everyone around you feel all short." said Rei.
"And you're so thin! I think you're thinner than I am. The shoes just heighten the alien impression." said Sabina. "Yeah, we're onto you. We know you're not from this earth."
"Paige wears the same type." Jay defended himself.
All eyes went to Paige's shoes, which were even bigger.
"But see, Paige isn't already over six feet. He can get away with it." replied Sabina.
"What about your own shoes?" said Jay, pointing at Sabina's back-lace-up boots with a three-inch heel.
"My shoes are cool. And I'm short. I have to wear tall heels."
"Rivan always wore really tall heels." Jay got a depressed look in his eye again.
"Ah, we're all gonna get depressed again." said Sabina. "Quick, talk about something else. Not chemistry, not Rivan, not- not anything sad. Be somewhat up. **** being depressed, you know?"
"You're right." agreed Rei. "I'm not going to dwell on it. What's done is done."
When I destroy myself I can't shine on
Rei strode into the hospital waiting area. Eian, Paige, and Sabina were already there. "Is he--?"
"No." replied Paige, standing up and giving her a hug.
"It was close, though." said Sabina. Her laid-back facade was gone, and she was openly crying. She'd only done that once before: at Rivan's death. "He lost a lot of blood."
"How-?" asked Rei.
"Slit his wrists." replied Eian, with just the merest glance at Paige.
"Ai."
"It was just too much for him. He couldn't take Rivan being gone." said Eian.
Rei sank into a chair. Paige reached over and took her hand.
"Can we see him?" she asked.
"He's just down the hall." replied Eian. "Go for it."
Rei walked down the hall, peering in rooms till she found Jay.
"Jay! Baka yo!"
Jay looked up. "I'm not dead." he said.
"You don't have to sound so depressed about it."
He sighed.
"Listen, you. Wasn't Rivan enough? Don't you remember how you felt when she died? Now you want to do the exact same thing to the rest of us. Didn't you stop to think about who you'd be hurting if this had worked? Did you think at all? You're one of my best friends, Jay! Paige and Eian and Sabina's too! You remember how scared we all were when Paige attempted this exact same thing??" Rei stopped. She glared at Jay. "You'd better be /thankful/ that Eian walked in on you and got you here in time."
Jay looked down at the bandages wrapped around his wrists. Rei sat on the edge of the bed. "Don't /ever/ do anything like this again. Do you hear me? /Ever/."
Eian, Paige, and Sabina trooped in, looking around cautiously for doctors and nurses.
Taking a cue from better days
Rei lay on her bed and sobbed. It was all too much. Her grades had dropped steadily ever since Rivan's death. They had picked up a bit afterwards, then went right back down after Jay's attempted suicide. And then, just yesterday, Paige died. Car accident. He was killed by a drunk driver on his way back from Blockbuster after having returned a movie ten minutes before midnight. Rei sat up. She made her way into the bathroom, where all the pills were. She knew it was a selfish option. She knew she'd be leaving behind only more grief for Eian, Sabina, and Jay. She didn't care. It had reached the point where nothing mattered anymore. She locked the door to the bathroom, just in case. It was late, but she never knew when someone might just decide to come over without any advance warning. That was how Jay had been saved. She had counted it fortunate that Eian had decided to drop by Jay's to see how he was holding up and found him before he bled to death, but now she realised she had just been thinking of herself. If Jay had been feeling anything like she was feeling now, maybe it would have been better for him if he had succeeded. Rei opened the medicine cabinet.
Favourite ways you can lose
Sabina found the spare key and let herself in when no one answered at Rei's house. She was worried. She made her way upstairs to Rei's bedroom. She wasn't there. Sabina noticed the closed bathroom door. There was no light coming under the door, although it was late. She grew more worried. She knocked. "Rei? You in there?"
No answer. Sabina tried the doorknob. Locked. There was no key for this door. She ran for the phone in Rei's room. "Eian? I'm at Rei's. Come quick, she's locked herself in the bathroom and isn't answering. Bring Jay too, alright?"
"I'll be over in two seconds." Eian hung up. Soon after, he and Jay met Sabina at Rei's house.
"We'll break it down." said Eian, after knocking and trying the knob once more. He and Jay rammed the door till it splintered and they could reach through to unlock it from the inside. Jay opened the door.
"Rei!" screamed Sabina. Eian felt for a pulse. Jay with his long legs ran for the phone and called 911.
Eian shook his head.

[Makai Kite]

I'm new here. I read this fic and it really moved me. I've only known one person who has ever even thought about committing suicide in my life. She had thought of ways to do it and places to do it. But I got her the help she needed in time... Thank goodness for that. I read this despite your warning, and I'm glad I did. Thanks for the great fic.

[Juu]

[color=deeppink] [size=1]*huggles ya*
That was sad... :bawl:
But... great as always, Bryan. ^_-
and btw... post in gamer!![/color] [/size]

[Biida]

*feels her emotions shaken as she reads it, her own experiences flooding back unwarningly into her mind as she tries not to think about them*...

....Damnit, Bryan. Warn me more thoroughly before you post something like that. O.o;;;

But anyway. Good story. Touching... I like. *thumbs up*